Prayer Requests – 9

Please share any prayer requests you may have for friends or loved ones here….

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  1. justfactsplz says:

    I just wanted to let you know that Carl died at two this morning. Please pray for Gary as he was so believing Carl would make it. Thank you so very much.

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    • LBB says:

      May Carl rest in peace and with hopes that intercessory prayers for his salvation came in time. I feel for Gary who was not wanting this outcome. May he find understanding and comfort while he goes through the grieving process. Dear Lord please soothe the pain for all involved.

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Thank you LBB. With Gary’s disease he is very child like so he is processing this differently than we would. He has never handled death well even before the alzheimers.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      I’m very sorry, justfacts. Prayers for Gary’s comfort.

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    • Sayit2016 says:

      Prayers being sent…. i have been there and truly know how Gary feels….I pray we will all understand someday why some prayers appear not to be answered in the way we wanted…

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    • The Defiant One says:

      Justfactsplz, Carl will be in my prayers and I wish I could say the words to take some of the burden from your heart from his passing!

      Please don’t forget that you aren’t alone and that people care about you!

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    • Donna in Oregon says:

      Praying now.

      For Unfailing Strength for Gary

      Do not look forward to what may happen
      tomorrow; the same everlasting Father who cares
      for you today will take care of you tomorrow and
      every day. Either He will shield you from suffering,
      or He will give you unfailing strength to bear it.
      Be at peace, then. Put aside all anxious thoughts and
      imaginations, and say continually: “The Lord is my
      strength and my shield. My heart has trusted in Him
      and I am helped. He is not only with me but in me,
      and I in Him.

      Amen

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  2. bcsurvivor2 says:

    So sorry to hear about Carl. May he rest in peace.

    You know, like many of you I have gone through many periods of grief and loss. Not understanding God’s plan at all and many, many prayers seemed to go unanswered.
    As I get older, and maybe more observant and in retrospective moments or introspective moments, God’s plan, for me, has been revealed to me.
    Every moment where I felt forsaken has caused me to gather more strength, and through my experiences I have been able to be more compassionate and helpful to others. I’ve learned to let go and have faith….to trust.
    Praise God.
    Peace,
    Eve

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    • justfactsplz says:

      I have experienced much the same. What toughens us and strengthens us is often the blessing of our hardships.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      We humans are stubborn. If we don’t understand something or it doesn’t fit with our own way of thinking, we have a tendency to disregard it. This is often why so many people have trouble with faith. You can see it in all facets of life, from rather mundane things like one’s favorite sports teams, to more serious matters like the OIG/Sessions/Huber investigation we have going now, all the way to our relationship with Him. And it’s something we’re all guilty of at one time or another.

      As it pertains to the Lord, the Bible verse I always come back to is Isaiah 55:8-9:
      “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” As tough as it is sometimes, we must remember that our human brains are finite & cannot understand everything as we imagine it. When we do that, we do indeed begin to see a clearer picture of God’s plan for us.

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    • Trumpismine says:

      Indeed.
      Prayer asking God for Guildness and blessings are returned with blessings on our lives and shows us Gods love. The trials and pain we endure only makes us stronger. Inspiration helps in body and spirtit.
      God asks no man whether he will accept life.
      You must take it.
      The only choice is how.

      God bless the Tree prayers

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  3. justfactsplz says:

    Out contract on the two homes on the same land expires at midnight tonight. Today the engineer got an email from the builder who is pushing through the finish line and expects a go ahead and purchase order from corporate on G’s land. Timing is everything. I know if it is meant to be God will hold the other property for us. They expect corporate’s answer the first of next week.

    Gary and I have gotten to the point that G. had to get out from under our roof by the time our lease is up July 31st. We just couldn’t take any more of the stress of living with her. Living next to her will probably be challenging also but not as bad. G. has to have some help with transportation and meals but does not quite meat the requirement for assisted living or a nursing home.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Thank you for update. I’m glad to hear you’ll be planning your life under a different roof from G. Both you and Gary deserve peace and calmness, which is the very thing Gary’s health needs and for you, too.

      I have a cousin and a nephew who have problems, similar to G. We’ve welcome them into our homes, until it got out of control for too long. 3 years ago I put a stop to it as neither hubbie or I was well, and noticed our own health was going down. We needed to be well when the grandkids visit or we visit them, They were the ones we needed to be here for at this point in our life, and visa versa. It was a high priority over the others who seems to like conflicts within relationships.

      I’m sorry to hear of Carl’s passing.and will continue to pray for a safe home for each you two and for G. Have you called a senior agency in Florida to see if they have any other suggestions or ideas for a home for G?

      May the Lord continue to guide you and Gary to a resolution soon. I pray your daughter and family are settling in now in Washington and her health getting better.

      Take Care.

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      • justfactsplz says:

        It is time. G. is trying to cause problems between Gary and I where there are none. I am now fighting back with her just like Gary does. Enough.

        My daughter says she feels better in Everette so that is a plus. She is trying to get her medical team set up. They laughed that they were freezing there, lol. They have their apartment and electric. Until he gets a check money is very tight for food, getting t.v. service, and internet service. But they are making it and I am grateful.

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        • Grandma Covfefe says:

          Praise the Lord. The Lord is taking care of them….that is a praise.

          Really sad about G. I pray for peace in your household…..until positive changes happens in your life.
          Take care, dear Justfactsplz.

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  4. Donna in Oregon says:

    Oh Lord my God
    When I in awesome wonder
    Consider all the worlds
    Thy hands have made
    I see the stars
    I hear the rolling thunder
    Thy power throughout
    The universe displayed
    Then sings my soul
    My Savior, God, to Thee
    How great thou art
    How great thou art
    Then sings my soul
    My Savior, God, to Thee
    How great Thou art
    How great Thou art

    And when I think of God,
    His son not sparing,
    Sent Him to die,
    I scarce can take it in;
    That on the cross, my burden
    gladly bearing He bled and died
    to take away my sin
    Then sings my soul
    My Savior, God, to Thee
    How great thou art
    How great thou art
    Then sings my soul
    My Savior, God, to Thee
    How great Thou art
    How great Thou art

    When Christ shall come
    With shout of acclamation
    And take me home
    What joy shall fill my heart
    Then I shall bow
    With humble adoration
    And then proclaim My God
    How great Thou art
    Then sings my soul
    My Savior, God, to Thee
    How great Thou art
    How great Thou art
    Then sings my soul
    My Savior, God, to Thee
    How great Thou art
    How great Thou art
    How great Thou art
    How great Thou art

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Amen….favorite song of everyone, no doubt.

      How great You are, My God….Praising Your Name, Lord.

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      • Donna in Oregon says:

        The power of faith. Amen.

        Romans 15:13 King James Version (KJV)

        13 Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.

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  5. MTeresa says:

    Thank you Jesus for prayers answered……………….

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  6. Trumpismine says:

    Got back from the camp Saturday from 4 days working on the deck to get my wife. Our son in law has
    been sick after he got a wisdom tooth pulled and has not been getting better. With the recent passing of her little Baby Shih Ztu and now this she has been down in the dumps.
    I thought I would bring her back to the camp and get her mind off things but I misjudged and brought her back this morning. Seems our worries follows us…
    So many things to pray for and so little time

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Being so attached to my four baby dogs I know what your wife is going through. Two of mine I may not have much longer. It does hurt so much

      I prayed for you son in law’s mouth and jaw to heal and that he will much better real soon
      I prayed for your wife that God would comfort her over the loss of her fur baby and ease her worry over the son in law. I prayed that God would bring the camp to your wife in spirit, that she would feel a breath of fresh air and God’s presence to give her hope for better days ahead. God bless and keep you both.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Prayers for your son-in-law, TIM. I had all four of mine out all at once when I was older, so I can sympathize.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Losing a loved one, human or furry, is tough tough tough. Praying for you and your family, Tim.

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      • Trumpismine says:

        Son in law diagnosed with trench mouth. Curious since he’s very frugal with dental hygiene. Good news though! Responding to new antibiotics and feeling much better.
        God bless you all. Your prayers are a great source of strength. Wife glad to be back home too. She has a pillow that baby CC (Shih Ztu)laid on next to her head that gives her comfort at night.

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  7. justfactsplz says:

    Gary has asked me to put in a prayer request for him, the first time he has done that. He hears me talking about this prayer thread all of the time. He has another friend that he has been friends with for many years, much longer than Carl. His name is Donny. Donny is sick with liver cancer he got from bad ink in a foreign tattoo he received many years ago when he was in the service. He has been sick for years but is critically ill now. Donny knows the Lord so that is a plus. He worked with Gary at the county, they attended church together, their children were raised as friends and Gary and Donny hunt together every year.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      I feel so bad for Gary, justfacts. I pray that the Lord will have mercy on Donny. Please tell Gary that we are all thinking of & praying for him as well.

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      • Trumpismine says:

        Justfactsplz and Joe and all you beloved God seekers I pray the love of Jesus permeates your souls.
        Gary an old saying is Jesus is the path to God. I pray you feel His joy and peace. The dawn is breaking and birds are singing praise to him for this day

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      • justfactsplz says:

        I told him and he is very appreciative of all the prayers.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Joe Blow said what I feel, Add me to Joe’s for Gary.
      About twenty years ago, I lost 3 best friends within 3 years, and miss them to this day.

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  8. bcsurvivor2 says:

    add my prayers to everyone needing some grace in their lives.

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  9. Grace, peace and answered prayer to all who are in need…

    My dog, who doctors pulled out 3 liters of fluid from his lungs a few weeks ago has been acting like nothing has EVER been out of order. Go figer…! :). Thank you, Lord, that apparently it is not his time yet. Thanks to everybody who prayed on his behalf.

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  10. bcsurvivor2 says:

    I feel kinda silly asking for prayers for my husband given the much more immediate needs mentioned above.
    But here goes.
    My husband is the absolute best spouse evah! Dad too, step dad also. He is extremely generous with his time and money when a friend or son/sons need a little help. His mom and dad are also included in his helping them with every little need. Just an all around great man.
    I love him dearly.
    He typically works from 6:30am and doesn’t make it home before 8pm or 9pm. He is a 3rd party logistics warehouse manager. The company ships out millions and millions of product every month. It’s getting bigger every month. Right now they are at 10+ million. The stress is becoming unbearable. AND the company is expanding AGAIN. While that is great news, I’m worried about him.
    I humbly ask for prayers that somehow there can be a better balance in his responsibilities and his down time. Prayers for the company to hire people that will step up and do their job so my husband can do his. Also to upgrade their software system to make expediting shipping in a more timely manner. And any thing else you can think of… 😉
    Thanks all
    you are the best.
    peace
    Eve

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  11. justfactsplz says:

    We looked at eight homes today. Gary and I made an offer on a lovely little house in a small settlement by the name of Astor, Fl. There was another older couple looking at this home just before us and we waited a long time for them to finish so we could see it I hope they didn’t put an offer in too and it be bigger than ours. it is perfect for the two of us.

    G. insisted on going with us and all day complained about every house if it didn’t have a private bathroom for HER. Tomorrow is the day. We have to confront her yet once again and get it through to her that she is not moving with us and she needs to make arrangements for herself. The engineer still hasn’t heard about her land. The Holy Spirit has impressed upon me that I cannot help G. Her outlook on God is getting worse by the day. She is so angry.

    I feel like peace is coming and can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

    Praying.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Praying with you, justfacts. I have had people like G. in my life. It is very sad but you’ve done all you could do.

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    • Sharon says:

      “We have to confront her yet once again and get it through to her….”

      No. You don’t.

      Sometimes it helps to think in terms of informing such a person rather than “confronting” them. Inform her of your plans and then make choices going forward that reflect the information you give her today.

      You do not need her permission, either directly or indirectly.

      The language is, “You will not be able to live with us any longer.”

      Endless discussions just wear you out and don’t change her perspective. There is no reason to participate in them.

      She probably doesn’t believe you because of past patterns so don’t waste energy trying to persuade her. Inform her of your decision and then make choices that reflect the decision.

      It costs her far less, energy-wise, to keep on behaving the way she has than it costs you and Gary to let her. She has momentum going for her – and I don’t say that lightly. I have dealt, more than once, with a family member with those behaviors and skillsets.

      Trying to avoid the blowup and the final battle is a waste of time and energy. You are not responsible for her condition or her responses to reality.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Praying everything falls in place for you and Gary, Justfactsplz. We all are 100% behind you. You and Gary are covered in love and prayers.
      G is covered in prayer, too, for different reasons.
      We all love you–

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  12. justfactsplz says:

    Ad rem, Ma”iingankwe asked me to tell you she is trying hard to post here but it isn’t going through and she keeps getting knocked off of the website. She has tried everything to clear things up on her end. She wants to pray for others so I will fill her in on what she may have missed.

    She was real sick for a few days from the last round of chemo but was some better today. Maybe you could drop her an email with suggestions on how to get back on CTH. She is having trouble on all threads.
    Thanks.

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  13. Donna in Oregon says:

    Back in the day, fasting and prayer in my family and we used this scripture:

    Matthew 18:20 King James Version (KJV)
    20. For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.

    Ma”iingankwe, we gather for you.

    Lord, your word speaks promises of healing and restoration and I thank you for the miracles. Today I claim those promises over Ma”iingankwe. I believe in the healing power of faith and prayer and I ask you to begin your mighty work in the life of Ma”iingankwe.

    Please reach down and surround her with peace and strength and give her the faith to believe that all things are possible in you. Protect her and let her miraculous healing begin.

    Amen.

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  14. WeeWeed says:

    We received a prayer request in the email for Sandy….she is on a ventilator and is expected to pass away.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Lord I pray for Sandy that you would watch over her and keep her close to you. I pray she knows you dear Lord. I pray if it is not Sandy’s time that you would help bring her off of the ventilator. I ask this is Jesus mighty name.

      Amen.

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  15. justfactsplz says:

    I am asking for prayer for my nephew, Mark, and his wife, Gwen. Gwen is only 37 years old. She had a massive heart attack last week and was airlifted to a hospital. She needed open heart surgery but they said her veins were too small and they couldn’t do it. She just had another massive heart attack and was taken by ambulance to the hospital. This time it took 1

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  16. justfactsplz says:

    Sorry that posted too soon. It took 15 minutes to revive her and she is on life support. If she is not brain dead they will try to put in stents next week. It doesn’t look good at all. She and Mark are Christians. Mark is taking this so very hard. They have only been married a few years. My sister lost his brother a few years ago so my family has really been through the ringer. My sister is not well so please remember her, Rita, in your prayers.

    I will write later about G. and the new house. Thank you to all who have been praying about it and to you, Sharon, for such wise advice as usual. Love you guys.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Oh justfacts, that is awful. I prayed that the Lord would keep Gwen alive & that the doctors would be able to put in the stents for her. I also prayed that He would comfort Mark & get him through this.

      I will keep Rita in my prayers as well. God bless.

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    • The Defiant One says:

      Justfacts, my prayer are for you, Rita, Mark and Gwen, and I’ll say a prayer hoping that Gwen makes it through! And I’ll also say a prayer for your sister Rita!

      Stay strong and don’t give up hope!

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      So sorry to hear that. Praying……for Mark, Gwen and Rita.

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    • @justfactplz, I have not been on the prayer request thread for some time, but I have been keeping you, Gary and G in my prayers.

      I’ve added Gwen, Mark and your sister Rita to my prayer list as well.

      God bless you all.

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  17. maiingankwe says:

    Oh my goodness, I have no idea what is going on with my phone and CTH. However, I can happily say when I clicked on my CTH bar it came directly to the Prayer Thread, which it has never ever done before. If I ever do want to come to this thread, I have to scroll to the bottom of the CTH page and click a button where it will come up. It will change the whole format and make everything so small. I have no idea how to change it back either. It just does after a few days. Otherwise, I would never see the candle on the right-hand side.

    I know I do have a computer virus with this site, and I’ve tried everything I can think of to fix it. It doesn’t matter if I go to the advance button to clear my history or cache and shut off phone to reboot. Every time I come back I either get kicked out with a stupid I’ve won something from amazon or it goes blank with a message the website is down even though the site comes back up pretty quickly. If I want to watch a video clip shared by Sundance it may take five or six times of it automatically shutting down and having to get back in, which is ever so frustrating.

    A few days ago, I was finally able to make a comment. After, I went directly to see if I had any messages from anyone and the moment I did it had shut down and kicked me out of the site and WordPress. I have to sign in every time I want to make a comment on WordPress and here at CTH, which gets frustrating too, especially if I have a lot to share or comment on.

    So I’ve been able to lurk on the regular threads, I have just been blocked from coming here is all. Thankfully, we have a fabulous Warrior here who has kept me up to date with who has asked for prayers. Thank you Warrior Lady, you so rock! (Justfactsplz)

    I though I was doing really well after this 4th chemo and then it hit me on my bum and had me out for more than a few days of a lot of pain and nausea.

    My husband and daughter, Dokme are in Colorado on our vacation, so I have someone staying with me to help with meals and pups. She is young at 24, but very mature for her age. She’s been a real God send and I’m more than thankful. She’s my friend’s younger sister. Our whole family is grateful. It’s been a rough road this past week.

    I just got another call that my white blood cell count is low at 1,000. I don’t have to take antibiotics this time. They just asked that I stay home and have people around me wash their hands a lot. Nothing to really worry about.

    I do have bad news to share. My four rounds of A&C is done and they did an ultrasound to see if there has been any shrinkage. I went and did this Wednesday. I am sorry to say there has been no change whatsoever. None.

    Yesterday, when I went to give blood to test white blood cells, I came in with a list of ten questions for the doctor. The nurse was able to answer four of them. I got a call to answer two more today, and the rest will be answered when I get my new round of chemo treatments this coming Thursday.

    I will be doing Taxol for the next twelve weeks and perjeta and Herceptin for 52 weeks. In two months rather than the previously planned four, I will be doing another ultrasound. Hopefully, this next time we will see actual shrinkage.

    I really did think the tumors were shrinking. Both my doctor and her Nurse Practitioner told me they have gotten softer and both say this to this day (Part of one of my questions).

    I’m just really sad is all. I’ve been fighting the best I know how. My husband calls me his Little Warrior and Super Trooper because of my behavior with all of this. Somehow I feel as if I’ve let everyone down even though this isn’t realistic. Also a lot of people have been dying of cancer around me, and I don’t want to join them. There I’ve said it. It wasn’t easy and I’ve got ugly face tears. Okay, I’m better now. I took a few minutes to just let it out.

    It’s hard being upbeat all of the time, especially when you’re hit with the unexpected. I know, I can hear some of you asking, but it isn’t growing either, that’s good right? Yes, yes it is good news. I was just thinking different is all. When the docs told me softer, I just assumed they were shrinking. Now I’ve learned my lesson to never ever assume with cancer. It’s a nasty bwitch.

    I’ve had a lot of rough and tumbles in my life, but I have always been surrounded by the best of friends and some of family. My life is good right now, minus this battle. I don’t and won’t give up. There is no giving up in my body or mind. It’s not a part of me and never has and never will. It’s just hard sometimes is all. I know hard times, I’ve had to fight for everything I have. Heck, even my pregnancy and birth was a rough fight, but I got a beautiful Angel Girl out of it all. I know I’m going to be one of those ladies sitting in the office with short hair getting tested to see if I’m still in remission. I know I’m going to be one of those ladies and my hair will grow longer each and every day. I will have the best hair cuts just because I have a magician for my hairstylist and friend.

    I do have good news. I now have 21 pots of beautiful flowers all on my deck. Most of the pots are large with four different flower sets in them. I have one small one and the rest have two, but most have three or four flowers in a pot. I also have one of basil, chives and dill. Yum! If any of you want, I will take some pictures and show the beauty of my new deck. I also have a big umbrella and table and chairs! I have a place to sit and enjoy all of them. I spent this morning getting them all out of the house and just sitting with them. It was so nice.

    Our temps have been going below 50F, so we have to lug them all in and then back out in the am. It’s quite the chore, but so worth it and I don’t want to lose one little flower. I have also been covering the peas, carrots and tomatoes. I figure if I can see my breath at night, I should cover in case. I’m sure I don’t need to, but I don’t want to take any chances.

    My Dahlia is my favorite right now. I should write down all of the names and share them next time. I have one that I can only get at one greenhouse. One of their horticulturist came up with the most beautiful flower ever. They don’t sell the seeds, so I have to tighten my belt and buy them. They come in pinks, purples, orange, yellow and white and purple and I think white and pink. Now this one I will have to beg our Ad rem I to sharing a picture of. They close at night, so I will have to take one in the morning. If you want to see one of the most beautiful flowers ever, please let Ad rem know what a beautiful spirit she is and how much we appreciate all of her hard work for all of us every day. Thank you Ad rem, you’re the absolute best in my eyes.

    And with that, I’m going to let you all go for now. God Bless all of you.
    Be well,
    Ma’iingankwe

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    • Ad rem says:

      Ma’….you made it….well, at least as far as the spam bin. But that’s a start. You have be missed by so many…… 😀

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    • Ad rem says:

      Ma’….I found this that may help you. Someone wrote us about a month ago asking if we had a special TreeHouse APP he could use to make reading us on his iPad or cell phone easier. Well…

      Good news! Upon doing a little research, I found just what we need in the Apple App Store….and it’s FREE!

      Go to the App store and search under “WordPress”. Its the first app to come up — by a company called “Automattic”. (“Automattic” is WordPress’ parent company.) Download it. Open and login. Tap the “reader” selection along the bottom. Then go to the manage page and type in “theconservativetreehouse.com”. That’s it!

      You can then read articles from LastRefuge either on iPad or iPhone. If you press the post window for 3 seconds, that overview window closes. And the format fits the screen nicely. Comments open in a new window so there is plenty of room to read and post responses. NO ADS EITHER! I imagine they probably have an APP that also works for other brands of phones as well. .Anyhoo….I think this might get rid of whatever has infected your device…..fingers crossed!

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      • maiingankwe says:

        I so love you. I’m going there right now to try it. I will let you know how it goes. You’ve just made my day! Thank you and yes, my fingers are crossed too!

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      • maiingankwe says:

        I went to the App Store right away and I checked every single app and nothing came up under the name you gave me. I put it in front of the word, ‘Wordpress’, and after to try both ways to no avail. I would’ve written sooner, but I had fallen asleep with my head down hurting my neck and just went directly to bed. I did check through hundreds of them though. The whole dang page.

        I’ve had some rough days since then, but I’m just tired right now is all. It seems like I can read the articles, some of the comments and I’m just tired after that. Sometimes I can get a word in and then when I want to come here, I’m wiped out.

        Our power went off for a few minutes and ever since then I’ve been able to post without a problem except for hitting the bin here, which is a-okay with me. I know you will find me and dust me off to post.

        I have taken a picture of your helpful post and will try some more later. Thank you for finding it, now I just have to. Crazy weird though isn’t it? It’s the first to come up for you and I get nothing? Doesn’t make any sense to me. I must’ve ticked off some gremlins somewhere.

        Thank you for all of your help and know these words are unable to hold the amount of thanks I have in my heart.
        Be well,
        Ma’iingankwe

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    • Prayers going up for you Ma’iingankwe. I will keep you in my daily prayers. God bless you.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Ma’ii, we have indeed missed you. I pray for you & your husband & Dokme every day. I know it’s discouraging to hear there hasn’t been any shrinking of the tumors yet, but please don’t ever feel like you’re letting anyone down. It is the Lord Who is in control of this, as He is with all things. You have only to trust in Him.

      You have an indomitable spirit that will carry you through this as it has all those other times in your life. May God keep you & bless you.

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      • maiingankwe says:

        You’re right Joe, it’s all in God’s hands. I gave it all up to him at the beginning. I just have to remember that is all. 😁

        I’m sorry you’ve missed me, but it did feel really good to hear it too.

        Tomorrow (Thursday), I start my new chemo meds, so please cross your fingers for me. It’s so hard to walk through those doors, but I know it is what is helping in the end.

        Hey, did you know mosquitoes don’t want to bite me and suck my blood? It’s poisonous to them! Ha ha ha! I’m serious! Most will come and right before they land, they fly away. At least that is one good side effect. It might be the only one but I will take it. We have 32 different species of those nasties in our state, and they’ve been known to literally drive people crazy.

        Hope all is well with your Dad and he’s had time to heal. Hoping all of your family and you are doing great.
        Stay smiling and be well,
        Ma’iingankwe

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        • “Hey, did you know mosquitoes don’t want to bite me and suck my blood? It’s poisonous to them!”

          This reminds me of a story about Corrie Ten Boom & her sister Betsy, who were imprisoned by Nazis for hiding Jews from the Final Solution. Apparently they were in a barracks that was infested with lice & all the women were miserable & scratching. Betsy reminded Corrie that they were to “give thanks in everything”, even the lice, as it says in scripture…but Corrie was too angry & didn’t want to. Later they found out that because their barracks had lice it rarely had direct checks by the German prison guards. This meant that these precious souls were able to hold pretty regular Bible studies with their one contraband Bible. Betsy died during imprisonment while Corrie was released via a “clerical error” just before the women were all killed, and was able to write about her family’s experiences & God’s miraculous deliverance of herself & her father in the book, The Hiding Place.

          Having a thankful heart in spite of the sorrows can surely help lift the burdens…Blessings!

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    • justfactsplz says:

      I am so happy to hear about your beautiful flowers. I knew there might be some purple in there just for you. And you are really going to enjoy that table ad chairs. The fresh air will be so good for you.

      While it may be disappointing for you it is still very early in your treatments for the tumors to show shrinkage. If you get a little down that’s a perfectly normal reaction. Any time you need to vent just drop me a line or even if you are bored.

      Be well and keep smiling and dancing.

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    • bcsurvivor2 says:

      Yay!!! You are back Ma’iigankwe…
      I really missed you.
      A bigly YES! I would love to see pictures of your flowers. I love my garden, although it is very tiny. My Bougainvilleas are the talk of the neighborhood when they are in bloom. I have yellow and sunset colored ones. I also grow basil and rosemary, yum indeed. We are trying hops this year for my hubby’s home brewed beer. Hops are a vine that grows like mad. The flowers are very pretty.

      Anyhow, sorry the chemo has been so harsh. I have researched your next round of chemos. Most ladies do very well with it. Not gonna say great but very well. I pray you’re in the great category.
      The “ugly face crying” actually made me chuckle…my brother used to say that to me. Get as ugly faced as you need too. Crying isn’t a weakness, it is cleansing. Let those emotions out. And then go kick cancers butt!

      I just got really po’d when my BC kept coming back. Sigh. I’d check for lumps after extensive surgery and dang after 9 months another one cropped up. Crap! Back to my surgeon. The last time,18 months ago, my surgeon suggested radiation. I said no! Just cut ’em off. That seemed to do the trick. Still AOK and no drugs at all.Again so happy you can post again.
      Prayers for you and your family. Warrior INDEED.
      Peace,
      Eve

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      • maiingankwe says:

        I love your posts. Full of warmth, love and humor as well as sharing of strength. Plus, I always learn something too.

        I may or may not have to a full mastectomy. It seems when they did the brach testing they found a bad gene. I have it in the folder they gave me and will share it with you the next time I am closer to it. They want me to talk to a geneticist over the phone from Anchorage down the line.

        My doctor and nurse practitioner are both hoping this round will be easier since I had such trouble with the last one. I’m hoping for the same even though it’s been a rough day today. I don’t know why I’m having more troubles than other ladies, if I knew. I might be able to change it. I’d love to be able to change it. I really am trying to do my best.

        Please don’t think it’s anything you’ve said, I’m just thinking out loud is all. I will keep praying and thinking good thoughts.

        I hope you have a beautiful day! Stay smiling and thank you so much for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.
        Be well,
        Ma’iingankwe

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        • bcsurvivor2 says:

          Oh boy, the dreaded Brca gene. Yes that makes breast cancer much more serious. I a’m second guessing your doctors but I don’t understand the reasoning behind not doing the masectomy’s. I think you said it hadn’t gotten into your lymph nodes??That is GOOD. Just curious. It seems everyone’s treatment plan is so very different. Just a suggestion but I would have your daughter checked for the Brca1 gene. Just in case.
          If you haven’t looked into Angelina Jolie’s story you might like to. She really inspired me to take control of my own treatment.
          I am praying for you everyday, every time you enter my thoughts.

          Stay strong, you’ve got this.
          Peace
          Eve

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  18. justfactsplz says:

    Just a little update. Gary’s friend, Donny went home from the hospital this morning. That was good news for a change.

    My nephew, Mark called me this morning and talked a couple of hours. He is holding up well under the circumstances and has faith. Gwen is in a hospital in St. Louis. They have very renowned heart specialists there so she is in good hands. They are still trying to wake her up slowly from the induced coma to see if she is brain dead. If not she will be having a very delicate surgery. They can’t put stents into her tiny arteries. They already put a pacemaker in. They are going to try to put a pump in behind her heart to help it pump. Mark said he told her parents if she was brain dead he would not let her live like a vegetable. He is facing a lot and they are young with a whole lot of life to live. I pray for a miracle.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Glad to hear about Donny, justfacts. Am praying too for a miracle for Mark & Gwen. That’s an unthinkable position for him to be in.

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      • justfactsplz says:

        It is a terrible position to be in for sure. He and I talked about how we didn’t know how people made it through such tough ties if they didn’t know the Lord. No hope I would imagine.

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    • bcsurvivor2 says:

      Great news about Donny.
      Praying for Gwen, wow so sad. Hopefully she will surprise everyone. So tough for Mark too. Thankfully she is in a fabulous hospital. Prayers for everyone.
      peace,
      eve

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  19. Donna in Oregon says:

    “He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.” ~ Isaiah 40:29

    “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” ~ Psalm 46:1

    “The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him. The LORD is the strength of his people, a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.” ~ Psalm 28:7-8

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  20. Ad rem says:

    Prayer request from our email:

    Pray for my niece Carla who is going through a spiritual upheaval that is nearing a breaking point.

    Helen.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      This kind of request always leaves me with a heavy heart and I feel the weight of the importance of this kind of request until I pray. I prayed against the dark principalities and all matter of spiritual warfare. I prayed for the Holy Spirit to shine the light of the truth on Carla that she would see the warming forever love of Jesus Christ.

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  21. Ad rem says:

    Another email request for prayer:

    May I have some prayers for a friends daughter who is having thyroid cancer surgery today.
    Her name is Courtney.

    Many thanks,
    Annie

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Prayers were just sent up for Annie’s friend’s daughter. I prayed surgery went well and that they got all of the cancer. I also prayed for her recovery process.

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  22. justfactsplz says:

    Heaven is rejoicing tonight even those loved ones left behind grieve. Gwen died today. My sister called me from the nursing home. As soon as I hung up from her Mark called me from the hospital. They were going to give Gwen an artificial heart today but testing did prove she was brain dead. She had had another heart attack this morning and they say several strokes. Mark told them to pull the plug and she died two minutes later. Mark is standing strong for now because the Lord is propping him up. So sad. They were only married eight years. We talked a long time.

    I wanted to go to the funeral but I am still not walking well at all and don’t want to be a burden on other family members. Mark and I are very close and he understands. My sister wants to waith until after we move and then bring Gary and me up there in the fall if we can find someone to watch our zoo.

    Gary and I decided to pass on the little house. That area has problems with the water table and you have to have a grinder to break up sewage so it can travel to a plant. They had septic tanks come up out of the ground. We feard it might become a money pit.

    A lady called today interested in G’s land and the builder is also bringing corporate down on Wednesday to give final approval on her land.So maybe something big is about to happen there. I had the talk with G. and told her we were not taking her with us to live under one roof again. She has been on the phone for two days checking out facilities. Gary and her had a long talk (I was there) and cleared up a lot. They both still want to get the land with the two homes if her land sells. I don’t know how long Gary has and it would make him so happy to have a garden and cickens again. I want him and G. to have some kind of happiness. I an handle it as long as she is not living under my roof hoarding, and cursing and getting mad at life in general. I feel better having told G. I wasn’t gong to live in that turmoil anymore. Sharon was right about how to handle it. G. had had a fight with Gary over lunchmeant of all things. She started slamming doors and yelling and cursing at me the next morning about it. I told myself it’ s now or never so I told her what we had decided, no confrontation. She immediately stopped the ugly behavior towards us both. Still praying for where to live.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Justfacts, I’m crying reading this. What that poor girl must’ve endured. Every prayer for comfort for Mark & your whole family right now.

      Incidentally, I am glad you were able to tell G. what needed to be said. Praying the Lord will guide you & Gary on your next place to live.

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    • Ad rem says:

      Whew….I think you just finished the toughest leg of you climb right there. That must have been a massive relief just to lay your cards all on the table, and tell her what is and what isn’t gonna happen. Reality check……done!

      Now….we just get to praying for a fine home for you and Gary to call your own.

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    • bcsurvivor2 says:

      Oh nooooo, I am so sorry to hear of Gwen’s passing.Praying for strength for everyone near to her.

      Good on you to finally put G in her place. What a relief it must be for you. Now that you changed the dynamic in the relationship, G will have to change also. Stand your ground. Been there done that. Amazing how just saying NO! I’m not playing that game anymore can bring such empowerment and joy back into your life.

      Here’s hoping now, that the negativity is gone, the perfect house will come your way and G’s land sells quickly.
      peace,
      Eve

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    • The Defiant One says:

      Justfactsplz,

      I’m so sorry for your loss of Gwen! My heart aches for you and Mark. I am without words at the moment, but you and Mark will be in my prayers!

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  23. SSI01 says:

    Just wanted to update folks here about what’s happening with our family. Last Sunday I had to go to the local ER to have a well-embedded tick removed from my back. The wife noticed it Sunday evening and we went straight to the ER with it. Several years ago her family lost an excellent man – in every respect – to a tick bite and she moved very quickly once that was plainly my case as well. I must have picked it up while doing one of my bike rides last week. The ER removed it. Today our PC physician said it appeared not to be a threat and after examining the site of the bite informed me the wound was clean and to just continue the course of antibiotics the hospital put me on. A word of caution – it is incredibly easy to pick up one of these things, you don’t have to be a woodsman to do that, in my case last week I wound up in a stand of overgrown weeds for a few moments, it may have happened then. In addition the bike path I use is overgrown in many places and could be better maintained. Could have picked him up there, too. If you are outside for any reason, near any growth, make sure you have someone in the house examine any part of your body you can not see plainly yourself. This one was on my back and I would never have seen it. Take them seriously.

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    • Trumpismine says:

      My condolences exactly! Put on anti-itch creme and after 3 showers and washing work clothes and scratching at the unseen foe they got me. Deep woods spray and fear of ticks and weeds and rain didn’t help. Be vigilant for sure but all Gods creature love you too.
      And smile😡

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Very good advice. A few years ago my husband was bit on his back by a Lonestar tick nymph. A couple of weeks later he was running a high fever. The hospital admitted him for overnight observation. By morning he was in intensive care. His heart was not beating correctly. By the next day he was on a ventilator. His platelets went crazy. He had sepsis. They had to put in a pacemaker. His liver enzymes went crazy. His kidneys went into failure and he was dialysis. For a month he was this way and they couldn’t find out what he had. None of their antibiotics worked.

      One day the doctor asked me if he could have been bitten by a tick. I said yes he was. They ran cultures and it came back the not to often heard of tick disease called ehrlichiosis. It attacks the organs and people die from it.

      My husband was on the ventilator for two months. The wonderful prayer warriors here prayed with me every step of the way. More than once I was told he wasn’t going to make it. He ended up having to go to a special hospital to get him off of the ventilator.

      So yes, everyone be very careful about ticks. I myself had Lyme Disease about ten years ago and I thought that was painful and made me so sick. It was nothing compared to the disease my husband contracted.

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      • Trumpismine says:

        God Bless you JUSTFACTSPLZ.
        Back in the mid 70’s our neighbor who was having numerous problems with her health like you might see in an older person and she was not quite 30. About 20 years later she was diagnosed with Lyme and she was a Hospice nurse.
        I love being outdoors and fishing and have been covered in ticks that still make my skin crawl. Chiggers got me this time. Praying for you and your husband

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        • justfactsplz says:

          Thank you for your prayers.

          My husband hunted and fished all of his life and would get covered with ticks with no problem. It just t takes one infected tick to wreak havoc.

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  24. Trumpismine says:

    Hello God lovers and prayer for you all. Last Wednesday I checked in and after all seemed to be ok at the homestead and getting my chores done here headed back to the camp to finish up my projects at the camp. I had high hopes to get it done but the weather got bad – like a ‘monSOON!
    My lovely 1st wife had to have a MRI on her left shoulder after 20/30 years of playing softball (think aggressive) with her younger sister.
    Bone spur in there and a few falls the last year on that arm tore up the soft tissue pretty bad in there so early this morning took required coffee and pain relievers and headed out to beat the flooded Portage river.
    Lord bless her she was glad to see me bring her lunch and a kiss and God edging me on. Grass cut my ,birdie friends fed and my soul relieved except for missing my prayer group, I wish Gods Blessing on you all!

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  25. Trumpismine says:

    I’ve been meaning to leave you all a note with a few things but after such a frightening day I urge you all to pray for our country and president. God help us

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  26. Anon says:

    Can you guys say a prayer for me? God knows me, even if you don’t.
    Blessings on all of you.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Father God, I lift up prayers for Anon that you bless him/her and answer my prayer on Anon’s behalf. You do know Anon and every need Anon has. I pray that you would take care of every need and that you would comfort, guide, and love Anon with your everlasting love. May your presence surround Anon. I ask this in your precious son Jesus’ name. Amen.

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  27. Lumina says:

    Prayer request for my niece. She posted a ” I just can’t take it anymore. I loved you guys.” on Facebook last night. I just heard back from her big bro who said their Mom talked to her, She is ok and it was something to do with her friends, boyfriend, and too much to drink. She also texted me a bit ago, ” Hi auntie. I’m ok, I’m sorry I scared you and everyone. Please know I love you and safe.”
    Also my daughter said she posted on Facebook that she had just left behavior health. I’m not sure what’s up or will I probably ever know, but prayers for her peace of mind. I texted her back, “Just know YOU are precious, beautiful & special and I am so proud of you & LOVE you…”

    She is my little bro’s daughter and she is 29 almost 30. My brother died in January of last year. So Father’s Day may be difficult for her & her siblings. I recently found a picture of my little bro at age 14. I was planning to text it to the 5 kids tomorrow, but maybe I’ll wait. His youngest boy looks like him in the pic. Maybe a couple prayers for him also. His Mom (exwife#2) died suddenly in 2016, he’ll be 21 this year.

    My little bro was the best Dad…

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Lumina, how frightening this is for family members I know. I prayed that God would surround your niece with his protection. I prayed he would guide her on the right path. It’s good that behavior health is involved. because usually people have the thoughts awhile before they verbalize them. Sometimes it is a cry out for help. I pray that it is just as she explained. Maybe she could use a new boyfriend and girlfriends? I asked God to guide her there too.

      Within the past year I had a granddaughter that was baker acted because she cut her chest with a knife and told authorities she meant to do it. No one would have ever thought this 16 year old could do such a thing. I had worried about her for some time as she was withdrawn and alone too much. Today she seems okay and laughs again. I thank God she is still here.

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  28. Bill Gavila says:

    I would like to request prayers for myself and my family. I go in for tests on Tuesday to see if I have cancer. Hopefully I do not, but if I do, I would like to have God bless those near to me with serenity to endure whatever trails they may face. I wouldn’t mind having some of that serenity myself, either.

    Thanks! May your prayers be returned with a hundredfold blessings to you!

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    • bcsurvivor2 says:

      Prayers going up mightily for you .
      Been there done that. Be assured that you and your family has this. I cried once, after my biopsy, wasn’t even sure about the results. All the tests just got so overwhelming.

      But when cancer was finally confirmed I felt amazingly calm and at that moment I had something to sink my teeth into and FIGHT. I immersed myself into research into my cancer and was better able to be in control of my treatment. A boon to not being afraid.

      Having gone through the gauntlet brought my family and friends together into a big beautiful support group. Just so wonderful.

      Point is hang in there, take control and let the people in your life step up and let them love you.
      Praying for a great report. If not, praying harder.
      Keep in touch so we can support you, no matter your journey.
      peace,
      eve

      PS..almost 4 years out from original diagnoses, 2 years from time last tumor popped up. So far so good!

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    • Sharon says:

      The unknowns and related anticipation – yup, that’s difficult.

      What will tend to unfold among family members will have a familiarity about it: the strengths and weaknesses that have been part of your (and their) world will be apparent. Some parts of it will “fall into place” easier than anticipated. Some parts of it will be more difficult to process.

      Regardless of the details, each individual will find their way to keep moving through, regardless of the news you receive, regardless of the severity.

      A dear friend was so helpful to me when my husband was preparing to leave us due to liver cancer, and this friend repeatedly told me, “Sharon, there is no right or wrong about how you do this. None of your efforts or responses are wrong.”

      Two years after my husband died, almost to the week, I was diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer and was under treatment with chemo, surgery, radiation for 15 months. I found that the principles I had experienced and learned earlier stood me in good stead also for my own, successful journey.

      If you do receive a diagnosis of cancer, bear in mind that the highly motivated, highly trained medical professionals will control the conversation by default unless you speak up with plain questions and requests for plain answers. (To the extent that you want plain answers, of course – that varies a lot from one person to another) Just keep in mind that they will be choosing to tell you what they think you need to know and you will not yet be in a place to articulate what you WANT to know. You won’t be able to think of all the questions right away – of course not. But you will be able to formulate the questions with a little time.

      If there is a cancer diagnosis, may I suggest that it is not “your battle” – shoot, all I did while I was under treatment was show up on time for dozens and dozens and dozens of appointments. THEY are the ones waging the battle. THEY are the ones who have understanding as to how to go after this thing. My part was managing hydration and nutrition and personal care. I live alone so that was also about all I could manage.

      The unknowns and the anticipations within these next couple of days are uncomfortable.

      The resources that been helpful to you in times of crisis before will be helpful to you now as well.

      Some of these lines reflect my opinions – of course! 😉 so just sift and take what seems useful to you.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Bill, I pray to the Lord that there will be no cancer found. Whatever may happen, I pray for comfort & peace for you & your family through whatever is to come, that the Lord’s presence may guide you & be a continual source of hope. God bless.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Praying for you Bill.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Bill, I prayed that you might not have cancer. If it turns out that you do I prayed that God will be with you and your family through all of the ups and downs.

      I, like others here am a cancer survivor. I am a 13 year kidney cancer survivor. My diagnosis was a complete shock. I was having a CT scan for something else and they found my cancer. The ER doctor blurted out “you have kidney cancer”. I nearly fell off of the bed. They immediately rolled me over to MD Anderson Cancer Center and there I lay all night with my thoughts. My thoughts were all over the place until I prayed and asked God’s help. He never left my side from that moment on.

      When you feel serene, God will be there. When you feel stressed, God will be there. When you are strong and positive He’s there. When you feel down and afraid, He is right there beside you. Every step of the way on your journey, God will be right there beside you.

      I too found out that knowledge was empowering to me. It helped me make good decisions. I learned everything I could about kidney cancer.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Bill, Praying for you….that tomorrow testings will have good results.

      Keep us posted, if you can.
      May the Lord bless you this week.

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  29. maiingankwe says:

    Oh my goodness, I’ve missed so many posts and feeling guilty of not putting prayers to those who have asked lately. Thankfully, our Creator is kind and has listened to all of my updates just now when I caught up with all of the new posts.

    In the evenings, when I rest my head from a long and difficult day, I have asked our Creator to include all of those I’ve missed. However, it makes it easier and the prayers more powerful I think to know what kind of prayers are needed though. And please know that even though my days have been hard lately, I’ve always had rays of sunshine too. 🌞

    I started three new chemo meds this past Thursday and was there for 7 hours. It’s a good thing I know how to entertain myself to make it go quicker. 🙃. The last half I also slept most of the time until they’d wake me up for one thing or another. To me, it went smoothly.

    It’s been a difficult weekend though. I’ve just gotten off the phone with one of the nurses and I’m supposed to go to the ER today. My husband worked last night and recently got home, so I need to wait until he wakes up and the nurse seemed fine about, especially when I explained I’ve gone this long already.

    They gave me a double dose of the perjeta and herceptin to start out with, so I’m sure that’s what may be the cause for my symptoms.

    I’m having a great deal of chest pain, but not labored breathing, so that’s good. It just hurts like heck is all. I’d love for someone to get the dang elephant off of my chest.

    I don’t have any appetite whatsoever. I’m just not hungry and that is not like me. I’ve had a few bites of chicken noodle soup and 1/2 of a 1/2 if a slice of pizza in three days. I know, I was just thinking this would pass like the last time. I promise to try and eat more soup. If it takes all day to reheat and eat a bowl I will. Thankfully, my husband has three days off to help me. He gave me a light massage on my shoulder this morning before he crashed.

    I’ve also been having a lot of stomach problems, which is a new one for me. No matter what I’ve eaten or not eaten I’ve been getting a lot of stomach pain. Thankfully, the nurse sent a script to soften stools thinking this may be the reason. This morning was pure hell trying to go. Sorry, TMI.

    I’ve also been having some bad headaches and feel like someone took a baseball bat to my body. It hurts all over. And my port hurts a great deal too. There, I think I got it all. Oh and my eyesight has decreased even more. Oh, and the tips of my fingers? Too hard to explain, but they don’t like to work as they should and they have pains going through too. Sometimes a bit of tingling and numbness as well. And my goodness, they look horrendous. So ugly. My poor, poor nails. I think when I feel better I will paint them a pretty color.

    Last, (I think) I thought I had broken my big toe. I had x-rays on Thursday cause I don’t know or why, the NP wanted to know for sure? It’s not like they can do much. Thankfully, I just stubbed it pretty bad. It took nine days before it started to feel better. I couldn’t cover it with a blanket until this morning. Still aches to walk and do stairs, but so dang happy and relieved it has calmed down a great deal. Amazing how a little thing like that could cause so much pain. Almost unbelievable. I was calling myself a big baby. I was. A big ole baby. 🙂

    I have been able to pop in to the regular threads here at CTH, but getting to this Prayer Thread is a lot more difficult, and that’s why I haven’t been here. Plus, I’ve been able to do 30 minutes or so, and I know coming here and even writing would take more than hour. I owe so many people thanks from the last time I posted, and I apologize for not responding. I am ever so sorry to those who took the time to write to me and it’s not right that I’m writing this first. I think that’s what kept me away for a bit to be honest. I just didn’t have the energy to write to everyone in return. Please good people, forgive me and know your posts and prayers mean the absolute world to me.

    I know some of you may brush it off and not think less because of the energy I’m trying to fight, but please know it has bothered me. A lot.

    Some parts of the day I can fit 15-20 minutes in an article, but not more than that. I don’t think I’ve spent close to an hour unless it was just reading what others may have said. It’s like I have a few good windows and that is it. My body is tiring out faster and quicker. Oh my gosh, and let’s just skip over about walking up or down the stairs.

    I will try harder and jump through the hoops to get here though. This is my favorite place on all of the web. 💕Hands down, guaranteed. All of you mean the world to me, and I always put all of you in my prayers every night. If there are special requests, I will say them throughout the day too. Otherwise, I make sure you’re all in there. I like doing that and I know our Creator likes hearing them as well.

    My cancer doctor was hoping I would have less problems this time round, and I was hoping and praying for that too. My fingers are crossed because they did give me double dosages of 2 out of 3 of the chemos. My body just isn’t used to the meds thy put in and I think my body is simply trying to fight it rather than work with it. It’s stubborn that way.

    Oh, I do have good news! Yay! My Uncle Brian gave me some Chaga. It grows on birch trees and have been used extensively by our Anishinabeg Tribe. He also told me it was pretty big in Russia.

    I put this in my juice every morning and evening. I put it through the coffee maker. Don’t laugh, but we’ve had this coffee maker for probably six years and I had no idea how to get it to work. My husband and I don’t drink coffee and we only have it for our family and guests. I had to have my friend’s Dad show us when he came over. It’s okay, I gave him a jar of pure, homemade honey. He seemed to be real happy. He’s always giving me something from the garden or what have you, so I felt so good to be able to give something he’d really like in return. It was like a “I gotcha moment!” I was so in that moment he’d barely gotten up our stairs when I thrust it into his hands. He thought I had needed help opening it. That’s how fast I had jumped him to help me. He got a good laugh when I explained that was his gift for coming over to help with the coffee machine. He also laughed when all he had to do was press one button. I wasn’t laughing though. I wanted to hit the darn thing.

    Please look up Chaga and check out all of the medicinal properties it has. It really is a gift from our Creator. My Uncle Brian told me the story of Chaga a few years ago, but I’m missing parts of it. I would love to share the story when I talk and ask him again. He is a great storyteller, one of the best. He puts you right there in the moment. Plus, I love our Anishinabeg stories and I have feeling many of you will too.

    I haven’t been able to take pictures of my beautiful flowers because we’ve had some ugh days. Rain and no sunshine. So when they start thriving again, I promise to send them to Ad rem to post for all of you.

    It’s amazing how the simple things in life can bring so much joy and I’ve found they are usually gifts from our Creator. So many things to be thankful for.

    Last, but not least, here is a belated, but warm and from the heart, Happy Fathers Day to all of you Dads’. You make our lives and family complete and ever so thankful for all that you do for us. Happy Fathers Day!
    Be well,
    Ma’iingankwe

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    • Ad rem says:

      Ma’….so sorry, found your long comment in the bin. 😦

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      • maiingankwe says:

        You’re right, it was a bit long wasn’t it? I will try and do better next time.

        We got back from the ER about 1:30am. All is well. They did an EKG right away and had bumped me to the front of the line even though I had told them it was not necessary. They said it was protocol. Oh well, and they were busy. My nurse told me there were only 30 beds and had about 50 people in all.

        They had to give me the EKG in like a small waiting room. They did cover the windows and put a sheet on a long couch with no arms.

        They did x-rays, a cat scan, blood work and urine sample. They did the cat scan with the blue dye because of previous blood clots. The doctor said my numbers were good in April and I ended up having them anyways, so best to play it safe. Thankfully, no clots due to the meds I take everyday.

        The doctor said my chest pains are more than likely due to my new chemos. I guess I’m just the small percentage who gets this side effect. Oh well, it is what it is. At least I know now and can move on easier.

        My nurse had worked with pediatric cancer patients in Boston and said the ER here was a cake walk. I was ever so greatfull to have had her due to the care she took with my port and all of the preventions she put in place, so I wouldn’t get an infection through the port. It’s how a lot of cancer patients die, through infections.

        My nurse and I had a lot of fun and laughs. She said I was by far her funnest patient in a long time. She said us cancer patients are pretty tough and take things more in stride in the ER than other patients. She had used different words, but it meant the same.

        My only bad experience was when they had me laying flat for the cat scan. It causes a great deal of pain with my port. Of course, the tech had me all strapped in and we had to wait for the nurse since she wasn’t trained to go through a port. Thankfully, and there must’ve been an Angel, but it was my nurse who came in. She saw my face and the distress and said it was a good thing she had my pain meds in her pocket, which she gave me ASAP through my port.

        It took a bit for the pain to subside, but when it did, we were back to joking again in my ER room. It was weird though, here we both were having fun, bu the moment she saw my distress, she was all business and she let me take my time to get back to the joking. I gave her a lot of respect for that. Yuuge kudos to her and her professionalism.

        Thank you all for understanding with me not being able to reply to all of the beautiful spirits here. And thank you for keeping me in your prayers.
        Be well,
        Ma’iingankwe

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        • Ad rem says:

          Eeks! Ma’, I didn’t mean “long’ comment as a criticism. The only problem with a really long comment is… the longer your comment, the greater your chances are that you’ll inadvertently use a word that’s on the banned list, and accidentally get sent to trash. I worry for you!

          I get really busy, and sometimes I don’t “think through” all the different ways the stuff I write can be interpreted. My bad. 😦

          Ma’…I’m so glad you’ve found a wonderful nurse that you feel comfortable and at ease with. Personal relations mean everything when you have to rely on others in a stressful situation. Another huge relief….there are NO blood clots in your lungs.

          With love and (((hugs)))….”Puddy”.

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          • bcsurvivor2 says:

            oh boy Puddy,
            I do the same thing.

            I’ll post something that was supposed to be helpful and then i realize ooops, should’ve re-read that.
            You are the best!,
            Eve

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          • maiingankwe says:

            Oh that’s okay, every time Sundance puts up the rules for us to review I can’t help but cringe when he tells us to make them short and sweet. It’s a talent I’ve never had, but try and work on in the other threads. I’ve gotten better there though! On the other threads. 😁

            The great nurse was in the ER, so she was only my nurse for the night. My chemo nurse is so young and wet behind the ears, however, she knows her job and does it well. Very well. I do love to tease her though and she never knows what I’m going to say next.

            I did explain to her that by the time I’m done with chemo next year, I will have her up and ready to face the world with comebacks. She’s trying to figure out how I easily I can turn the tables on her. She always thinks she has me, and then realizes we are all laughing her way. It frustrates the heck out of her.

            When I have more time and feeling better I will tell a few short stories about our Ellen. Let’s just say she is looking forward to next year and being far better at comebacks and turning the tables on her opponents.

            I always and I mean always let everyone in the room know how much I care about her and her exemplary work ethic and skills. So she does get that. I know she likes hearing it too amongst her peers cause of that little smile she gives that she thinks no one can see. She also knows I would protect her in a heartbeat.

            So yes, I have an excellent nurse. Very smart, just not street smart and quite gullible, which just makes her sweet.

            Have an awesome day and thank you for clearing that bit up. I know you have hands full and appreciate everything you do. I also didn’t take it as you being upset with me either. Just a friendly reminder is how I took it, especially with my long winded self. All is good. Life is beautiful!
            Be well and stay smiling,
            Ma’iingankwe

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    • bcsurvivor2 says:

      Hi Ma’iingankwe,
      So nice to hear from you.
      So sorry the new chemo is rough. Hopefully the next lessor round will be easier.
      I am really interested in your tribe’s stories. I wish I could move to Alaska. Such a beautiful state, i’m afraid I am just too old at this point. Takes a lot of mettle to live and flourish there.

      Please dont worry about keeping up with prayer requests, we KNOW you are there. As we are always thinking about you.
      I’m going to try and find your Chaga, every little bit helps.
      Peace,
      Eve

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      • maiingankwe says:

        Chaga is amazing, and I think it’s right up your alley. If you have any questions, please do not hesitate to ask at any time. I know if I cannot answer them, my Uncle Brian is just a phone call away. He is also our storyteller in the family.

        With all of the new and fancy technology, Alaska can be a relative breeze, especially living in Anchorage or other big towns. It’s when one wants to live a bit rougher or more off the grid, it takes that mettle you were talking about. One also has to favor in where the colder temps to live are. In the Interior where we live, it can get mighty cold. How some people decide to live with just oil to heat their homes is beyond me. I love our boiler, which can burn big logs and/or coal. I call her the Dragon since she is always hungry in the cold winter. I’m always saying, I gotta feed the dragon. Anyways. I think it’s far smarter to have more than one way to heat their home. We use oil as well, but rely more on wood and coal, which saves a ton of money.

        Hope you have an amazing day,
        Ma’iingankwe

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        • bcsurvivor2 says:

          Concerning Chaga. I looked it up and found it is of the mushroom family, and you make a tea from it. As i hate mushrooms would your uncle Brian recommend the capsules ?

          I had a dragon also when I lived in Iowa. Man o man it could get cold there. I loved it. I love the 4 seasons, but hubby and I like the mountains. We both lived in Colorado and that may be our choice, although it is rather expensive. We’ll see.
          Hope you feel better.
          Eve

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Ma’ii, I’m sorry the last few days have been so hard. Everything you are going through now though cannot compare to the glory that is to come.

      I was watching a documentary called “Alone in the Wilderness” the other night, about a man who lived all by himself in the Alaskan wilderness for 30 years back in the 60’s. He even built his own log cabin. The landscape was just breathtaking to behold. I thought of you while I was watching it.

      Prayers of comfort & joy to you & your family as always. God bless.

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      • Ad rem says:

        Thanks for reminding me of this wonderful documentary. Dick Proenneke’s story is fascinating….one I’ve watched several times. Glad to read they’re preserving the cabin too..
        https://www.nps.gov/lacl/learn/historyculture/proennekes-cabin.htm

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      • maiingankwe says:

        You’re awesome. You always know just the right words to say to make me feel so much better. I hope you can see how thankful I am for all of your prayers and words do support. They help me so much. Thank you. Bigly.

        I know the gentleman you’re talking about, but I’ve not seen the documentary yet. I don’t really watch tv, so I will have to see if I can find it on the internet. It sounds like a really good one. I have seen video clips of him building his cabin, but that was quite awhile ago and my memory isn’t as good. Plus, they were just a few short minute clips. They could’ve been from the documentary, now that would be neat.

        Hope you and your family have a fabulous day,
        Ma’iingankwe

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Boozhoo! I am so sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. We are all praying for you. Please don’t feel bad about not writing to each person. One post we can all read when you are able to do it is plenty. I know things are so hectic for me right now that I get behind on keeping up with people and I am counting on them to understand too.

      That is so fascinating about the Chaga. I love hearing about your heritage and tribe. Gary’s grandmother knew a lot about nature’s gifts from the Creator. and their medicinal purposes.

      Do your cancer doctors and nurses know you had blood clots in your lungs? If not you might want to let them know. Shortness of breath and chest pain can come from having them. Of course it may just be side affects of that strong chemio cocktail you got this week. It sounds very potent.

      You take care. Know you are thought of, prayed for, and loved dearly.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Still praying for you….

      No need to respond back individually-we know you like doing that because you have a very big thoughtful heart. But we also know you are now focusing on preserving your energy to fight your cancer. That part is very important.

      If you ever feel the need to update but have low energy, a simple sentence is still good, letting us know you’re still “kicking” and your week was ‘good’, ‘so-so’ or ‘bad’….then we will pray/praise accordingly. So happy to hear you connecting with other people there. and I looked up Chaga-very interesting and will look more into it.

      Take care– May the Lord bless you this week.

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  30. mariegrace says:

    Good Morning everyone, I must say I know God is able, I know God is faithful and merciful. However, I am asking for prayers . Everything just seem to be going wrong. Everywhere I turn there is a roadblock. I can’t find a job, I have tried and I will keep trying , but every door just keep slamming on me. I really trust the Lord, but sometimes I just cry out to God for mercy. I really need your prayers that I will get a breakthrough. I really need it. thank you.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      God is indeed working in your life mariegrace. He is closing all of the wrong doors. Keep the faith and He will open the right door to the right job for you. Do not give up. Trust Him I sent prayers up for you..

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      • mariegrace says:

        Thank you so much for that comforting word JustfactsPlz. I really appreciate it. God bless you and family. You will always be in my prayers also.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Praying you will find the right job at the right time..and very soon.
      The Lord knows what you need, and He is there for you. Praise The Lord.
      Praying for you…

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Hi mariegrace. I was in a very similar situation a few years ago. Everything I applied for went unanswered or outright rejected. It seemed like there just wasn’t anything for me. Fortunately God knew what I did not—that there was a job waiting for me, I just wasn’t ready for it. He used the time it took me to get right with Him to knock out all the things that weren’t right for me. Then when the time came, He lead me to the job He had chosen for me.

      Prayers that the Lord will lead you to the right job for you, too. God bless.

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      • mariegrace says:

        Thank you Joe . you are so right. We just have to believe that he will provide the right opportunity. Someone once said thank God for unanswered prayers. But you know it is the “waiting” that trips us up sometimes. But I remember the verse “they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength”. God bless you. Treepers we are the best.

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  31. Ad rem says:

    We have an email request for prayer from Ruth A…..

    My lovely sweet, 10 year old granddaughter Gia has suffered seizures since she was 3 and they are still on going. I take turns to sleep with her to help my daughter and son in law get sleep. Gia seizes about 10 times during the night sometimes quite violently and can fall off the bed. Whoever sleeps with her cannot sleep as the seizures come usually just as we are about to fall asleep. The parents have tried many different methods to help Gia with medications and natural remedies, healers, body workers, infrared lamps etc; she does not go to school, but has to have tutors. Her life is mainly running from one doctor to another.

    Since I have slept next to her, I have noticed that Gia is an open book to possession by more than one type of entity. I have seen them walk in to her and I have seen them around her at night. I have not been able to use my own power to stop this.I know what possession is as I had a time of that when my Kundalini was activated. This is possession, but the healer who should have been able to cure it has not been able to help. We are all getting exhausted.

    I am asking for the help of Jesus and the Arch Angels in guarding Gia and helping all of us heal; her porous shields do not keep these creatures out of her mind and body. When she is herself she is sweet and innocent. When these things take over, she is a monster who swears and bites and resists all efforts to improve her health. We live in California near San Francisco.

    Bless you for any help you can give. Ruth

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    • justfactsplz says:

      This is a dire situation that Ruth A. and the family is in. The Bible talks about demons causing seizures. The disciples came to Jesus and asked why they could not cast them out. Jesus answered that it required both prayer and fasting. Jesus then cast them out of the child.

      I have had some experience in these evil creatures. The grandmother and the whole family need to be saved and believe in Jesus. Jesus left believers with the Holy Spirit to help us. We have power in Jesus name. One must have faith in that and strongly use Jesus name when you COMMAND the demons leave. The family cannot leave any open doors for the demons to enter. No dabbling in the occult or any other way to get rid of the demons. There are people usually in a Pentecostal church who have a spiritual gift of casting out demons. One must be careful because there is fraud even in that. Choose carefully. The family needs to put on the full armor of God as told in Ephesians.

      I hope this helps and I will be praying for little Ruth that God will send his waring angels to do battle on her behalf with the demons. To attack an innocent child like this shows just how real and despicable our enemy rerally is.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      We have encountered Satanic presences, too, and I feel for this family.
      Praying with Justfactsplz.

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    • LBB says:

      Prayers for young Gia’s who needs healing for her seizures and removal of demons of the spirit. May those with strong Holy Spirits intercede on her behalf from near and far.

      Prayers for all those around her for continued strength and guidance.

      There are lots of articles about dogs that can help with people with seizures in many ways. Maybe even some improvement will be beneficial.

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  32. justfactsplz says:

    l am asking for prayer. Gary and put an offer in on a little home yesterday. We are the second or back up offer on it. It has only been on the market two days. We have no idea if our offer is higher than the other people.

    The situation with G’s land is bleak. There is an offer but it involves a down payment with a balloon payment in two years. She is looking into low income senior apartments. Thank you Jesus. We need to be on our own, just the two of us.

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    • Ad rem says:

      Oh my….the real estate maket in your neck of the woods sounds very active! But, that’s a good thing…means people wanna be where you wanna be. Paws clasped in prayer once again…….and we wait.

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    • Grandma Covfefe says:

      Praying for you/Gary, that you will get the house you want soon….
      and for G, that she’ll find a apartment suited for her needs soon.

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Thank you. I pray soon also.

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        • Grandma Covfefe says:

          Soon….that word reminds me of this song we sang a lot in our youth…”Soon and very soon, we are going to see the King.”
          …so…I’d say…Soon and very soon, you will get your new house.

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          • justfactsplz says:

            Saw more today. Found an even nicer one and going to put a offer on it tomorrow. It just hit the market last night. As we were leaving someone else came up to see it. Our realtor is drawing up the papers tonight to submit in the morning. Hopefully this is it. It is the first one that Gary really likes.

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            • Grandma Covfefe says:

              Praying…..

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            • LBB says:

              Please let this be the one. Sounds so good, and you two deserve it for sure.

              I have been following your postings with housing, & G, & prayers needed for extended family & friends, etc. I love that you are specific with each area that needs extra prayers. You have been through so much and I am thankful for all the prayers that have been spoken and answered for you along the way.

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              • justfactsplz says:

                It wasn’t the one either. They got a cash offer. The problem is we are competing with investors for these low income homes. It is heart breaking. Found another one today and Gary looked at the outside and five people were in there looking. We put an off on it and our bank rejected it because the property taxes were too high. So we grabbed another one as soon as it hit the market in a country town near here and put an offer on it only seeing p;ictures. By the time we see them they are sold. We have ten days after an offer to actually put money down so we can see them after they approve our offer.

                I have a new specific prayer request I will post at the bottom so everyone can see it.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Praying so hard that you get that home, justfacts!

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    • mariegrace says:

      I am praying for you. God will direct you in the right direction. God bless you always.

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Thank you for praying. We did not get that home. They took the first offer. We are back to looking and it is a hard market. Things are selling so fast.

        The offer came through on G’s land and it is not good. It is $100,000. deposit paid at closing not until November. Then a balloon payment for the 1.1 million in 2 1/2 years. She is quite upset.

        We are running out of time. Our lease is up the end of July and our landlord wants an answer of our plans by next week. He of course wants us to buy this place but it needs expensive repairs and he is selling it AS IS. Gary has hated it here the whole two years we have been here.

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        • Joe Blow says:

          I’m really sorry it didn’t work out, justfacts. I will keep praying that you can snag something fast. I pray for a resolution for G. as well.

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        • Lumina says:

          Justfactsplz I pray you’ll find the perfect home where you’ll be able to sit back and enjoy visits from your red cardinal friends…

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          • justfactsplz says:

            Thank you for that. That is a lovely thought now in my mind. Gary rescued a baby dove today from the feral cats. He is going to take it down the road to the woods and release it. It has flown from it’s nest to learn to forridge for its food but it needs to be safe from all of those cats.

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        • Grandma Covfefe says:

          Bummer…..thanks for the update.
          The Lord has a better place for you. We’ll keep praying…
          May the Lord Bless you and Gary today and this week.

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  33. Grandma Covfefe says:

    Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong.
    1 Cor 16:13

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  34. Trunpismine says:

    Prayers to all who needs God’s blessings(me too!).
    Matthew 11:28
    Come unto me all that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest.

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  35. Trumpismine says:

    Prayers for all who needs God’s Blessings(me too!).
    Matthew 11:28
    Come unto me,all that labour and are heavy laden,and I will give you rest.

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  36. Trumpismine says:

    Been having ‘puter’ problems,router bit the dust so I got a new one and being an I.T. Dunce had to get on the phone with netgear,spectrum and Samsung. Ugh!
    Finally got back on line and read the prayer requests and I prayed for you all but couldn’t comment. Today finally Apple got us(appears) fixed.
    May the Lord’s love fill you all

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    • LBB says:

      I think all our computers must be burning out. Seen someone else testing their post after new device. I am due in the week. Hubby trying to get a used laptop from work. Mine is 10 yrs old and really sounds like it is on it’s last leg. Glad your back in business.

      Prayers and blessings to you too.

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  37. Ad rem says:

    We have an email request for prayer from Jack Sampson…

    My only child, my son, Adam was found dead in his college dorm room, on 28January218, from an apparent drug overdose. He died in sin. He was a practicing homosexual as well as being addicted to opiates & opioids.

    I pray multiple time, every day, to Jesus, my son be forgiven for his sins and be accepted into God’s Kingdom. Will you join me and pray for my son’s Salvation?

    He is Adam, son of Jack Richard, family of Sampson.

    Thank you and God Bless you.

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    • mariegrace says:

      Jack you are in my prayers. May God grant you the peace and comfort that he alone can give. God bless you abundantly.

      Liked by 3 people

    • LBB says:

      Jack,
      Extremely saddened to hear about the loss of your only child. I like to believe there were others praying to God for Adam prior to his death. We may not know where Adam was in his spiritual life, but that he died a sinner will only be God’s judgement, for it his alone , not ours. I hope your pain can soften in time.

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  38. Trumpismine says:

    Jack I pray for your only son Adam and you in your grief. I have faith that Jesus who sits at the right hand of God has heard your prayers.
    Luke 23:34
    Then said Jesus,Father,forgive them;for they know not what they do. And they parted his raiment and cast lots.
    I believe He knows our heart and His love for us is great and may God bless you today and tomorrow

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  39. justfactsplz says:

    Jack, I prayed or God to give you peace and comfort that only He can give. What comes to my mind as I pray is at the crucifixion the two thieves on each side of Jesus were about to die in their sin. The one Jesus saved and took him to Paradise with Him. I pray that in the moments before death your son was saved from eternal death by Jesus also.

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  40. From today’s open thread…fyi. Blessings to all you precious Treeper Prayer Warriors!

    Keln says:
    June 22, 2018 at 2:12 am
    Some of you made a big deal about my meltdown a few months ago, so I figured, I’d let you know what happened, as far as I am willing to tell you. I feel I owe you that much since many of you have showed such love and support in the past.

    Over a year ago, I left my job working for the DOE, due to cost cuts and the program I had been working on being a part of those cuts. It’s an important program, but the Obama admin wanted to cut it, so with the way that the wheels of government turn, it was already in the works. I don’t blame Trump, who likely knows little about it. But whatever, that is in the past. It’s all classified stuff, so I am not gonna dwell on the nature of it.

    I spent the next 8 months looking for a job and couldn’t find one. Turns out you have to do resumes differently now so that a computer reads it or an employer will never see it, so I paid to do that and got hits the first day that was up. Got a job at a major tech company you all would know the name of. Was unanimously accepted for the job through interviews then eventually that was pulled when my social media history was reviewed. I cannot prove it is my politics that was to blame, but since I’ve never broken any laws nor heard a bad word from my bosses, I have nothing else to blame either. Also said company often pops up as very leftist in the media. What can you do?

    In any case, I felt like a failure and blamed myself and turned to alcohol, which had been my old “friend” for various reasons over the years. And in that state I came to the conclusion that suicide would be the best option. I’d failed at the one thing I held most dear and that was providing for my family. A friend I had said “goodbye” to online read the hints and called the VA, which contacted the local police, who came to my house and saved me from completing that suicide.

    As a funny aside, that friend had me confused with another vet who had lost a leg. So the cops thought I was missing a leg and came prepared to carry me. They were bewildered at my ability to walk. I still had to wear non-slip socks afterwards due to my being a “fall hazard” on my record lol.

    I spent the better part of a week in the nut ward at the local hospital. My extended family came to be with me and convince me that it was not an option at all, and I am currently convinced they are right. I mean killing yourself is pretty bad.

    I now have a new job, which doesn’t pay what I wish but I am happy in it. I also have a doc at the VA who checks on me several times a week and so that is nice and all. Apparently things that happened in the past led up to this. I’ll take their word for it, I think it’s just that I wanted to check out when things got tough, but whatever. Yeah, money is a stupid reason to kill yourself, but we live in a world where money is pretty much everything.

    What I really prefer is nobody feels sorry for me. There are so many ways to monetize all of the many God-given talents I have. But I just can’t be arsed to do it, since I couldn’t give a rat’s ass about money. Maybe that is the problem, but I’d rather live life on my own terms. I have a job now and they think I am the cat’s meow. So I am in a good place as far as that goes.

    Me and God, well we have plenty to talk about going forward, but that’s the way it always is. Man always tries to wrest his soul from the One who exists to save it, even at his own peril.

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  41. Trumpismine says:

    Keln, for many years I have been a lurker on the Last Refuge but was reluctant to post being on company time and I too providing for my family. God forgive me my greed so I was a silent prayer.
    Please pray for me too,as I too love the Lord

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  42. Paintingjan says:

    May I ask for a prayer for my cousin’s son Jake, and his unit, as he travels with them to UAE today, on his way to Syria. He’s a great kid, loves our country, and has a deep faith in Christ. Thank you.

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  43. justfactsplz says:

    I am starting to feel a bit like Job. I am kept busy though so I don’t think about it too much. We lost the last house because a buyer paid cash for it. We have another one in the country near us that we put an offer on. They have until Monday to answer us. We are competing with investors in our price range and it makes it so difficult to find something.

    Please pray for a health concern I have. Yesterday I got bit by a tick on my inner thigh on my bad leg. It is appearing like the two times when I got Lymes Disease. It is red and the are is spreading, painful, hot, and itches intensely. Tomorrow through one week will tell if it is or not. If I get the bulls eye rash again I will know. Also feverk, etc. I will go get it checked out. But it doesn’t look good at all. It is acting just like the last two times a decade and more ago. I really don’t need this right now.

    G. is so upset over the land deal she has stopped looking for a place to live. She thinks the builder should give her $5 000.00 a month to live on. She really thinks she is special.

    Thank you in advance for all of your prayers.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      P.S. Please forgive my terrible typing. My eyes have really gotten bad lately and I can’t see very well. Too much time on the computer looking for a home I guess.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Oh justfacts, I feel absolutely terrible for you. Yes, it seems like the Job comparison is an apt one. I pray every day that you will be able to procure one of these houses. This day will be no different. I also pray that you do not have Lyme again. Lord in Heaven, please have mercy on justfacts & Gary. I ask this in Jesus’ name. Amen.

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      • Trumpismine says:

        Your faith is that small grain of mustard seed will move these mountains Justfactplz.
        Jesus please help Justfactsplz and all of us to see down our roads. Amen

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      • justfactsplz says:

        WE are still waiting to hear about our latest offer. The seller/investor was out of town until tomorrow. Their realtor indicated to our realtor that they wouldn’t work with us on price so it may be out also. It was at the high end of what we qualify for. Meanwhile I found another one tonight as a back up that is very nice also and has a beautiful park like setting back yard with a screened porch. I know God has something in mind

        The red rash from the tick bite has spread and covers most of my inner thigh but so far no bullseye center. Had some fever and flu like symptoms today. If not better tomorrow I will call the doctor. Again thank you for praying.

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        • dbethd says:

          Continued prayers for you. Please get checked out by the doctors. You don’t necessarily get a bulls eye rash with Lyme disease as was my husband’s case.

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    • maiingankwe says:

      I am praying really hard for the three of you just like so many here. My words are simple, but they are honest and true.

      Dear Kitchi Manitou (our Creator), please bless Justthefactz and her family, they are good people who love you and are so good to others. Justthefactz always prays for others unconditionally and with so much love and hope for those she does not know, but hears their requests for help with you. Please guide them to their perfect home where they can finally rest and heal. Please help G see how hard Gary and Justthefactz are trying to make life better for her. If this is not possible, please surround her and Gary with a strong white light to deflect the negativity she is trying to cover them with.

      But please, our all loving Creator, please allow them to have the home they have been praying so hard for. It’s hard to watch and hear of their pain and suffering when they are so good to so many. These two have been your faithful followers and they need their own place to rest. We love you and believe in you always.
      Chii miigwetch, Ma’iingankwe

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      • Trumpismine says:

        Amen

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Thank you my friend for such a beautiful prayer. It brought much needed tears of hope to my eyes. I am hopeful and I trust God for He knows the plans he has for me, to give me hope and a future.

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        • maiingankwe says:

          Every time I see your name or think of you or Gary I will pray. You’ve done so much for so many that I feel it is your turn. I’m just trying to convince our big Honcho in the sky. I’m gonna work on his Angels next too. 😁

          Hold tight, I know without a doubt our Creator absolutely loves and adores you. I know our Creator doesn’t play or have favorites, but if he did, you’d be way up there.

          Just know you and Gary are always in my prayers and I will do lots more praying. You are going to need a new home, so I can have excuse and come visit when I have a new head of my own real hair! I will be at the airport wearing purple! Oh, I also have purple luggage too. Who would’ve thought? 😁. And no, I am not a purple blob. 😋. I’ve got a bit of style left in my bones.

          Please let keep us up to date. And hope the last part made you smile.
          Love ya Angel Lady,
          Ma’iingankwe

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  44. maiingankwe says:

    Hello my fellow Treepers, my Prayer Warriors! I would like to share a story with you and it might be a long one, so please feel free to skip over or find a comfy chair to relax. I hope you will enjoy. Unfortunately, it’s going to be off the top of my head since I haven’t laid it out. Nothing unusual with me, but thought I’d give fair warning. 🙂

    A few days ago, Scott who runs the charity Wigs & Wishes called me up and asked if I would give a testimonial at his charity event on our Summer Solstice (Thursday evening). It was held uptown where they had around twenty product vendors and 8 or nine food vendors. They had part of our downtown street closed off for the town’s party.

    How could I say no? He gave me two Raquel Welch wigs for free! So I asked a few friends to come with me for some support. I’ve never done a testimonial before, and I knew what it was because I knew what the word meant, but when it came down to it I was kinda lost.

    I had even asked Scott what he wanted to hear me say and he said, ‘my story’. I told him, well, I gotta lot of ‘my’ stories, so that wasn’t really a lot of help, but I did get what he meant. He wanted to hear what I thought about Wigs & Wishes and my experience with them.

    So I put on my thinking cap and thought for a day on what I wanted to say. The second day, I started to put it on scraps of 📝 paper. The third day was the day I was supposed to do it, but it was my chemo day, so I had no time to put my scraps all together on one sheet. Okay, it may have taken four or five sheets since I’ve never been known to be short and to the point. 🙃

    Yes, I had my second round of the new chemo meds. Instead of getting the one that puts me to sleep, I asked to go without. It was my first time doing that. Believe it or not, I usually get my best sleep all week there and that’s why I always ask for it.

    I almost drove myself, but my friend Abby was going to help me afterwards in getting my wig and make-up all done, and matching my clothes, which I did surprisingly well at. I wore a summer skirt with a matching top and had my kuspuk that matched it all to a tee as well as my accessories, especially my long, beaded earrings that were gorgeous.

    When I was done with chemo and they let me stand up, I could feel the difference in my body. It’s too hard to describe except to say it was like a yuuge weight had been added to me that was trying desperately to drag me down to the ground. It was a horrible feeling, truly horrible. All I could think was how the heck am I going to get to the charity event and stand? Well, that’s why they have those collapsible camping chairs for right? I had a purple one to match my purplish/pink outfit and earrings. 😁.

    The night before the event, I called my Uncle Brian (the one who tells me he loves me after every phone conversation). Yeah, that’s a big awww… right there. Anyways, I told him I was trying to write a prayer in Anishinabemowin (Anishinabeg language) and if he could help. He’s pretty fluent in our language. He said, “Ma’iingankwe, there is a good prayer in that blue folder I gave you.” And that’s all he said about it, well, almost. We talked about family, weather, owies, and the usual for about half an hour and let each other go till the next call. We like talking to each other. When I stay with them, him and I can talk for hours and hours. Heck, we can easily yak all afternoon and then later in the night. I learn so much from him. He is my favorite Uncle big time, and I love all of my uncles.

    After the call, you got it, I went straight to my blue folder and found it. It’s a Tobacco Prayer and it encompasses pretty much everything in thanks. I will get to that more later okay?

    I also wrote a small prayer myself which I will write out for you too.

    After chemo I had enough time to pick up a bunch of prescriptions, stop at the vet to pick more stuff up, head home, take care of pups, dress, pack car and head out to make it there by five as promised. Whew. Made it on time too.

    I was told 5:45, then 6, then 6:15 and I believe it started at 6:45pm. Scott had all of his hairstylists and employees all standing in a long line and Scott started off with his favorite song and what it meant for him on this journey in helping others. He had a young lady give her testimonial. I believe she was at the point of trying out for the Olympic swimming team when she ended up having to have surgery to remove her brain tumor instead. She was a tall, beautiful young thing with lots and lots of spirit and she was great! Next was a thirty-something standing with her young daughter and husband. Her daughter was amazing selling all of the 50/50 tickets. I bought ten of them and all of my friends bought some too.

    Oh! Seven of my friends showed up at the last minute too! I called them only with two days warning. Only three weren’t able to make it, but wished me the best with their love. My hairdresser came too! She came for me and Scott both though. I had to share her, which is all good. 😊

    Next was me. I had been sitting in my purple chair next to all of the employees and a few other of us like the representative from the cancer hospital and my hairdresser.

    As I was listening, I was also looking at the nice sized crowd, over fifty I’d say, which wasn’t bad considering where we were, outside of a bar that had a 20’ tent, and then the street and the sidewalk with the DJ, employees etc.

    When it was my turn, Scott gave a super nice talk and had even told them I had chemo just a few hours before and I had still showed up. So I pulled my chair up in the middle of the road with my scattered notes and prayer in my lap. They handed me the microphone and not once had to ask me to speak up like they had with the others. I first yelled out, “BOOZHOO! Boozhoo! HELLO! Hello! Aaniin ezhiyan? How are you?” I explained when I get nervous I go back to my language. I then explained who the Anishinabeg are, where we are scattered and so forth. I also explained that I wanted to say a prayer in our language to show respect to my ancestors, family and tribe and when we have big gatherings such as this, a prayer is always to be shared.

    I explained it was a Tobacco Prayer and I would interpret it afterwards. I also said that a few of my friends would give tobacco to the tree right next to us as an offering after I was done with the prayer. I think the crowd liked that.

    The Tobacco Prayer gives thanks to our animals, fish, wilderness, our Elders and to their good health, our leaders, so they may stay true to the people and walk the right path, to our ancestors and our family and so forth. It is a beautiful prayer and some of the words were difficult. Uncle Brian did say to practice it, but that was pretty much all he had said about it. And thank goodness I practiced and practiced. The more I did, the easier it flowed together. I know I made some mistakes though.

    When I was done with the prayer I heard a lot of whooping and hollering. It made me feel really good because I almost didn’t say the prayer because I was worried how it would be accepted. The reason why I did do it is it was the right thing to do for me.

    I didn’t really get into my cancer, I talked about the beautiful hair I once had, how great of a stylist I had and how she brought Scott and I together and so forth. I talked about how great all of his employees were and how easy and comfortable they made me feel.

    Oh, when I did my speech I wasn’t wearing the wig. I wanted to show them the transformation for us women and children when we put them on. So after my speech I explained this to them, turned around and put it on. Since I didn’t have a mirror, my stylist and an employee helped straighten it out for me. When I turned around the whole place cheered and whistled. It was an amazing feeling. My heart just filled up and overflowed. My smile was so big and bright, it had to be.

    One last thing I almost forgot. Right before I was to start, Dokme, my daughter came up to help me with the prayer. It was to hard for her, but only because it was the first time she saw it, so she helped me hold each sheet when I was done and stood by my side to support her Mom. I also told them her name and how she had donated ten inches of her own hair for a children’s charity that she had researched and chosen all on her own.

    I didn’t know this at the time, but there was a guy in a wheelchair that was sitting close to us and while I said the prayer he held out his arms, palms up, eyes closed and smiled throughout. I saw pictures of it too. When I told my Uncle Brian earlier today, he really liked that and said these prayers can help people even if it’s only for a short time sometimes. Yeah, I called and told him all about it like I’m sharing with all of you. 😋

    Afterwards, when all was said and done, I was amazed to find people coming up to me and hugging me, kissing me on the cheek, holding my hand and speaking to me and thanking me. I even had a bit of a line. I’ve never experienced anything like it before. It was surreal. So unexpected. So beautiful too. These people spoke with their hearts and one even cried. And the cancer representative even pointed out a person who had cried in the crowd after I had come back to join her. As I said, it was just so surreal, and so hard to explain. I’ve never had anything like that happen before. I’m even getting chocked up now thinking about it. It really moved me.

    The night before I had asked my friend, Ponytail Kim, to give me a sign if I had succeeded in my speech. While Abby and I went to eat some food, (finally) we were sitting there eating (I was devouring), and we saw a great horned owl 🦉 sitting on top of the building kiddie-corner from us. It was almost unbelievable. Let me explain why… A few moments afte Kim had passed away (one year and a day), I walked out on his deck and saw a great horned owl fly down the river. No lie. It was an amazing gift from him to me and I will never forget. So it was truly amazing to see one on the building right up town where I never thought to see one. It made my day complete and we left soon after.

    Oh, and I also won this beautiful double layered carrot cake with nuts in their silent auction. Yum yummy!

    I think we all had a great time and I was able to bring two different groups of my friends together for the first time. This Sunday they are all coming over for a BBQ on our back deck with my flowers! So we will all be together again. I think they all liked each other. Yay!

    Abby and her sister are coming over after four to help me clean the house and grill and get the shopping done. Wr are going to have a few more people over too. I’m really excited, especially knowing I don’t have to do all of the cooking and cleaning by myself. We are all going to bring dishes to pass. I will buy the meat for the grill and non-alcoholic drinks. It’s a win-win, and a guarantee I won’t over do it. Well, kinda. I promise to do my best and they all know my energy isn’t all there. They are super excited to help and that is so awesome to say the least.

    Update: I’m sorry to say I had to cancel the BBQ. Today, Saturday, I slept most of the day. I have no energy, it feels as if I’m completely depleted. You know how when your legs get tired from running? That’s how my whole body feels and I’m barely moving. Sometimes I will get that feeling in my thighs and I’m just sitting in a chair. I really don’t like it. It is what it is, and only time will make it better.

    I hope you enjoyed my story and you have a smile too. Even after that yuckie update, which I am sorry for. Hopefully, you can look at all the good stuff and just fly over the update.
    Be well,
    Ma’iingankwe

    My prayer! I almost forgot. I remember the words in english, but my notes are still in the car and right now too far to walk. Here is what it said:
    My heart wishes, maybe perhaps, I will be well again.

    In Anishinabemowin:

    Imbegish ninende’an maagizhaa gaye nimino ayaa.

    Chii miigwetch! Thank you very much! Be well and stay smiling,
    Ma’iingankwe

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    • What a lovely story, Ma’iingankee. Thank you for sharing. So sorry you are not feeling well. My prayers for you and your family contingue. continue.

      God bless

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      • bcsurvivor2 says:

        Loved your story, Ma’iingankwe.
        I felt as if I was right there. Bravo for your bravery.

        I observed that you read my comment on your post about your flowers. I must humbly ask for your forgiveness for being rather insensitive during your trek through the world of crappy chemo. i said something to the effect of being glad I didn’t do any of the drugs. AKKK! so stupid of me. So sorry.
        peace (red faced)
        Eve

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        • maiingankwe says:

          Eve,
          I have given up being found in the bin with the last post I had sent to you, so I will try again. Hopefully, I will remember it all, even if it’s been more than a week.
          It’s probably because it was linked to an older post is all.

          First, I hadn’t even realized you had been insensitive, so I would say you weren’t at all, whatsoever.

          Please don’t walk on eggshells around me and continue to being honest. I like that about you. If I read something that really hurts, I would let you know, but that is usually one who is outright mean, and you are not with me. You’ve been very kind and helpful to be honest. Really helpful, which is why I would like to ask for your help.

          Okay, when I had the A & C chemo, I started to have problems with my hands and fingertips, especially my fingertips. I pointed it out to my doctor and nurse practitioner, so it should be in their notes. The traveling doc thought I was full of it when I started to explain how it’s gotten a great deal worse, so I showed him. He stopped me before I got to my feet though. Lucky him since they no longer look pretty by any means. They’re horrible, they really are. It’s sad. He told me the A&C are not known for causing that. Well, it does. My doc and NP have physically seen it. So there. Oooh, did he get my blood boiling. As if I was lying or something.

          Anyways, my nails are discolored and painful. I have a lot of trouble opening, twisting, turning, and pretty much everything else we use our fingers for. My doc and NP explained that I might have to go without my last Taxol dosage if it continues.

          I got the traveling doc again, which I was so not happy, however, when he finally heard me out and looked at my hands he lowered the Taxol by 25% for the last chemo I had. I believe it made a difference. So I don’t dislike him as much as I did the first time. He kinda made up for it.

          They almost sent me home because my baby white blood cells were not where they wanted them. We had to wait on more blood testing to return and I just made the cut when they did.

          I can only sleep a few hours at a time if that. I can’t sleep on my right side because of the port and the pain it causes. I can’t sleep on my left because of the three hip surgeries and the pain that causes and now I can barely sleep on my back with my legs above my heart. It’s my heels of all things. It gets too painful and it will wake me up every time. My heels can’t take the pressure of the bed. I have found that if I roll the blankets up and over at the end, I can let my feet dangle and it’s alright to sleep that way. However, I can’t keep my tootsies warm and I always seem to be cold now. Ugh.
          If it’s not one thing it’s another.

          Did you have problems with your fingertips and hands? I have pain in the bones in my hands. Get this, my longest nail broke on my left thumb, so I went to file it gently since that was even hurting. My thumb throbbed for about 30 minutes to an hour afterwards. The next day I could see three stress lines on my nail and it hurt all day and the next. Heck, it still aches 3-4 days later. So now I can’t even file my nails. Did I say ugh?

          Today has been rough, I ache all over. Did you ache all over too?

          I’ve been trying to sleep as often as I can and I haven’t been doing much of anything because of the pain. I’ve even cut down on my reading because it hurts to hold my phone etc.

          If you can share any advice or insight, I would be forever grateful.

          I’m still enjoying my flowers though. We’ve had a lot of rain lately, but I’m on the deck right now enjoying the fresh air and all.
          I hope you’re having a great summer and able to enjoy it too.
          Be well,
          Ma’iingankwe

          PS) I got timed out, so I had to resign in, but before that I had to save this post somewhere else and bring it back. This phone and virus have no idea how stubborn I am. I was going to get this to you no matter what. It’s the second time I had to rewrite it, so yeah, a bit stubborn.
          Stay smiling,
          Ma’iingankwe

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          • bcsurvivor2 says:

            Oh my dear ma’iigankwe,
            How i wish we could talk by the phone. I don’t know how to give you my number or my email without every one else seeing it. Maybe Adrem can help with that.??
            I did not have chemo but I do know plenty of ladies that did. Yes, the finger nail and feet problems are par for the course.
            Chemo attacks fast growing cells, hence hair, colon nails. the problem with chemo is that it destroys every cell in your body. The course of treatment is meant to kill the cancer cells as they divide, so that is why the intervals of a week or 2 weeks. Again the idea for chemo is to kill the fast growing cells before they become full blown cancer cells. Does that make sense? So in killing the fast growing cells your nails and hair are fully compromised.
            It totally sucks.
            I, after 2 recurrences had my breasts just cut off. 3 major surgeries. Thousands of dollars, did’nt have insurance….so far so good.
            I still don’t understand why your docs didn’t recommend mastectomies. Get rid of the cancer tissue and then go from there. Just doesn’t make sense.
            From what you said it doesn’t seem that your cancer was invasive let alone metastatic. So what gives with the ultra aggressive approach? You said I could be honest…yes? i would be asking a lot of questions about the docs approach and WHY?

            I do hurt all over even though i didn’t have chemo. Cancer changed my whole body. My scars hurt, my muscles hurt, my bones hurt, I’ve gained weight and mentally, after 4 years of this shit, I am just getting back to being optimistic about the future.
            It is a tough row to hoe…really effing hard. BUT, I have grown as a person, I am MUCH more likely to say what i really think, have now use for cry babies, AND my hubby loves me Sooo much and tells me so, my kids too!
            Hang in there kiddo.
            If you know how we can connect by phone let me know.
            Love you
            Eve

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            • maiingankwe says:

              I wish I had seen your post before I saw my NP, but I did ask a lot of questions.

              Our first meeting with the doctor and NP together, I had asked why not just take it all right now. This was before they knew I would need the perjeta and herceta for 52 weeks.

              They essentially said, I would have to go through with the chemo even with a full mastectomy, so instead of going that way, they would see if the chemo could shrink it far enough that all I would need would be a lumpectomy. A lumpectomy would be far better than a mastectomy. So I understand where they are coming from.

              I also asked what the heck was going on with my nail beds and she essentially covered what you did. It just hurts and it’s ugly to look at. They will keep a good eye on it. Last week they had decreased the Taxol by 25%, which helped a lot.

              I do have good news. The NP has seen shrinkage of the biggest tumor. The other tumor is hiding behind the big one, so it’s a bit difficult to tell without an ultrasound, which I will be getting pretty soon. I think. Around 2-3 weeks at the most.

              I’m so sorry you are still hurting after so long. It doesn’t seem fair does it? Enough is enough. Thankfully, you have a husband who absolutely loves and adores you. Itreally does make a yuuge difference on our healing and outlook. It makes it even better to have great kids.

              I’m not too happy with mine right now, but I think their 6:30am lecture got through to them. I’m the kinda person that says, “Don’t tell me you’re going to do something and then not do it.” I get frustrated as all get. And yeah, I had them all up early and no, I’m not feeling a bit guilty in the least. Maybe I will later, but right now, I’m still smiling. He he. Chuckling too. Serves them right.

              I think you should be relatively safe until Ad rem deletes your post with your personal info, since it’s under an older post. I’ve got my fingers crossed, and I’m sorry I didn’t see it soon enough to let you know.

              Today, chemo is packed, but surprisingly quiet. Everyone is either sleeping or reading. I just got the adavant, so I should be closing my eyes real soon too. I’ve found that if I take it, I don’t feel the full weight of the chemo when I walk out. It’s a horrible feeling with a yuuge weight added. I really don’t like that. Plus, I always get good sleep here, which I really like. No one waking me up asking me silly questions and no pups waking me up just so they can sit on the cool garage floor and looking out the open doorway. I so don’t like that either. I’m try to get them to wake me up only if they need to do their business, not so they can sit somewhere else for awhile.

              Well, I will talk with you soon. Hope your day is going well and thank you so much for all of your help in answering my questions.
              Be well,
              Ma’iingankwe

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              • bcsurvivor2 says:

                So we said we’d be honest, yes.
                Initially one tumor showed up on the ultra sound which led to a mammogram. The mammogram showed NOTHING . Then we went on to an MRI. That is where 6 tumors lit up like Christmas lights. All over my breast.
                I had a decision to make at that point. I already had breast implants, 20 years old. Not big ones just Bcup.. I opted to save the implants and my nipples. if at all possible. So that’s what my surgeon did. She took all the tissue on top of the implants and did a really great job. She told me that my old implants actually saved me from the tumors growing into my chest wall.
                Forward a year, new tumor, took that out and then almost 2 years ago another one popped up. BIG SIGH!!!
                Sooo, instead of radiation I opted for another but complete mastectomies. Done. So far so good.
                I just question the lumpectomy for you given you have the BCra gene. Why not get rid of the possibility of recurrence or at least minimize it? You can have reconstruction…. i, from time to time would like to have boobs again but without insurance, there are a lot of other things I would rather do.

                lol, as far as dogs, cats, kids, hubby, I just , when i was recovering from surgery, laid down the law. i was the PRINCESS and if I asked it shall be given to me. My darling hubby brought me a FABULOUS tiara while in hospital. It’s beautiful. I still wear it on occasion when i’m not feeling well. So fun.

                Anyway, you have my info. So does anyone else that needs to chat.
                Love you, and everyone on these threads.
                Peace,
                Eve

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                • maiingankwe says:

                  I must’ve written it wrong. I don’t have the BCRa gene. However, I do have one of the other 29 genes they test for. It was in a folder at the time I had written the post and was too lazy to go get it. I now have the folder next me. It’s called the ATM gene and after the name it has,
                  c.58882A>G (p. Tyr1961Cys).

                  I received a letter from them last Friday stating that if I want to talk to a geneticist I need to call them and set up an appt. I haven’t done that yet. My NP has encouraged me to talk to them, but I’m a bit hesitant on my part because I don’t want to face more bad news. I keep saying, give me a few days. Maybe I should just bite the bullet and call them tomorrow. I’m just being honest. 🙂

                  Today was exceptionally rough after chemo. Usually I’m able to get a lot done on Thurs, but not this time. I think it was because I had all three chemos and full amounts today and it wiped me out. I slept four hours until the pups woke me up to go outside.

                  I feel a lot better now, just tired is all.

                  I will let you know what the geneticist has to say after our appt. I’m sure it will clear up a lot for you and me.

                  I’m going to hint about a new tiara, it can’t hurt.
                  Thanks for everything. Be well and stay smiling,
                  Ma’iingankwe

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                • bcsurvivor2 says:

                  Looked up the ATM gene research. Yes, you have an increased risk of getting BC. Well, OK. From what i read it is not as high a risk as the brca. sooo all is kinda a moot point because you are already there, I would assume the geneticist will go over family history and hope they suggest your daughter get tested. I would ask about that.
                  I’m not a doctor but my son is studying to be an oncologist in research. Totally interesting speaking with him about this stuff.
                  Are you almost done with the Ac?
                  Feel better, I’ll email you soon.
                  Be well (indeed)
                  Eve
                  Oh the tiara thing. ha! All I really wanted and was really joking about, was a paper tiara from walmart. The ones meant for a birthday party. So hubby shows up at the hospital to take me home with a tiara from Davids Bridal. I truly felt like a princess. Fun! Oh, I was also craving a dill pickle. So he brings me a gallon jar of pickles. lol

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          • bcsurvivor2 says:

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      • piper567 says:

        Ma’i,
        thank you so much for sharing this beautiful story with us.
        And thank you for giving us the names of Anishinabeg, and that your language is anishinabenowin…that we may learn more of your people and their language.
        You were rewarded for your courage by the many people you touched on that special day.
        Loved your sighting of the Great Horned Owl, and the connection with Pony Tail!
        God bless you, and prayers are going up for your healing and rest in all you are currently experiencing.

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        • maiingankwe says:

          Piper567,
          Thank you so much!

          I will always try and translate our language. I know I always get so frustrated when people don’t. I like to see if I can figure out what words go to what in english. Plus, who knows, someone might like one of the word and add it to their own repertoire of words they use.

          Thank you for your kind words, they really touched my heart and it’s just what I needed today.
          Stay smiling and be well,
          Ma’iingankwe

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        • maiingankwe says:

          Piper567,
          Thank you so much!

          I will always try and translate our language. I know I always get so frustrated when people don’t. I like to see if I can figure out what words go to what in english. Plus, who knows, someone might like one of the word and add it to their own repertoire of words they use.

          Thank you for your kind words, they really touched my heart and it’s just what I needed today.
          Stay smiling and be well,
          Ma’iingankwe

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    • justfactsplz says:

      What a beautiful story and night for you and many others. You have a God gien gift to write and tell stories that inspire others. How wonderful that you shared your story to help with the wig company and hard to tell how many patients you helped. Fixing up your beautiful self in your favorite purple and long beaded earrings helped women out there in the audience who want to feel beautiful too. Kudos to you kid.

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  45. Trumpismine says:

    Ma’iingankee you are so inspiring in your strength and restore my faith in mankind.
    God shows again and again his love for us in times of trouble 🙏🏼

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    • maiingankwe says:

      Trumpismine,
      You’ve been a great help too with your kinds words and words of inspiration. And you’re right, our Creator is so awesome! Thank you so much for helping me along the way. I always look forward to read what you’ve posted. Plus, it doesn’t hurt that you have suck a cool avatar name. 😁
      Have an awesome day,
      Ma’iingankwe

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      • Trumpismine says:

        I posted CV my prayer and told her of the Blessings I received in return too. For everyone here fighting the good fight I implore you to pray for others. It has made such a difference in my faith but we’re still human and the temptations are still there. Jesus was so right when he told his disciples “and lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil”
        Trust in the Lord my dear new friend.

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        • maiingankwe says:

          Thank you. I trust our Creator with all of my being. I am far from perfect and make mistakes all the time. As long as I can learn from them, all is good and can be forgiven.

          Even while I am writing this, my heart fills up with such warmth and I’m full of smiles because of my love and relationship I have with our Creator. He so rocks!

          I know I may be a bit goofy sometimes, but I also know I am loved and accepted by our Creator and he loves me just the same. I don’t think he’d have it any other way. I also know when to be serious too. I think that is very important as well.
          Have a beautiful day,
          Ma’iingankwe

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  46. Concerned Virginian says:

    To the CTH Family:
    You are were so kind when my husband passed away in January of this year at age 107. I have an update for you:
    The last 6 months have been a combination of intense immediate grief, a whirlwind of emotions, plus a crash course on rapidly adjusting to life circumstances with less than 1/2 of the income available to you compared to when your spouse was alive.
    You learn pretty quickly, as in a divorce situation, who your REAL friends are: turns out, most of the “friends” were only interested in you through their association with the late spouse. Ditto for family: after the initial “I’m so sorry for your loss” communications, only my brother and sister and my son have remained in contact. And the only person who really rallied around when I needed it the most was also my son.
    I’ll be leaving Virginia to move nearer to my son and am actively looking. So at some point you’ll see the moniker “Concerned Virginian” replaced with something else.
    The local Hospice organization here has been of help to me since my husband passed away through their Grief Counseling service.
    I am just starting to see a little “down the road” in terms of putting so many things into perspective.
    The Hospice grief counselor tells me that once I do move to my new home (I believe that will happen some time this summer) and get settled in—that is when the REAL process of grieving for John’s loss will begin. There is a big difference between mourning and grieving. Mourning will at some point recede; grieving takes much longer and must be dealt with or it will consume you. First, there is the heartbreak; Then, there is the heartache.
    I can say that The Last Refuge has been and continues to be, the place where I go for the truth about what’s going on with our country. CTH continues to be where I go every day to “clear my head” and create space for thinking about other things besides my own situation.
    I wish to thank the CTH Family for standing with me when my husband passed away. I would to like now to ask for your prayers for strength, health, and peace. It’s going to be a long road. Thank you.

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    • maiingankwe says:

      I am so sorry to hear of your heartache and yet also so happy to hear about your son and the love he has for you.

      I am excited for you and your move and hope that it will make your life easier in every way.

      I cannot imagine losing one you’ve loved for so many years, but I will pray for you and hope your pain will ease in your own time.

      Please let us know how you’re doing and keep us up to date when you can.
      Sending lots of best wishes and love your way,
      Ma’iingankwe

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      • Concerned Virginian says:

        ma’iingankwe
        I thank you for your kind words and thoughts, especially from my reading above of what you’ve been through and continue to go through.
        As also for Keln (and thank you Valerie for getting my message to him), I send to you Good Energy and Peace.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      It’s good to hear from you, CV. I had seen you post in some other threads & was wondering how you were doing. You have my prayers for all that you asked for & more. May the Lord bless you & be with you always.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Prayers that you will feel God’s love and presence around you and the peace He gives you. Prayers for strength for the days, weeks, and months ahead to be able to handle all situations as they arise and that God will lead you in your decision making. May he heal the BIG HURT.

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  47. Trumpismine says:

    I too have seen your moniker CV,been lurking around the tree until I found this wonderful thread.
    Prayers to you on your new adventures and may God Bless you. It’s time for Jesus to bless you. I’m selfish though. You see when I pray for others God Blesses me too and like today for me it was like Manna from Heaven. Give the grieving some time for God rewards those who wait for his love.
    T.I.M.

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    • maiingankwe says:

      Ad rem,
      Could you please look in your bin for me? I had written out a question for Eve. It seems like all of my first attempts get thrown in there and after that the rest are accepted. If I leave even for a few hours I have to sign back in again here at CTH and at WordPress. I don’t close anything down either. I can leave the page open and it won’t help. Let’s just say I’ve gotten real quick at my sign-ins, thankfully.

      I remember a time I could go days without having to resign in, so I really don’t know what is going on. However, I do know once I am signed in, anything I post directly after is accepted.

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      • The Defiant One says:

        Maiingankwe, sorry for the asking this noob-ish question… but what “bin” do you refer to of Ad Rem?

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        • maiingankwe says:

          Ad rem is our moderator and sometimes WordPress throws our comments into the bin because there might be a shaky word in there or one of their algorithms thinks it’s a bad word when it isn’t.

          Always feel free to ask questions, it’s how we all learn, especially a good one like yours.

          Hope this helps, be well,
          Ma’iingankwe

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  48. Michael says:

    I need to come and read this thread more often. For all the heartbreak there is hope on every page.
    Thank you all!

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  49. Dear Treeper Prayers,
    I have been playing catch up reading through the last 2 months of messages (sorry I don’t always read the Prayer Request pages & keep up “in real time”) & am praying for each of your situations as I read your posts…May the Lord be with Each of You in the way you need Him most!

    I have a prayer request in addition to my cousin Roberta, fighting cancer, that some of you are still praying about; my Aunt Pat, who just underwent a knee replacement (she’s the mountain climber/botanist I mentioned up thread) & needs to be sufficiently recovered to teach some classes & travel in August; & general stuff with Josiah (I’ll share more on that front another time)…Josiah’s twin Brandon (whose shoulder surgery site is doing well & only needs one more doctor’s visit for complete clearance, but who also has heavy financial costs of surgery remaining) was on his way to a friend’s birthday party after work. These were a number of co-workers who worked the closing shift at their restaurant near Detroit’s Metro Airport. Anyway about midnight Brandon was driving his car onto the entrance ramp of I-94 when some pedestrians tried to dart between him & the car in front. He had to slow down & swerve. After the ramp the car in front of him actually hit someone who was walking in the far right lane of the highway & wearing all black. They were probably travelling 60-70mph & the middle aged man was probably dead on impact.

    My son didn’t see the hit, but his friends in the car behind him did. Brandon swerved to avoid the sudden debris in the road (he thought the car in front of him had blown a tire & shrapnel was flying up). He pulled to the shoulder in front of the collision car & could see the man’s body, who appeared dead by position, condition, & blood. The car who hit/killed the man was a middle-aged married couple who’d just flown in from NY (not sure if they were coming home or arriving for vacation etc). The wife in the passenger seat was covered in broken glass & the deceased’s blood & was apparently in shock & possibly disabled. Her name is Mona. She & her husband were transported to nearby hospitals.

    Please pray for Mona & her husband, for their health, peace of mind, & relationship with the Lord…& for their likely legal situation. Brandon & his co-worker driver both gave statements to the authorities so they may be helping the NYers in their case, as they didn’t leave their lane, etc. Brandon had called 911 & spent time hugging & helping Mona, but he’s been pretty shaken up by the whole experience, being so close to death & feet from having hit someone.

    The deceased appeared to be wearing dog tags & Brandon’s passenger thought he might have been attempting/achieving suicide by highway traffic. He may have been on some substance & unaware of his surroundings. This man’s family & friends are sure to be devastated by this brutal & senseless death. Please lift them to the Lord. Also remember the emergency workers who had to deal with the grisly situation that God would protect them & heal their souls (I know some people are used to this kind of work but can anyone ever Really get Used to that?). B said one of the cops said it was the 19th highway fatality there’d been in his small community.

    I’m very thankful that Brandon is now home safely as my daughter Clarissa had woken me from a dead sleep to say he needed prayer & explain what she knew of the situation, B had texted her. My sleep addled brain was running through scenarios where he was so overcome by shock that he also ended up getting in an accident…so it was a relief to have him home intact. Another blessing was that the birthday girl & her close friends traveled a different way & missed the whole ordeal.

    Well, sorry for all that extra info…it’s all quite fresh in my mind as we just finished our conversation about it all. Ironically Josiah & I were “witnesses” to a car/truck accident at almost the identical spot in May 2000 as we headed west to Ann Arbor for his second open-heart surgery…Hmm…

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Valerie, I am so sorry Brandon had to go through that. Prayers for him & for all those affected by this horrible accident. And prayers for your Aunt Pat as well. God bless.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      I prayed for your Aunt Pat. Knee replacements take awhile to recover from and it appears she is under a deadline. I also prayed for Mona and her husband, Brandon, and everyone involved in that horrific accident. It was a terrible thing to happen.

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      • Thank you JFP. All participants/observers of that accident need the Lord’s ministering grace & peace. Blessings…I hope/pray that the Lord is opening the doors of his will before you in all arenas…& great job in your long needed/dreaded talk with G. Way to go.

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  50. Trumpismine says:

    Valerie Curren,
    Longtime lurker here and I feel compelled to ask God to Bless Brandon,his co-worker and all connected to this horrible tragedy. And Jesus please intercede for Valerie and her family and give them peace through His great Love.
    In my youth l drove a truck and have seen enough accidents to last me a lifetime and this one sounds particularly bad.
    Praise to Jesus,Praise his Holy Name!

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