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Prayer Requests – 10

Please share any prayer requests you may have for friends or loved ones here….

Prayer Requests – Part 9

Prayer Requests – Part 8

Prayer Requests – Part 7

Prayer Requests – Part 6

Prayer Requests – Part 5

Prayer Requests – Part 4

Prayer Requests – Part 3

Prayer Requests – Part 2

Prayer Requests – Part 1

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  1. Please pray for my husband’s boss, Grayson, who was taken away from work in an ambulance today. He had minimal vitals & was unconscious & they were doing CPR on him for a while. It appears to be heart related, given the CPR, but could also be a diabetic situation too.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Prayers that Grayson is OK, that the Lord is with him & guides the doctors in his treatment.

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    • Ddanna says:

      Prayers that your husbands boss will pull thru and for Gods strength and guidance for the family.

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      • Thank you, Ddanna. God Bless You for this…

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        • I pray for Grayson to receive complete recovery and that his family may be blessed with good news of wellness for Grayson.

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          • Thank you for this lovely prayer. It is only answered in the affirmative if Grayson is with the Lord. He took his family to church but we don’t know about his personal relationship to God. Sadly he didn’t make it on Friday…but we didn’t know for sure until yesterday.

            His family & co-workers are still reeling from his sudden & untimely loss. There have been many tears & prayers for those left behind. Thanks so much for lifting this situation to The Throne. Blessings…

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            • Joe Blow says:

              I’m so sorry to hear this. Prayers of comfort & strength for his family & coworkers.

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            • I am very sorry to hear of this loss. When I grieved an unexpected death, I found help in a book: I Wasn’t Ready to say Good-bye. It had many chapters that validated how I felt, what I was going through, things that seemed others did not think about. In the context of the immediate event, there may be support but life quickly may go on for others. At two years out, I feel my loss every day, yet it is rare but most gratefully acknowledged to have my loved one and my loss remembered. It is an enormous service and gift to comfort those who grieve, in the immediate shock, and more so as time goes on and others are caught up in other things. Thank you for caring for Grayson and his family. My prayers continue for all of you.

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              • Thank you for these insights…& I am so sorry for your own loss. My husband was/is mightily impacted in multiple ways: he really loved his boss (the best one he’d ever had); he saw him collapsed in his office chair & upon reflection thinks it was if he might have already been dead then for he pretty much looked gone; earlier in the day his boss was looking him in the eye like he wanted to say something but the moment passed & that was their last conversation w/no chance to say goodbye & no “closure”; Grayson was a buffer between that location & his immediate superior who is a real hard-a type who was & is making work miserable for everyone–the stress of his presence may even have been a contributing factor in G’s death; a couple days previously my husband had a conversation w/G saying that he wanted a heads up whenever G was going to retire so he could consider looking for other work for he really didn’t want to work there after G was gone, & G (“jokingly”) replied that he’d never retire but they’d probably find him dead in his office chair–which is very close to what actually happened; we don’t know if G is with the Lord so can’t Rely on that comfort (yet, hopefully the funeral, which is delayed until early February, will provide clarification).

                Thankfully yesterday was a little better for my husband & son, who also works at that location, than was Monday…but it is still a very difficult & heavy time. We really appreciate your prayer support & heartfelt words of encouragement & perspective.

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                • maiingankwe says:

                  Valerie,
                  You have such a pretty name by the way. I just had to tell you that. I always think of a classy and refined lady with perfect hair in a beautiful bun.

                  I know we may see and believe things differently, and I am not here to say who is right and who is wrong, because I don’t know. I can only tell you what is in my heart.

                  I believe if Grayson was a good and honest man, who did well by others, then he too will be with our Creator. I always believed he is all loving and forgiving. I cannot imagine our Heavens filled only with people who went and sat in church. People who knew the word of our Lord and Jesus Christ and lived by them. There are millions of people who have still not yet heard of our Lord, and yet I cannot imagine our Heavens filled without them.

                  I understand this is why there have been missionaries giving up the comforts of their lives to search and teach these people so they can go to Heaven, I understood they believe they have to accept our Lord into their hearts and so forth before they are allowed entry on their crossing over, I just cannot imagine it is the only way.

                  Maybe it is because of my upbringing and living on the Rez off and on. I remember as a young person looking around my family members and looking around the Rez and thinking about some of my Elders, the children, some of my friends and so forth and knowing in my heart that even though a lot of them had never walked across the threshold of a church, they too are loved by our Creator and would be taken into Heaven. I cannot imagine it any other way.

                  I never believed the fire and brimstone of our Creator and always spoke of him being all loving and forgiving. Now, I would never want to mess with our Creator, oh goodness no. I would never ever want to cross him, I’d be absolutely terrified and for good reason.

                  I do believe there are different levels in Heaven, and we are constantly working to make ourselves better people while we are there. I believe the people who have lived good and honorable lives on earth, but may not have known of our Creator will be at a level where they can learn. I believe it takes a great deal of work to be at the level to see our Creator and to sit with him.

                  I know when I cross over I will have a great deal of work to do. I also know if I started on earth it would probably get me up a bit higher too.

                  However, I think our Creator will accept me with open and loving arms. I will be shown my mistakes, and I will have to work hard on learning from them. Sometimes I try and do that here on earth. I know I’ve made a lot of mistakes and some I’m ready to face and to be honest, some I am not. One of them is forgiving some people on this earth. I’m just not ready yet. Trust me, I am so not ready. I will think about it after periods of time has passed and see if I am ready to forgive, and the answer is a loud and resounding No. Thankfully, there have been a few where I have worked hard to forgive when I’ve known I was ready to do so. I know by not completing these steps that it is holding me back from achieving a higher level when I cross over. But if I’m not ready to forgive, I can’t just do it and be false. The pain and hurt is still far too deep. My physical scars have healed long ago, but my emotional scars are still raw and painful to the touch of my memories.

                  Anyways, what I am trying to say is that I have a lot of work to do here on earth before I can achieve higher levels in Heaven. I also believe there are people in Heaven who will help me work through it all and make me a better person with their guidance and experience. I can see someone like you being there to help me with their wisdom. A beautiful and regal lady.

                  We all have different beliefs and faiths. I cannot imagine one single religion being all right and the rest not to be. I’ve heard people from certain religions say things along the lines that they only know the true words of God and all others will burn in Hell or whatever. I think it’s disingenuous and arrogant. I’m thinking of that group who have gone to our Veterans funerals and said nasty things with their words and signs to their families and friends. My mind is blank. Is it Hillsboro Baptist Church?

                  I also see truths in pretty much all religions. When my Dad started to go to church and do Bible studies every Thursday evenings I backed him up a 100%. I would see him pray outloud every evening before he went to bed. I watched him help others through the church and I saw how happier he was. He never pushed it on me, but he would ask from time-to-time if I would attend with him. I always declined graciously. I saw a positive change in my Dad, and I am very happy he went back about 10 or 12 years or maybe more before his passing.

                  Now, if someone told me because he was Lutheran he would not go to Heaven, I would laugh, yes, laugh. How do they know that their religion is the only one true religion and all others are false and a waste of time? Our Creator never told them this. I know I will go to Heaven as well, I know this in my heart and every part of my being agrees. I may not be the wisest, I may not have been one to learn His words like others have, but I know He loves me just the same. I’m just going to have to work harder is all.

                  I am not going to claim that Grayson is in Heaven or if he isn’t. You have your beliefs, and I am going to respect them. I know I tried to explain above a bit of my beliefs, and I did it just to show where another may be thinking. I can only say what I feel in my heart. Our Creator has not spoken to me personally to tell me I am right and others are wrong. Because of this, I could be wrong. Yes, I could actually be wrong. I won’t know the truth until it is my time. So please disregard what I first said about Grayson. I am not here to change your mind, it is not my place, and I have to much respect for you.

                  I wish I could say this or that, but I can’t really can I? It doesn’t matter how much my heart may say it is so. I know there have been things I truly believed in only to find I was wrong in the end. What we do have is our Faith. I love that word and all it holds. Our Faith. It is what carries us through, especially in rough bumps along our journey.

                  Please know my intention was not to step on your toes and your Faith. You are a more beautiful person because of your Faith, even I can see that and appreciate and be thankful for it. You are a beautiful spirit inside and out. You’ve been a bright light when mine had been dim. I will always be forever grateful for that.

                  I hope your husband is doing better, please let him know he’s in our prayers and in our hearts.
                  Be well,
                  Ma’iingankwe

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                • Dear Ma’i, thank you for sharing so much of your heart & insights here. I greatly appreciate your revealing of your faith journey.

                  I have a biblicaly-based faith, Christianity, but am Not inclined to affiliate with any particular denomination & have floated through various churches over the years.

                  I look to the Lord & the Bible as the source for Truth, but in no way claim to have exclusive knowledge or understanding of God nor His ways. There are many scriptures that reveal that we are not fully capable of comprehending God, like “now we see through a glass darkly, then we will see face to face. Now we know in part, then we will fully know even as we are fully known.” (not sure of the reference I’ll check BibleGateway.com–a great place to find most/all versions of the Bible online & to look up stuff by verse or words, etc).

                  1 Corinthians 13:12-13 King James Version (KJV)
                  12 For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

                  13 And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity.

                  This passage is from the King James Version, which I used in my childhood especially & love the beauty of. I currently find the NIV, New International Versio,n to be a little easier to understand yet retaining the bulk of the “original” meaning of the passages for it was translated from the original languages of scripture: Hebrew, Greek, & Aramaic.

                  Here’s the same passage in the NIV for comparison:

                  1 Corinthians 13:12-13 New International Version (NIV)
                  12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

                  13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

                  Anyway I think of “religion” as man’s way to create a system to control people by telling them that that “faith” system is the only way to God. God is loving & reaching for all of us, always speaking, always longing, wanting to draw us to Himself.

                  The Bible lays out God’s master plan for mankind but it is told over many books through many voices & it can be challenging to get to the nitty gritty of the Truth–it can be confusing & people have been arguing over so many aspects of it for millennia.

                  I did a pretty lengthy post at one of my blogs dealing with faith here:

                  https://specialconnections.wordpress.com/2018/09/02/abel-true-father-of-faith/

                  I believe that scripture lays out the process whereby God is reconciling man to Himself. In the Fall of Man in the Garden of Eden there is a prophecy within the “curse” of Eve’s seed crushing the head of the serpent & this is believed to reference the Virgin birth of Christ & his defeat of the devil.

                  When Adam & Eve ate of the fruit of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good & Evil they brought death into the world & became aware of their nakedness. God killed an animal to clothe them before they were expelled from paradise & the shedding of blood to Cover sin was revealed.

                  The extremely complex laws of Moses regarding sacrifice were a “type or shadow” of the things to come. Even the very plans of the Temple were patterned after things in heaven.

                  The Jewish Passover, the shed blood of a lamb preventing the Angel of Death from killing the firstborn among the Jews, was symbolic of Jesus’ coming death as “the Lamb of God which taketh away the sin of the world”.

                  At the moment of Jesus’ death on the cross the curtain/veil in the Temple was torn from top to bottom to display how God’s presence, which was said to dwell on the “Mercy Seat” (between the 2 angels on top of the Ark of the Covenant–think Raiders of the Lost Ark for imagery) was no longer confined to the “Holy of Holies”. There is profound Truth & Mystery here…

                  Anyway Jesus claimed He was the Son of God & His death & resurrection paid the all time price, the sacrifice of blood demanded because sin, in God’s economy so that Everyone would have a way back to the Father…

                  Jesus said in John chapter 14:

                  6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 7 If you really know me, you will know[b] my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”

                  The Book of John in the Bible is a beautiful & artistic/poetical description of much of Jesus’ life on earth & if you’ve never read it I would encourage you to do so. You can find it here:

                  https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+1&version=NIV

                  In my opinion many missionaries over the generations have reached out to various cultures with the Gospel but in a manner that stifled the various cultures. The New Testament gives a good reference to “proper” outreach of the Christian/Messianic Jews to the Greeks/heathens around them interested in knowing about Christ. They did not saddle these new believers with the weight of the Jewish law but only gave a few guidelines.

                  God is for all people in all times & He speaks to each of us in our own language. He has, however (I believe) left us His Word in the Bible. If we think we hear from Him what we hear should stand up to scriptural scrutiny…

                  Anyway, I share all that in love. I truly believe that Jesus is the (only) Way to the Father. How one comes to & understands Jesus is an extremely personal & individual process but it is centered in God’s love!

                  God still speaks in that “still small voice” in I Kings 19 verse 12 below…

                  https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20Kings%2019&version=KJV;NIV

                  So…all of that was shared in Love. I love your heart, your precious spirit, your warrior & overcoming nature. You seem to desire truth so I encourage you to seek the Lord in prayer & ask Him to reveal Truth to you! I’m still learning A Lot too!

                  Hopefully you’ll see a couple of scripture images focused on Truth…all of this In LOVE! God Bless YOU, Ma’i & may He keep guiding & directing your path!!!

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              • Joe Blow says:

                Prayers of comfort for you, too, friend. God bless.

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    • Though we don’t know why these things are allowed…. Trust, trust and trust some more. We are the ones who are left in our grief. Hopefully, we can celebrate their mission well accomplished! Yes!

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      • Yes being thankful for having known & loved the departed even though the size of our affection seems to magnify the pain of their loss. Thankfully “we sorrow not as them that have no hope”…for we will see each other again where there is no more death or crying. What an amazing promise that death is swallowed up in Victory!

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  2. From today’s open thread:

    The Devilbat says:
    January 20, 2019 at 12:17 am

    THE BAT IS UNWELL

    The old bat had open heart, quintuple bypass surgery on Thursday, January 10. I am doing very well but I would really appreciate your prayers.

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  3. justfactsplz says:

    I would appreciate your prayers for my family and me. I got a call from my niece today. My sister, my only sibling, is dying. They put her on hospice. Her kidneys are shutting down. She has been in and out of the hospital so much. She is in so much pain. She wants to go and is ready to go. It breaks my heart.

    My sister is in southern Illinois. I had the last seat booked on a flight tomorrow but bad weather changed that. It is seven degrees with ice and snow. They wanted me to get a rental car. I have never driven in snow and ice and not gonna do it now. So my niece in Louisville, Ky. will pick me up at the airport in Evansville, Indiana, and then we will drive to Illinois. I will be returning on Sunday so Gary won’t be alone too long. Wanted him to go and my daughter offered to buy him a ticket too as she did mine but we couldn’t find anyone to stay with the dogs.

    I am grateful I had the epidurals. If this had happened Xmas I wouldn’t have been able to get on a plane and sit a couple of hours and walk off. I will be taking my walker so will be okay I think. .

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  4. pjpatriot says:

    Hi Prayer Warriors,
    I’m asking for continued prayer for my son who is in so much distress. We found him a Christian counselor, however I think he needs a neurologist of someone to assess if he has OCD. Insurance is always an issue but I’d sell my house to see him get well. He’s supposed to go on a retreat this weekend which will be good for him. Pray that he does well and we’re doing the right thing letting him go. He isn’t suicidal or anything like that, just feels like he’s letting God down. Nothing we say has helped. Please, pray for my beautiful boy, who is such a good kid and for my husband and I that we get to the right people involved.

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    • bcsurvivor2 says:

      Dearest pjpatriot,
      I don’t know how old your son is….but my son went through so much distress as a teen and a young man. Bi-polar type distress. Flirted with suicide and self harm. He committed himself into a mental institution at 22 yo. It was a horrible place, even though he really liked talking to the other patients there. The docs put him on lithium..which turned my beautiful son into a zombie. just horrible. I forgot to say that as a pre-teen the docs wanted him to take drugs for ADHD. I refused to do that to such a brilliant albeit difficult kid to steer in the right direction. he was always a straight A student. I decided to just support him and find out how to direct his behavior into constructive areas…cooking, reading, chores, lots of things. I tried to not make excuses for him and just loved the heck outta him.

      At 24 he joined the Navy and became a corpsman for the Marines. He spent time in Afghanistan and was loved by his Marines saving many lives.

      Fast forward to present day. I just spent time with him. He just turned 35 and is about to graduate with his masters degree. Again all A’s in a very intensive program. He has a wonderful girlfriend who is brilliant in every way. Marriage is around the corner.
      I know the angst and worry, but I did for my son and do have faith for your son that things will work out. Love, honesty, and discipline go a long way.
      Prayers for you and your son.
      Eve

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      • bcsurvivor2 says:

        Forgot to add. There were many arguments and challenges over the years about my parenting skills. Well, now i get 2 phone calls a week “to see how Im doing” and to tell me how much he loves me and thanks for putting up with him… SWEET!!!!

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Continued prayers for your son, pj. God bless.

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  5. Please pray for this precious lady who shared this heart-wrenching need on today’s Open Thread, perhaps go to that page to respond directly to her with your comfort & prayers:

    https://theconservativetreehouse.com/2019/01/25/friday-january-25th-open-thread/comment-page-2/#comment-6616834

    Thank you for your many prayers for those of us in need. God Bless you all!

    X’schild says:
    January 25, 2019 at 6:11 pm
    I come to this heading ,”Our Father” heading and not to respond to Mama Tea, but
    To respond to the prayers. This my favorite site. I come this part of the tree house
    Be Cause of the comments. I came to this site when my husband died and again when my brother died. It sooths me and my inner being.
    Late today I come again to read to myself The Lords Prayer.
    My house has been empty for the past two days and I come back at night
    To care for pets return calls and take care of home. What strange post you say.
    Today is the 25th. On the 23 rd you son was hijacked or kidnapped by a man or men
    At 5:00Am in his jams robe and slippers. For two days his whereabouts were unknown.
    Today was the last meeting with law enforcement. His Dodge Ram was found burned
    In a field far from home. It took a longer to find my son. He was found still in his
    Jams robe and slippers crammed in a lean to by an old abandoned house. No graphic
    Description is needed here. Two white guys (yes I said that) meth drug people decided
    To go for a ride that day. They took my son from the porch on his house and murdered
    him. For what? Law said habitual petty crimes and drugs. Not good enough for me and
    mine. Justice none. One chose suicide by cops. One is in a lockdown.
    The remains of our loved one are in the hands of the state. His remains are a crime scene. His beautiful wife and two beautiful children are in his home with her family
    Mourning. His mother has come home to her house to begin to make his
    funeral arrangements .

    His name is Stoney and will forever be
    He was the baby of our family. On the 29th he would have celebrated his 48th
    Birthday
    Pray for us

    X’schild

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    • Donna in Oregon says:

      To X’schild: Praying for you and yours.

      John 16:22 – And ye now therefore have sorrow: but I will see you again, and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man taketh from you.

      Irish Blessing

      May your faith be strong as a mountain wall,
      And subtle as the early morning mists.
      May you believe that God’s power conquers all,
      And his love through trouble and pain persists.
      May your faith soar like a multi-colored bird,
      And shine brighter than the blinding desert sun.
      Because you know your prayers are ever heard
      And Jesus waits when the final day is done.
      And may God bless you,
      The Father who rules the starry skies,
      The Son who rose from the dead,
      And the Spirit who comes in hope.

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      • Amen, Donna…Beautiful!

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      • X's child says:

        From x’s child. Today is Sunday and mass at church was held in honor of son, father and
        brother. His name is Stoney Qualls and will always be. Our family has always been blessed to have him in our lives. He will always be known as the baby boy. Our family is together during this time we are in the hands of Our Lord and Jesus Christ. Without
        our beliefs and family structure we would not be able to move on.
        All pray for us during this time. If we have hate and anger coming and has it never been there before.

        Our family going far back in time has generated generations of good Samaritans. We step back to re-evaluate how we live and not question whether or not we extend a helping hand. May God forgive us for our thoughts of shunning our fellow man.
        Peace be with you and may you all be blessed.

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  6. X's child says:

    Donna, your Irish prayer sooths me because we are Irish. We come from Irish going
    back in time. My father would especially love that. Thank you.

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  7. pjpatriot says:

    As I spend time with my Christian family both here at CTH and in everyday life, I’m reminded that we’ll all be caught up with Jesus to shed no more tears and feel no more pain. I hope we get to recognize each other in Heaven and have a great big hug! You all are awesome.

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  8. Please pray for me this afternoon, I have an appointment with a specialist in Oncology/Hemotology. If I were to say I’m not scared it would be untrue. Primary told me they may admit me from the specialist office, to get testing done since my numbers are horrible,
    If it is in Gods will, I am asking Him for spiritual and physical strength, with the least amount of problems to get through the immediate timeframe. Thank you for your prayers.

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  9. from today’s open thread:

    Tom,R,Worc,MA,USA says:
    January 29, 2019 at 2:02 am
    Any and all prayers appreciated. John Anthony Riordan passed away at 9:30 EST, 1/28/19. WWII Vet, USN. LST (Landing Ship Tank) 815, 43,44,45.

    I love you Dad. (from #6 of your 8)

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  10. carterzest says:

    For mid-old timers like me, this works.. love you guys When Sharon’s(1 of our beloved Mod’s)DH fell ill 🤒,there was an opening.

    I submitted my Grammie’ story to CRH/MBOB…
    the rest is history.

    Please pray for Grandpa Darwin her spouse.
    Hospice 4 months. Fluid in lungs. Not eating.

    It is “his time”.

    92

    We’re all good,just prayers please.

    The good ones are falling. 6 children, same baby father…70 years married.

    Take that oBama

    TY

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    • Sharon says:

      Dear Carterzest – Oh, yes, the good ones are falling. They are each irreplaceable – their lives so valuable, so beloved.

      If I may, make a slight tweak to your sweet comment – it was just after my husband’s death in the spring of 2014 that we made such satisfying and fun use of your Grammie’s story. It was two years later that I was diagnosed and then received successful treatment.

      I would encourage anyone who likes the realities and memories of the old times to check out Carterzest’s Grandma’s writing. Here is a link to the first of the series, and you should be able to find the others from that point, I think! If not just do a search in the box on the front page using the title that is used for this one and it will bring them all up.

      https://theconservativetreehouse.com/2014/05/04/mailboxes-and-old-barns-guest-post-some-assembly-required-by-maxine-lee/

      Carterzest, my friend – may your family notice and receive unexpected blessings and strengths during these impossible days that you did not choose. Here’s a hug for you all (*****) Give one another your presence – that has highest value, always.

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      • Sharon says:

        Well, I’m embarrassed……you stated the memory of our collaboration accurately. There was no need for my “tweak”. Sheesh. (Not my first rodeo for speaking first and thinking later – – my apologies)

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      • carterzest says:

        So Darwin passed early evening 1-30-19.
        From my Mom this Morning:
        “My dad died early last night after telling my brother Xxxxx he felt a lot of energy. Leaned back, closed his eyes. Stopped breathing. Service has been planned for a couple of months. Will know place and time in Roseburg soon. Because of my brother Xxxxx’s position in the church there will be world wide interest so it will be webcast. Will send the link when I have it.

        Xxxx, Xxxx and I will be in Roseburg tomorrow night. All are heartbroken, relieved and lots of other emotions. Mom is exhausted but has so much support from family and church. Thanks for your support
        Love
        Xxxx”

        The craziest thing about Darwin and Maxine is that they were not remotely religious until after the six kids were grown and out of the house. Son Darrel is now the “Pope” of the Apostolic Faith Church. Because of that, the funeral will be webcast worldwide 🌎.

        That was so awesome that you posted some of Grammie Maxine’s story.

        Love to you and your family, Sharon.

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        • Joe Blow says:

          Prayers of comfort to you & your family, Carterzest.

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        • Sharon says:

          Dear Carterzest – thank you so much for this continued sharing from that little clearing in the forest where your family is gathering now.

          Your line referencing “….heartbroken, relieved, and lots of other emotions” says so much. Yes. All of that.

          We love you and care for you in these days as you love and care for one another. Love to you and your family as well –

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  11. We attended my husband’s boss’s memorial service yesterday & were so thankful to learn that Grayson is with the Lord!!! It is still a very difficult adjustment for Michael but the Lord has been faithful to lift his spirits periodically through the grief & darkness.

    My brother Curtis is apparently facing that neck surgery to remove the tumor in his spine in the middle of this month. He & his wife Dawn have been bathed in prayer & are still hopeful that the Lord would heal him apart from surgery. Dawn has written a beautiful post about keeping the focus on the Lord through worship, even (especially) when going through difficult & dark times. I share this post here in case it might bless you too.

    https://worshiphisbeauty.wordpress.com/2019/01/31/my-response-is-already-settled/

    Thank the Lord for the precious Treehouse where we can “share each other’s burdens in love & so fulfill the law of Christ.” God bless you all.

    Hopefully above you will see some scriptural encouragements about light overcoming darkness…

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  12. Anon says:

    Although this isn’t someone I know personally, I wanted to pray for the Pope as he is having a probably very dangerous open air Mass in Dubai tonight at 1:30am Eastern Time. 100,000 people are expected to attend as part of Abu Dhabi’s “Year of Tolerance”.

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  13. Bionic_Granny says:

    an update On Mandy’s new heart. Mandy’s tests have all been excellent! She may get to finally go home next week. Thank you to all the Treepers for their prayers. She is truly one of God’s miracles!

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  14. Donna in Oregon says:

    Please pray for my Dad. Had a massive stroke in ICU. We love him, please ask God to protect him.

    thank you

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  15. Blue Ridge Mts. Va says:

    We need to pray for this male pittie dog to be healed of his horrific injuries. Imagine doing this to an innocent canine. Then pray that the jerk who did this is brought to justice.

    RICHMOND, Va. (WWBT) — A dog that was tied to a pole and intentionally set on fire is being cared for by Richmond Animal Care and Control.

    RACC said the dog, a male pit bull, was tied up in Abner Clay Park off Clay Street on Sunday night, covered with a flammable liquid and set on fire.
    The dog, which has been named Tommie, suffered burns to more than 40 percent of his body.

    Witnesses said a man wearing multiple layers of pants was seen running from the area towards Belvidere Street.
    Christie Chipps Peters of RACC says firefighters from Engine 5, which is nearby the park, quickly rushed over to put out the flames.

    “They literally opened their bay doors and saw him on fire and ran across the street with their fire extinguishers,” she said.

    Tommie is about to embark on a long recovery: he is now on a catheter, and his injuries are obstructing even basic functions.

    “He doesn’t want to eat because the inside of his mouth is burned so severely,” Chipps Peters said.

    In her 13 years with Animal Control, she said this incident stands out among the rest.

    She added, “This one just sort of takes it to a different level of cruelty. There’s just such an evil component to it that’s so senseless.”

    The shelter is hoping to save the dog, but said his survival is day to day. If he lives, RACC officials say the recovery will long and expensive, thousands of dollars. They are asking for the public’s help.
    Anyone with information is asked to call Crime Stoppers at (804) 780-1000.
    https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Different-level-of-cruelty-Dog-tied-to-fence-set-on-fire-505694511.html

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    • Blue Ridge Mts. Va says:

      Update on the little pittie male, now named Tommie. Thanks for praying for him!

      https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Reward-fund-started-for-suspect-who-set-dog-on-fire-in-evil-act-505727601.html

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      • wodiej says:

        They need to find the SOB, tie him to a pole and set him on fire. See how he likes it. That is plain EVIL. I am praying for the little fella’s recovery.

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        • Blue Ridge Mts. Va says:

          I pray that the Lord will have the perp get caught, then brought up on the Virginia felony animal abuse law. Charged with the maximum. Serve time in the penitentiary. Maybe get some prison justice. Praying little Tommy is healed of his horrible injuries. Praying he is adopted by somebody who will love him furever.

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          • Blue Ridge Mts. Va says:

            I wish I had checked the news. This is very sad. Little Tommy has died. So lets pray that his abuser is caught and brought to justice.

            A dog that was set on fire in Richmond on Sunday has died.

            Richmond Animal Care and Control posted on Facebook, writing, “I’m so very sorry to share that Tommie just passed away. He had just finished having his bandages changed and stopped breathing; his body simply gave out. Tommie was pain free and surrounded by people that loved him when he passed.”

            The post went on to say employees were all “devastated, angry sad, and terribly disappointed.” It also thanked the Virginia Veterinary Centers and the VCU Evans-Haynes Burn Center.

            Thanks to the generosity of one of the many people who donated to the shelter for Tommie’s care, the pit bull will be laid to rest at the Pet Memorial Cemetery on Saturday, Feb. 23 at 4 p.m.

            “This event will be open to the public for anyone who wants to say goodbye,” RACC said on a Facebook event page.

            Donations and support for Tommie had poured in all week; he took his first steps since being burned on Thursday.

            However, his burn wounds went from affecting forty percent of his body to affecting his entire body, and staff from the burn center had to make changes to Tommie’s treatment plan.

            Earlier this week, City Councilwoman Kim Gray said she has been working with Richmond Police to put more security at Abner Clay Park where the incident took place. Gray said the park has been a part of her life for years, and that she was taken back knowing that someone could be capable of such cruelty.

            “Anyone who’s this cruel to animals is a pretty depraved individual, and it’s scary to think that they’re walking around among us,” Gray said. [for rest of article, see this URL]

            https://www.whsv.com/content/news/Support-floods-in-for-burned-dog-Tommie-whose-wounds-are-getting-worse-505793181.html

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    • wodiej says:

      Geezus, that is EVIL.

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    • Ddanna says:

      Prayers for Tommie!

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  16. wodiej says:

    Prayers for everyone and every living thing to find food and shelter in this cold weather.

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  17. Here’s an update on my brother Curtis’ situation, following his surgery today–from my Mom:

    “Curtis’ wife, Dawn called to report that surgery is completed (2:45) and that the removal of the tumor was successfully accomplished with no apparent complication. Curtis will be flat on his back for the next 24 hours and be in the hospital for several days before discharge. The biopsy report should be available later today.

    They and we thank each one of you who have prayed along with us during this journey….. and we shall continue to pray that healing will be without infection nor complication and full function and disappearance of prior pain will have been achieved as anticipated.

    All I have in my heart at this moment is gratitude for the grace and peace that God has continued to pour out over the need and resolution thus far. We are, indeed, blessed beyond measure at the faithfulness of so many to carry this burden to the Lord on the behalf our of son and wife! May your own needs and concerns be lifted by others before the throne of grace, as well!

    Love to each and everyone who has traveled with us,
    Elaine and Bill”

    Thank you so much for lifting so many in my family in prayer over the past couple of years that I have been a Treeper. This ministry of prayer is such a tremendous blessing for us all…

    https://tse1.mm.bing.net/th?id=OIP.xJn1CJKjCNv0jB8cM609eAHaEc&pid=Api

    https://tse1.mm.bing.net/th?id=OIP.AqAu0S5rL5IMdoh4-Ubc6gHaHa&pid=Api

    -in Christ’s Love

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    • Here’s a bit more from my mom on Curtis’ situation–Blessings!

      “Yup…we are praising the Lord for the good report…. Don’t have the biopsy report but I guess the surgeon and assistants were amazed at how easily the tumor was removed….with one this size, they are usually adhered to something and much more difficult to remove intact. God is amazing…..and we also are still praying for no unforseen complications….”

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    • maiingankwe says:

      Valerie,
      We are always here for you as you have always been here for us. I will continue praying.
      Be well my friend,
      Ma’iingankwe

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      • Thank you, Ma’i. My parents are flying out to Dallas tomorrow to spend a week with my brother & his wife. My mom, especially, is hugely relieved that things have been going so well with Curtis. She was pretty overwhelmed for a while there with my dad’s septicemia & hospitalization, her debilitating long-term shoulder injury (that thankfully has little pain & she’ll just have to live with), & then on top of that my brother’s (then) pending surgery, etc. As a veteran surgery mom I know first hand how much of a relief is it on the Other side of a successful surgery for your kiddo.

        Blessings to you!

        Hopefully above you’ll see some scriptural prayers…

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  18. Here’s the latest on my brother Curtis’ situation, from my mom:

    “Just spoke briefly with Dawn…..Rough night but he seems on track and may be discharged on Friday. They will start to elevate his bed when the 24 hrs is up flat…..by 10% incriments to see if it causes an instant headache which would indicate a leakage of certrospinal [sic probably cerebral-spinal] fluid…and hopefully be able to get him upright sitting on the edge of the bed..then in a chair and maybe a short walk by tonight.”

    When my son had his brain tumor removed (years ago) it was done through the nose & they had to watch for cerebral-spinal fluid leaking nasally. He wasn’t allowed to use his CPAP for at least 6 months to ensure that his nasal passages weren’t more stressed during the healing process. Well, being on the autism spectrum once he gets out of a habit it is extremely hard to get him back into it. He still is iffy & very inconsistent w/CPAP & also w/ taking his BP’s–something he needs to do so we have at least Some objective data before his appointment with Nephrology next month.

    Thanks for praying for my brother, his wife, my parents, my husband (who is still struggling significantly most days since his boss Grayson’s death), & Josiah. I greatly appreciate the prayers of the saints for all these needs.

    God Bless YOU & supply all that You need through His riches in glory in Christ Jesus!

    –hopefully above you’ll see some Valentine’s themed scriptures…in Christ’s Love…

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  19. justfactsplz says:

    Thank you prayer warriors for praying for my family and me. I finally arrived in Illinois only two hours before my sister died. She was in a coma but I believe she could hear me and knew I was there. Everyone said she was waiting for me..

    The days following were quite hectic. The night of the viewing it snowed and the morning of the funeral it was one degree with a wind chill factor of minus twenty five. This Florida girl nearly froze to death.

    My sister’s five children and their church had a beautiful Celebration of life type of funeral for my sister. It was a beautiful service and I learned wonderful things about my sister that I had not known. A bagpipe player played Amazing Grace.

    The epidurals wore off the second day I was there. There was so much getting into and out of various vehicles and everywhere I went there were stairs. The night I flew back home I was running a fever and spent the next ten days with Influenza A.

    Also please pray for my eyesight along with my leg and back. I have lost a lot of sight and went to the eye doctor and they saw something in my eyes and are sending me tomorrow to a retina specialist.

    Lori is still waiting for the referral to a neurosurgeon but has seen a neurologist. She was back in the hospital this past weekend. They did a CT scan of her neck, chest, and pelvis. They discovered another birth defect called Tracheomalacia. I don’t know what will be done about that. I am so worried about her and wish she weren’t so far away.

    Sorry this was so long but had so much to catch up on since I haven’t been on here for awhile.

    Be blessed!

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    • Joe Blow says:

      I am glad that you got to be there with your sister, justfacts. The service does sound like it was beautiful. Amazing Grace on the bagpipes is one of my favorite sounds in the world.

      Praying that the eye doctor can help you with your vision. And continued prayers for Lori as well. May the Lord bless you & keep you.

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Thank you joe for your continued prayers. I can’t see well right now so please excuse any typos. My new glasses should be in on the 20th. I went to the specialist today to have more testing done. It is macular degeneration. Both my mother and grandmother went blind with it. They have come a long way since then in treatments. Hopefully I won’t go blind for awhile.

        God bless you for your faithfulness to this wonderful prayer thread.

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    • Dear JFP, Thank you for sharing this update about the difficulties & challenges you & your family have been facing…you have been in my heart, mind, & prayers. What a blessing that you got to be with your sister before she passed & could join in the celebration of her homegoing!

      Dear Lord, please be with JFP & lift her, Lori, & Gary to your throne of grace. May You be their sufficiency in all things. Provide your healing, comfort, favor, grace, peace, perseverance, presence, love, & joy to each of them…in increasing measure. Surround them with a tangible sense of your love & mercy as they walk these challenging paths.

      May the Lord continue to bless, keep, encourage, strengthen, & overshadow YOU.

      In Christ’s Love

      https://www.bing.com/th?id=OIP.zkW0BwnUq0dpJZwfMVGA0gHaLc&pid=Api

      Hopefully you will see some encouraging scriptures above…

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Valerie, I was feeling pretty down and defeated when I read your post. Your beautiful prayer on our behalf touched my heart and mind and encouraged me. I really did find the scriptures most helpful. Thank you so much!

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        • Thank you for sharing this, JFP. I feel low so many times & feel like I’m speaking to the wind online &/or in person so am so very thankful & blessed that these touched you.

          So many of those scripture images really minister to me & I’m glad they’ve touched you too! May the Lord continue his blessed work in your heart & life…& in those you love.

          Here’s a brief post I recently did that contains some encouraging scriptures too:

          https://specialconnections.wordpress.com/2019/02/15/never-alone/

          Blessings, Peace, Joy, & Love to YOU, in & through Christ Jesus Our Lord!

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          • maiingankwe says:

            Valerie,
            Please don’t ever think you’re speaking to the wind when you send such beautiful scriptures and pictures. They always touch my heart and please know they usually have me really thinking hard on the words. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in them I forget to thank the one who sent them and got me thinking. I apologize, I am sorry.

            You have such a beautiful and kind heart. Please know you are greatly appreciated here.
            Be well,
            Ma’iingankwe

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            • Ma’i–you’re back!!! I’ve been wondering what’s happening with you & praying for you. Thank you for your encouragement. I’ll be looking at the site, not just the “bell” to see if you’ve shared a report about what’s happening with you & if you haven’t then please let us know how you are doing!

              My husband’s band played at a smaller local bar, seemingly filled with regulars (we’d never been there before for it was 2 hours away) & it got me thinking about you & Ponytail Kim (hope I got the name right) & your tight-knit community. Hope you are well!

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              • maiingankwe says:

                Aw, you gave me a big ole smile when I read his name, and yes, you got it right. It wouldn’t have matttered if you hadn’t, it comes from the heart. Yeah, I still think of him every dang day. 💜
                I hope you had fun too!

                I will be writing when I get a few days of reprieve. It will be all happy news too! For now, I’m terribly nauseas and have a metallic taste in my mouth, which is different than these past few times.

                I just learned from billing that it costs more than $25,000 for each visit when I get my infusions. We paid off our insurance deduction on Jan 19th or 29th already. I don’t know where we are on out of pocket, but it has to be close or done. Imagine some insurance companies only paying 70 or 80%? I cannot imagine what those families are going through. We pay ten percent until out of pocket is met and they pay 100% after that. So we have $2,500 bills. On just one bloody infusion! I remember at the beginning this one small part of the infusion costed $6,000 for the one shot! The shot was longer than 12” too. It was that big red shot. I took a picture of it. It made you pee orange for days.

                Today, my husband was talking with radiation billing and they were being really kind and explaining we can pay what we can and so forth. When my husband said he wanted to pay it all, they gave us an automatic 30% off of the whole bill. Plus, they don’t even tell our insurance companies that either. Woo hoo! Couldn’t believe that, but they assured us after Hubble had went about six different ways just to make sure he understood them correctly.

                We knew we were going to get hit real hard in the beginning of the year, so we started saving at the beginning of last summer. Thankfully, we aren’t getting hit as bad as we thought. Still waiting for the other shoe to drop, but so far so good. Fingers crossed.

                It’s way past midnight and I have to be up at 6:40am tomorrow. I’m ever so sorry I haven’t replied back to a f of the others, but will do my best tomorrow.
                Thank you so much for all of your prayers, they mean the world to me and I am so humbled by all of them.
                Be well and stay smiling,
                Ma’iingankwe

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                • Looking forward to your good news–when you are able to write, No Pressure.

                  Sorry about the financial side of everything on top of all the physical/mental/emotional overload. What a blessing to get that 30% discount & that your husband can go to bat on your behalf on that front.

                  Oh…did you ever get those cake pics out to Ad Rem to post? Purple is my favorite color…

                  May the Lord continue to bless, heal, comfort, strengthen, refresh, & renew You (& your precious family).

                  …hopefully you’ll see some encouraging scripture images on God’s love & faithfulness above–Blessings!

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    • The Defiant One says:

      Justfactsplz, my heart and prayers goes out to you on the loss of your sister!

      I will say a prayer for you her as well as you and Lori!

      God bless you Justfactsplz! Know you aren’t alone or forgotten during heart breaking times!

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Thank you The Defiant One! I am having a bit of a tough time since returning home. I battled the flu and recovered from that but the constant pain with my leg is almost unbearable. That with losing my sister and worried about lori has got me down. I need to rest in the Lord and He will strengthen me. Thank you so much for your prayers.

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        • The Defiant One says:

          Hi Justfactsplz, have you seen a doctor yet about the pain in your leg?

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          • justfactsplz says:

            Yes, and I go again next week. Part of it is nerve pain from a bad back and part of it is because I need a hip replacement in that leg too. I had just recovered from two hip revision surgeries on the other leg when my back when crazy and the discs blew out. Then the other hip wore out too.

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    • maiingankwe says:

      I am so sorry for you loss, and yet relieved you were there with her passing. I too believe she had waited for you before she took her beautiful journey to cross over.

      I feel guilty for not being here for you and the others here who need our Prayers and our fellow Prayer Warriors.

      A very long prayer will be said tonight for you and all others here who have asked.

      I hope this post finds you stronger and on the road to a good and healthy recovery. Please let us know what the doctors in Seattle have said and your eye doctor.
      May you be well,
      Love you,
      Ma’iingankwe

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Do not feel guilty my friend. You had a lot going on yourself. I was absent for awhile from here also.

        I miss my sister a lot. I kept trying to get well enough to go up there before she got so bad but I couldn’t. I take comfort knowing she is walking and not in pain in Heaven.

        I dod get new glasses and I can read some with them. I have macular degeneration. Both my mother and grandmother went blind with it. I also have cataracts and will eventually need to have them removed.

        I can barely walk even with my walker but go to the ortho next week. I have to get a couple of broken teeth pulled by an oral surgeon before I can have my right hip replaced. The back is chronic causing the nerve pain.

        I spend a lot of time enjoying God’s creation and that helps me cope pondering on his beautiful artwork. I have pretty ssunsets with a different picture every night.

        Looking forward to March. I need to talk to you about it.

        How are you doing? Are you through treatment? We have all been praying for you. I haven’t seen an update from you in awhile.

        Take care and keep smiling and being positive.

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  20. Bionic_Granny says:

    97 days and a new heart and Mandy got to go home today! God is good all the time!

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  21. Donna in Oregon says:

    Thanks to everyone that prayed for my Dad. He had a major stroke but can talk. His left side is paralyzed and he has to go to rehab.

    The problem is he keeps trying to escape to go home….pulled out his feeding tube because he can’t swallow yet.

    So until his “behavior” improves– I am told that he must have no restraints etc before he can rehab.

    This has been difficult because of many issues with family visiting and needing attention for their grief while I’m trying to support my Dad’s progress.

    I hope that some prayer can change hearts and become more productive for the issues at hand.

    thanks to all the treepers that support my Dad with prayer.

    luv, donna

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Donna, I am just returning to the prayer thread after a bit of absence. Prayers for your Dad as he goes through the rehabilitation phase.. When Gary was first coming out of the coma they had to use restraints on him beause he kept pulling on the ventilator that was hooked up to his trachea. It is no fun trying to handle them in that state. Prayers for you too.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Prayers that the Lord will guide your dad through his rehab & fully restore him to health. I also pray that His peace will reign over your family. God bless, Donna.

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    • The Defiant One says:

      Hi Donna, sending a prayer for you and your Dad.

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  22. Cetera says:

    Happy Tuesday, Treeper Prayer Warriors!

    I’m so glad to know that you are all here, and so faithfully praying. It is comforting and strengthening beyond words.

    Please keep in your prayers an old co-worker and friend of mine, Chad. He’s from Denver, and was laid off last November and has been out of work since. He’s struggling mightily with depression and suicidal thoughts, and he and his family both need some prayerful support.

    Thanks, and many blessings on all of you, and my prayers for all of you!

    Cetera

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Cetera, I pray that the Lord will surround Chad & his family with His comfort & lead him out of the darkness in which he currently finds himself. I also pray that He will lead him to a new job, one that will be just right for him according to His will. God bless.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Hi, Cetera. I just finished praying for Chad. I came against evil forces giving him thoughts of despair and suicide. I prayed God would lift him out of the darkness he is currently in. I pray Chad would find a new and fulfilling job.

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  23. maiingankwe says:

    MA’IINGANKWE’S HEALTH UPDATE

    I tried posting this about 10 or more minutes ago, and I couldn’t find it, so I’m going to try again. It could’ve gone in the bin, but it used to only do that if I hadn’t copied and pasted from my notes. It would do it if I tried to write and post directly on here.

    This is from February 9th, so it’s old. The following day when I tried to put it here, I kept getting locked out with essentially the same virus as before, but telling me I had won something different. I couldn’t get past the home page at CTH. I tried everything with my phone and just gave up. I can’t remember when it finally let me in without blocking me every three seconds. However, if I tried to do a regular post, it would put it on and then throw me back out. I couldn’t see if I had any replies. It looks like today is a new day, and I so hope I will be able to post this successfully. Please accept my apologies, I am so sorry for being gone for so long. I’ve kept all of you in my prayers and have asked for the ones I couldn’t read, for them to be answered as well. I am really sorry for not being here. I was going to post this last night when I saw that it hadn’t kicked me out again, and I was able to read my replies. By the time I had read some of the articles I was just so tired and had to be up early for a doctors appointment. Ugh. So I’m trying again tonight even though I’m really tired and have chemo in the morning tomorrow. It’s been a very long day, but a great evening. Okay, here it goes, please remember it is old news, but still relevant. Thank you and happy reading for the most part. 😊

    I have five more days of radiation, and I will be all done. They added a few more to their plan, so I will give the total number of days when I find out. It was originally only supposed to be 33 days of radiation. I think it’s now going to be 37 in total, but not a 100% sure.

    The first few weeks went real nice and smooth, my skin was taking it well. I was also putting on a cream I believe is called Colyndra or something close. I think it was a little more than half way through when my skin wasn’t happy, and I got hit with a fatigue 3/4 of the way through like I had never experienced before. My doctor told me I was on the peak of it, and it would slowly get better. The nurse explained that the radiation was killing off all of my good cells and they were having to regenerate. The cancer cells, if I had any, would get damaged after each treatment to the point that they would eventually break all apart and die.

    Now I’ve been tired before, especially through all of this chemo etcetera, but the fatigue from radiation was a whole new game to me. For example, at its peak I would sleep the night with less interruptions, shower and get ready for radiation as close to leaving for my 12:45pm appointment as I possibly could, get picked up at 12:10pm and fall asleep in the car. Do radiation and fall back asleep in the car on the way home. Getting ready and taking a shower wore me the heck out. It was crazy.

    At home, I would do the minimum chores and fall asleep after. Wake up for dinner and maybe read for a short time and take another nap before bed.

    Sleeping in the car only happened for two days, but my driver (whose become a close friend) hates the quiet when there is someone to talk to. No matter how tired I get for whatever reason, I do my best not to fall asleep in the car for the thirty minutes ride home from town or on the way there. I like her too much, and she really, really hates it. Me? I like the quiet calm, I actually enjoy it at times, but she doesn’t whatsoever. Thankfully, she understood and knew I needed it. She wasn’t upset at all just a bit sad even when she encouraged me to do so.

    I still need naps though. It’s hard for me to get them, and it’s hard for me to sleep at night too. I call it being overtired and the pup waking me up to go out, me waking up because of a full bladder, and now waking up because I moved and all of my owies scream in pain. I’ve got a lot of what I call owies all in the area of my mastectomy and a big area all around it. The area is about 8.5” x 10.5”. I know cause one of the bandages I had was an 8×10 and a bit small.

    My owies aren’t all covering that area all at once, thankfully. Some are closed up and healing, but still red and tender, some is brown and peeling, and some are open, leaking sores that are just absolutely horrible, and some you can see sores that haven’t opened up to leak yet. I’m pretty sure they’re blisters, but they have a milky, whitish substance coming out when they open. And to top it all off, I have the most unbelievable sharp pains shooting throughout where I had my mastectomy. Sometimes I just want to drop to the floor and curl up in a ball it hurts so bad. I’ve had sharp pains before and still do, but nothing like this. They come fast, which is the difference and they last for minutes on end. It’s not for a few seconds by any means. It’s unrelenting sometimes. I will also have areas where it is a constant pain that doesn’t let up either. I am so done with all of this, I really am. I’ve had enough and almost to the end of my rope.

    It’s made me grumpy like I’ve never been before. I’ve barked at my family for such little things. I’ve warned them a few times that I’m really on edge and to please give me space because I’m afraid I will lash out them. I have not been my usually happy self, so I’ve kept calls to a minimum if at all.

    This whole past week I’ve slowly gotten better emotionally and physically. My radiation doctor looked at my owies last Monday and told me to come back the following Monday. Now that was my saving grace.

    I didn’t know how I was to go through it every day last week when I was in so much pain as it was. Plus, I knew that I would get more open sores on top of what I already had, and I had a lot. I literally felt as if I was burning inside and I was from the radiation.

    As I sit here right now typing, I hurt in two areas and they’ve been unrelenting the whole time. It’s been going on since I woke up hours ago and hasn’t let up. So I can understand why I’ve not been my usual self and grumpy on top of that. However, this is my family, the only two people I have up here that are my blood. I do not want to hurt them because I’m hurting, it’s so not right. I’m literally walking on eggshells with my own self. I have to be very careful in what I say and have to really be careful with my tone. I’ve caught myself wanting to say something calm and then it comes out angry. I’ve even stopped mid-sentence, apologized, force myself to give a hug, which always makes me feel better, but initially so not want to do and then I kinda hide. As I said, I cannot wait till this is all over. I want my happy, jokester self back and soon. It’s slowly reappearing, but it’s been a struggle and taking time.

    I had chemo this past Thursday and it’s made me sick again. My esophagus is sore from getting sick, so it hurts to talk too. So not a happy camper.

    I should be feeling all better from chemo by next Saturday without any nausea etc. Wednesday is usually my turn around day as long as I take the nausea pills every six hours. I usually stop getting sick by Wednesday if not Tuesday.

    I had to see the NP before chemo, who I don’t much care for and I’m sure it’s mutual. I could go on about how she’d ask if I had any problems and every time I would bring one up she’s move on to the next. I’m much better off talking to a wall. 😊. I do have a funny story in regards to our conversation though.

    Earlier I had asked the nurse when my very last treatment would be. The chemo before I had asked the doc and she had pawned it off to ask one of the nurses. She had the computer on in front of her, but was too lazy to bring up the right screen. Of course I had forgotten to ask a nurse that day, so I had remembered to ask this time around.

    She looked it up and said, February 28th, however, she warned it could not be the plan of the doctors and could very well be wrong. She advised me to asked them when they came in. I so love how they keep me going in circles. 🙃

    It was the NP who had brought it up saying the nurses had asked her before she came in. I actually had two nurses in the room and another one who was in training. The NP wasn’t happy one of them had given me the wrong date. It didn’t matter that the nurse had explained she could be wrong and to double check with her.

    So when she asked me who it was specifically, I told her No. 😁. At first that was all I said. “No.” After the second time I explained that I liked the nurse and wasn’t about to get her in trouble. She was so not happy with me, but I was. I was smiling big time inside. I’m smiling even now.

    Oh, my very last day of chemo is June 6th. It’s not April/May like they had been telling me months ago, and I’ve been saying here. Ugh. What’s worse is it was my Mom’s birthday on that day. I don’t understand completely why that makes me so sad, but it does.

    I did warn the nurse afterwards and she did an eye roll telling me it wasn’t anything new with the NP telling them off. She smiled too when I told her I had answered with a No. I gave her a piece of candy I had taken from reception and walked off to the chemo room. She likes it when I give her candy. 😋

    I swear it’s night and day with the chemo staff and the radiation staff. I absolutely adore all in radiation and really like my doctor a lot. I know without a doubt that if it had been my chemo doctor she never would’ve given me the rest of the week off to heal. I just know it. I also know that all of them in radiation get along and work well together, which makes all the difference in the world.

    So guess what? I’m going to attempt to make them a six level six inch wide cake for my last day of radiation. I’m going to try for the first time ever a white chocolate cake. The outside is going to be a purple ombré of sugar and frosting. The recipe says it’s a white chocolate, whip cream type frosting, which sounds so delicious to me. I’m excited to try a frosting of different shades of purple going up the cake and rolling it in shades of purple sugar too.

    Please cross your fingers for me since I’m new to all of it when it comes to homemade cakes and frosting. I’ve been watching Preppy Kitchen on You Tube, and he makes cake making look easy. Easy enough for me to try at least. My hubby picked up all of the ingredients earlier today for me. As long as I make one for the family as well, it’s all good. Yay! I’m sure it won’t look like the one on video, but that’s okay with me as long as I try my best. I will take a picture of them too. This is so cool and it makes me really happy. Plus, I will have help in the kitchen because of my hands.

    I hope you all have an amazing week and all goes well for everybody,
    Ma’iingankwe

    Abby, my driver and friend, helped me make the two cakes and we took pictures too. I will send them to Ad rem and ask her nicely if she can post them for me. They don’t look like Preppy Kitchen cakes, but they tasted so good! Best cake I’ve ever had too. Yum and yummy!

    We couldn’t find different shades of purple sugar, so we didn’t do that part, but we did get creative with what we had anyways. It was last minute and we were so tired, so it could’ve been better if we had more time to think it out.

    It was an ombré cake and we even did the darker frosting in the inside center of the cake and went to the outer side in lighter shades. It was so cool when you cut a slice and saw the inside. The outside ombré looked better in person than the pictures. The second purple could’ve been a bit darker though.

    The staff couldn’t believe we had made it for them and they couldn’t believe we both had made it. They thought we bought it and wanted to know where. I had also brought a special knife to carve it, plates, forks, a hand towel, which I had wrapped the knife in, and napkins. They didn’t want to carve into it, but they wanted to eat it too. Their tummies won out and they loved it.

    They got together and bought me a beautiful glass picture to hang of one of my favorite flowers up here, the fireweed. I cannot believe that they did that for me, it was such a nice surprise, and it really warmed my heart. They told me how much they enjoyed getting to know me and said I was always smiling and joking even though I was going through some painful stuff. They have a lot of patients who are not happy and don’t smile and they completely understand, however, to them it was nice to have someone who was always willing to joke. They told me they would never forget my smile. How sweet was that? The handmade Alaskan glass is something I will always treasure. I was also told in confidence that it’s not something they do. So yeah, the gift is even more special to me.

    There was only one day when I didn’t smile or joke. I remember it clear as day. I almost cried when I had to hold my arms above my head. I could feel the new skin I had pulling and tearing, my open sores were weeping that milky substance and shooting pains had refused to stop. I fought back those tears because I knew I was on multiple cameras and they could see me clear as day and in color. Otherwise, I would’ve balled like a baby. I saved that until I got home and curled up in bed.

    If any of you know of someone going through radiation, please know it can be incredibly painful. It doesn’t hurt while it is happening, but after I wouldn’t wish on anyone. If they tell you it doesn’t hurt, please know the next day, or next few days, or following week it could really hit them hard. Please be gentle in your words when it does. And if they snap at you for no reason just ignore it. They don’t mean it, they really don’t.
    Thank you,
    Ma’iingankwe

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    • maiingankwe says:

      This one I had written a few weeks ago and when my other one wouldn’t post, I didn’t even bother trying with this one. Heck, I couldn’t even get on this thread at the time. I didn’t want to delete this because I had a lesson I had learned and wanted to share with you. Here it goes: 💕😊

      Hello my fellow Treepers and Prayer Warriors. I hope this post finds you well and/or hopeful of far better days. If you are of the latter, I am right there with you. Our lives can sure feel like a very bumpy and long journey after awhile. It is during these rocky times that we should not only pray and meditate, as well as spend time alone to figure things out, but to reach out to our family and friends and be honest in asking for guidance, as well as their help if we need it.

      Many of our family and friends are there waiting for us to ask for help, we just need to reach out and do so. Sometimes they come right out and offer and other times they drop hints all over the place patiently waiting for us to realize it’s what they want us to do. We can be so block-headed and stubborn at times can’t we? This is not only to their frustrations, but to ours as well.

      My friend, Jade, has come over to cheer me, to help here and there, to seek out my honest opinions, and to just vent about her own bumpy parts of the road. However, there were times we’d go weeks and weeks without seeing each other. Text yes, see each other no.

      What I didn’t know, and this is where my blindness came in, is she would text and say something along the lines she was going to the store, and if I needed anything since I am not able to drive. Or she would ask if I was hungry and wanted some of the food they had extra from dinner. A lot of the times I would say no because I really didn’t need anything. I didn’t realize she was using these offers as Big hints in order for me to allow her to help me. She wanted to help me. She wanted to come over. Unfortunately, there was also a lot of bad timing. For instance, I was either full, didn’t need anything from the store, or sleeping, hence her frustration.

      The Friday before last, I learned how much it would mean to her if I would just accept her offer of help, or gosh darn it, ask for it. She had learned from her sister that radiation was finally getting the better of me and my husband would be working nights all weekend.

      This time, she wouldn’t take no for an answer and headed right over after her grocery run, which by the way I hadn’t needed anything. It was my daughter who told her how much she was craving ice cream and needed popsicles for her sore throat. I had no idea they were conversing back and forth.

      So, to make a very long story short, okay, a bit shorter than my usual long windedness, she has been over every evening to feed us, help take care of the pups, feed the dragon wood and coal, and just hang out and gab.

      The last night she came over I finally got an ear full. She knows I’m hurting, she knows I can’t do things for my family and home, she knew Dokme was sick, and I didn’t call her for help? Especially when I know full well she’d come over in a flash? Oh yeah, I got it, and I got it loud and clear.

      Friends and family cannot help us if they don’t know we need it right there and then. They don’t always know when our spouse is working or when one of our family members are sick. We need to let them know we might not be able to the jobs we’ve taken for granted in doing for so long. Why should my daughter suffer more than she needs to because I can’t drive to the store to get her popsicles? Why should we both suffer when I can’t cook a homemade meal? (I did heat up chicken noodle soup 🍜, but she wouldn’t have wanted it every night.)

      We need to listen more to our friends and family. We need to take the time to think 🤔 if we are unable to do something if they’d be more than willing to do it for us.

      My friend Jade loves helping people, it’s who she is. She enjoys it and benefits from it. It makes her happy.

      So, after a lifetime of doing things myself, and not all from stubbornness, but knowing if I wanted something done I either had to learn how to do it myself or pay someone. Or, just being independent and wanting to learn how to do things, so I didn’t have to depend on others. I took a lot of pride in that. Changing a tire, putting together bookshelves, an end table or other furniture. I enjoyed looking around my home and knowing I put together that piece or made that to make my life easier. Most of this was when I was living the single life when all I had was myself because I lived hundreds or thousands of miles from my family.

      When I was living in the same town, I would ask my Dad to teach me. Those were great times we had and he loved doing it. He loved teaching his daughter to be more independent and not need a man. He got a kick of that, me too. 😊

      Well, if I am to be honest with myself, there are a great number of things I cannot do right now because of my health and what I’m currently going through. I have to kick off that comfortable blanket we call pride and ask those around me. It’s hard for me. I don’t want to disrupt other people’s lives to come make mine easier, at least that is how I saw it. However, if I do start asking and not do it in a way of taking advantage of their kindness then it’s a good thing to do and we may all benefit from it.

      I will give you an example of me not wanting to put someone out, which will make no sense to you, and give you the urge to reach through the computer screen and bop me over the head, or at least try and shake some sense into me.

      When I was really sick this summer and had no energy as well as the excruciating pain in both my hands, I went three days without a meal and my husband and daughter were both home. I didn’t want to put them out and ask. Now how stupid and ridiculous is that of me? My husband was so upset and so was my daughter. I couldn’t afford to lose weight or get weaker and they were both right there for me to ask if they could make me something simple to eat.

      So, I learned real quick if I was hungry and they were there to just ask. I just didn’t learn it with my friends around me. I am learning though. I get it. I really do. Call me a changed person if you will. So that urge you had to bop me or shake me should be gone by now, I hope. 🙃 I’m a new person in that regard at least. I still have a lot more to learn, but let’s just take this one step at a time eh?

      I hope you all have a blessed Sunday, be well,
      Ma’iingankwe

      Sorry it took awhile to fix the bugs on my phone.
      Love you guys!
      Stay smiling,
      Ma’iingankwe

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    • Dear Ma’i, Thank you for sharing all of this from your heart. I’m so sorry for your extended pain & suffering (you made me think of Job in the Bible with your sores) & am so blessed that you continue to share your journey here with us…

      ” I want my happy, jokester self back and soon. It’s slowly reappearing, but it’s been a struggle and taking time.”

      This reminded me so much of my husband since his boss died. He’s usually a pretty light-hearted & playful guy (while also being deep & godly–a fun, complex, contradiction in terms)…it hurts me to see him weighed down & under a cloud. The Lord is faithful but we really need to take things day by day & sometimes even just moment by moment. We don’t have the strength to face the biggies all at once but God gives us sufficient grace to get through whatever current task is at hand–& naps really help around here too!

      I’ll try to hold your June 6 date in my heart & prayers (it’s our anniversary, which may help it stand out in my mind) & hope that by your mom’s birthday your reinvigorated health & well-being will end up being her best birthday present.

      May the Lord continue to be with you & supply you with His healing, strength, peace, rest, & overflowing joy!

      Hopefully you’ll see some scriptures on joy above.. 🙂

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      • maiingankwe says:

        It is so hard to lose a friend even if he’s your boss, it doesn’t matter, the pain of his loss is still there and every day he may see a reminder or think of a memory. My prayers are for your husband and he may soon be back to his old self. I’m sure he misses it too and would like to return, but it takes time to heal, and we all do it differently when it comes to losing someone we care about.

        Please know my heart is with him along this part of his journey.
        Be well,
        Ma’iingankwe

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      • maiingankwe says:

        Valerie,
        Thank you for the scriptures. The last one was my favorite. You’re awesome!

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Oh Ma’ii, I’ve missed you! I’ve been having kind of a rough day, but as soon as I saw MA’IINGANKWE’S HEALTH UPDATE a big smile came over my face because I knew I was in for a treat. That cake sounds like it was amazing!

      Anyway, just know that all of us here have & continue to pray for you every single day. And don’t be too hard on yourself for getting short with your loved ones, or not noticing right away when they were offering help. They love you very much just the same. And so do we.

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    • Ad rem says:

      Hi Ma’… I got your letter with the pictures in our email this morning. I’ll post it just as soon as I resize and import the pics to my image site. Sorry if I haven’t been available to help with fishing you out of the bin or giving advice on posting problems. I haven’t been about much the past couple of weeks due to health problems of my own.

      DARN….All that talk about the cream filling for eclairs and purple ombre frosting with white chocolae has really made me hungry!!!

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  24. amwick says:

    Prayer warriors, I stumbled upon this in twitter. Just a weee baby!

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  25. Bionic_Granny says:

    a note from Mandy’s mom:
    Feeling very blessed!!!
    The Journey has been rocky, it has had us ups and downs, there were days that we felt defeated, there were days We cried, there were days we laughed but through it all our God was always beside us, there were days he had to carry us, and some days he walked beside us. I can not thank God enough for what he has done for us. I thank him daily for our family, church family, work family,friends and just complete strangers that have prayed, that have visit, that have supported us financially and given cards, presents, that have made food for us and the Love of of you all and the love of God has gotten us through We could not first of all do it without our God!!With the help of you all we made it through the other side of Amanda’s story. She has a long and hard Journey ahead of her but we know that we will be blessed and know that our God has her in his hands! You all mean the world to us!!!!
    #mendingmandysheart
    #godissogood

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  26. Found this prayer need on another CTH thread here:

    https://theconservativetreehouse.com/2019/02/21/president-trump-participates-in-reception-celebrating-african-american-history-month/

    Boxerpaws says:
    February 22, 2019 at 3:59 am
    please keep comedian Terrence K. Williams in your prayers. He was supposed to attend the celebration.Unfortunately the day before the event he was in a terrible accident and is currently hospitalized. He was fortunate in that he could have been killed.He has serious neck and spine injuries. He had just tweeted a picture of his invite from Pres Trump a day or two before. He travels with the Deplorables and is well known on Twitter. Heck of a nice guy too.

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  27. Ad rem says:

    The following is from Ma’s email to the TreeHouse….

    The first cake, the six level one (inside) that is supposed to be a purple ombré is the one the Radiation Team received. One of my favorites is leaving March 18th, and I had planned to make her a birthday cake on May 2nd when it would be my 7 week check up and her birthday. She promised to share if I brought her one on her last day, so I’m going to try a different, but fun cake for them. A few of them told me I should make it a business cause they would’ve bought one of mine. They actually thought it looked professional.

    The second cake for our families was kinda like a Boston cream pie, and I did take a picture of it cut. We made what they call a pastry cream. It’s kinda like custard I would think, but way better. It’s what you’d put in a traditional eclair.



    Abby and I made an extra batch after we had taken a lick from the bowl it was that darn good. So we separated it as evenly as we could and she took hers home to eat. I ate mine the next day and it was ever so good. I would say that was the hardest to make because of all of the stirring over the stove and separating the eggs perfectly. It was so worth the second batch though. Yummy! 😋

    We also put a very, very thin layer of frosting on it because we thought we had to do a crumb covering to protect the cake. We also used a bit on each cake layer on the very edge, so the pastry cream wouldn’t run out and down the cake. No one knew we had used frosting to do this, but then our frosting tasted different too. We had melted and put white chocolate in it as well as in the cake batter. I think that is what helped with the taste of the cake. It was the best cake I’ve ever had, and I can’t believe we made it and it turned out so well. So the cakes may not have looked the best, but the taste was the best. You couldn’t taste the white chocolate in the cakes either.

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  28. justfactsplz says:

    Maii, your cakes are absolutely beautiful. I have never made a cake that looked that pretty and I have made a few in my life time. I love chocolate and I am licking my lips just looking at them. You have artistic talent going on there.

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    • maiingankwe says:

      💕 Thank you. 💕
      It’s funny that every time I look at the ombré cake I can’t help but want to straighten those things on top. It was the first time I had ever used a piping bag and it’s harder than it looks. At least to me. The professionals make it all look so darn easy.

      At first, we both tried to make flowers, but all we did was make a gobbly mess. Thankfully, we were smart enough to try it on some parchment paper before we tried it on the cake.

      I have no idea what you would call what I finally did on top of the cake. All I know is it looked cool on the parchment paper. We both picked it out to be the design to go on top of the cake. I guess you could call them swirls; I just made it up. 🙂

      I don’t mind looking at the chocolate one cause that one looks pretty cool. The other one, I just want to cover my eyes. However, I’m actually coming up with design ideas of my own and can’t wait to see if they will work. This stuff really gets me all excited and happy and grinning from ear to ear. I think once I get some of the cakes down I will try using fondant and making a cool cake with that.

      I don’t think I’d ever sell them. I just want to give them away to the people I care about. This is a way to show my thanks and that I appreciate them.

      The ladies and some of the gents have an idea how long it takes to make one of these and to decorate them just makes them that extra special. Trust me, if I could make a cake for each one of you Prayer Warriors I would. In all honesty I’d rather make one big, huge cake, but only because making all of those cakes would overwhelm me a bit. 🙃 One a month would be no problem though. 😋

      Oh my gosh, now I’m thinking about the logistics in freezing and mailing the cakes to Ad rem to pass out. 😆. I gotta go before I get myself on all kinds of trouble! Love you guys!
      Be well,
      Ma’iingankwe

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      • I think posting pictures & stories of your cake creations here are just as good as actually getting your cakes in person. It’s like a cyber hug full of love! Thanks for the Joy!!!

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Well, I have never tried the pastry bag. And just how did you get the layers so perfect and the icing so smooth? There must be a secret. My icing never goes on smooth. Is it a special kind?

        Praying for you on this last stretch. You are almost there, to the end of treatment. Yay!

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  29. mopar2016 says:

    I’d like to request prayer for my Mother.
    A couple of hours ago my Dad died.
    I don’t know how she handles it so well, I’m a mess.
    God bless CTH and the Treepers.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Mopar, I pray that the Lord will give you & your mom His peace that surpasses understanding. May He be with you always.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      I am so sorry for your loss, mopar. Prayers for both you and your mother. May God wrap his loving, comforting arms around you both and may you feel His presence as you go through the days ahead. Mopar, God specializes in messes. He will help you handles it also. I recently lost my sister and God helped me through it all.

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      • mopar2016 says:

        Thank you justfacts, and I thank all treepers. Love the Treehouse.
        Yesterday was crazy and I’ve never felt so helpless in my life.

        I left Chicagoland in 2012 and moved up north to take care of Mom and Dad.
        Dad suffered a stroke, Ma fell and broke her hip, I give her insulin shots daily, so they needed one of their two kids to help. My sibling was supposed to do it but refused at the last minute, so I did.

        I live in a small town now, and the parents live out in the country.
        Each morning I go over there, cook breakfast, give them their meds, etc.
        Yesterday my Dad got up from the table and said that he was going to his room to use his nebulizer. Five minutes later I went in there and he was gone. I tried to bring him back.
        I kept trying everything I knew until the paramedics arrived. Then the coroner.

        My Mother stayed in town with me last night, she loves spending the night here.
        I’m going to take her out for breakfast when she wakes up.
        Hopefully my sibling will show up and help me with the funeral.
        Somehow I have to handle this. I found the Treehouse a few years ago when I thought that my Mother was not going to live, it was the little candle and the prayer request that got my attention.

        My dad drove ready mix in Chicago for thirty years, and he had a weekly prayer service in the county jail for longer than that. John 3:3 was one of his favorite verses.
        He called me every morning, but not today. I’ll never be half the man as him.
        This is the longest post that I’ve ever made, sorry to ramble on this way.

        God bless you and all Treepers, you’re all in my prayers.

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        • Ad rem says:

          It’s wonderful to hear the story of a family that is so loving and connected. I can see that the kindness and wisdom you now display must have been a gift from your father.

          Oh…and so glad you like the candle too. May God bless you all.

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        • Joe Blow says:

          Please don’t be sorry at all, mopar. Tearing up as I read this. We’re here for you. God bless.

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        • justfactsplz says:

          Never apologize for a long post sharing your concerns, memories, or whatever is on your heart. There is a healing in sharing with other believers. Ad rem is right about you having a gift from your father. You won’t be exactly like him but you will be a wonderful man in your own way with the gifts that your Heavenly Father gives to you that makes you unique.

          My mother lived with me for years before she had to go to the nursing home. I lost her about three years ago. When she died my only sibling, my sister, never even came from Illinois to her funeral nor did any of her five children. I had to plan the whole funeral by myself. I just floated through those days with God holding me up. He helped me to give her a nice funeral. I miss her and my sister. Also my dad who died 22 years ago. My sister and my dad died on the same day at the same age,

          At times I hated having no help from my sister with my mom. However I did realize that my sister didn’t have the temperament or patience to do it. God knows what He is doing. Depend on Him. Lean into Him. He will be your Helper, your Friend, and your Comforter.

          CTH is wonderful. This prayer thread had helped me through a lot over the seven years I have been here. I too one day noticed the little candle flickering and clicked on it.

          Love and prayers sent for your.

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        • Thank you for sharing from your heart in the midst of mingled pain & rejoicing that your father is now with the Lord. May He continue to give you the grace & strength to face the tasks before you & to continue to care for the needs of your family even as you grieve.

          https://tse3.mm.bing.net/th?id=OIP.iex7Tgv-KtvHvOYmM0CAYgHaHa&pid=Api

          Hopefully you’ll see some images of scripture on God’s grace through grief. In Christ

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        • angellestaria6674 says:

          What a great testimony of family love, closeness and devotion.

          That is a gift, something becoming more and more rare as the family structure is being torn a thousand ways back and forth and all around.

          I cherish the families I see living like yours has and being devoted to the Lord.

          Kudos and God’s greatest blessing, strength and love for all of you!

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    • angellestaria6674 says:

      mopar2016…

      On it now!

      May the Holy Spirit comfort you and your Mom and be close in His Presence to your surviving family.

      Hold onto God and link your heart to all the love and prayer offered and sent your way from this special “house” we convene in together here.

      Shalom and blessing, especially today for you and yours!

      PS: Good Mothers are exceedingly strong!

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  30. Ddanna says:

    May God bless your mother and you with strength, guidance and comfort during this difficult time. Hugs & Prayers!🙏

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  31. justfactsplz says:

    Update on all of my pain. I broke a tooth back when I was recovering from my second hip revision surgery. I have had nagging toothaches since until a few days ago. The pain from that tooth became horrible I and I knew I had to get it pulled before my next surgery so no infection would go to the new joint.

    This morning I went to an emergency dentist and had it pulled. I never have high blood pressure but I did this morning. The doctor was wonderful and worked around everything and finally got the tooth out in pieces, crooked root and all. So now I have a fat jaw but the toothache is gone thank God.

    Yesterday I went to Orlando to my leg surgeon. The bursitis was back in both hips. He gave me a shot in the left one but wouldn’t the right one because it might cause infection when I have surgery on it. He explained the joint in the leg that had been my good leg was totally shot and I needed a hip replacement in it too. That is why I have had so much pain in the leg and trouble walking. He scheduled my surgery for March 18th to give me time to get cardiac clearance and clearance from my hematologist. Hopefully the surgery will give me some relief and I will be able to walk again. The back doctor thinks it may help my back too when I am not walking all funny.

    I love this doctor. He is so nice and fixed my other leg even though I had to have the revision done twice. He is a trauma surgeon and I trust him. He actually looks you in the eye and talks to you. When he gave me the shot blood started running down my leg when I stood up and saturated my pants. He grabbed a bottle of peroxide and gauze after he stopped the bleeding with pressure and started cleaning the blood off my pants and then handed me the peroxide as I walked out the door. Now that is a good doctor for nowadays.

    Lori is still waiting for her doctor to get her clearance for the neurosurgeon. I wanted to go to Seattle to be with her but can’t travel like this. Going to my sister’s funeral was more than I could physically handle. Once I recover I want to see her.

    So please pray for Lori and me. Gary could use prayers too as he is getting ready to be nurse, cook, and housekeeper again. He did so well with my other two surgeries. At least we don’t have G. underfoot making us a nervous wreck anymore.

    This is so long. I wanted to share how God helps me cope but I will save it for tomorrow. Blessings and love to all of the Treeper Prayer Warriors. I love you guys.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      I’m glad you were able to have that tooth pulled, justfacts. Tooth pain is something awful. Your doctor sounds terrific too.

      Praying for successful surgery for you & that the Lord will see you through until the 18th. Also prayers for Lori that her procedure is a success, & for Gary as well. God bless!

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    • Ad rem says:

      Nah….not too long at all. Prayers are on their way. It was good to have a comprehensive update on all things JFP too! It’s wonderful to have the peace of mind that having a good doctor brings. Now…the only thing you have to worry about is Gary doing too much work. Oh….and how all those G stories came flooding back at the mere mention of her name.

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    • Dear Lord, Please continue to strengthen & sustain JFP, Lori, Gary, & even G. Provide for Each of them, according to Your riches in glory, in Christ Jesus. May You bring healing, comfort, encouragement, peace, joy, grace, mercy, strength, hope, & love into each of their lives–ministering to each of them deeply & intimately through Your Holy Spirit. May they each sense Your Presence as You pour the Oil & Wine of Your Spirit over their lives & care for their needs in deepest Love & Mercy. In Jesus’ Precious & Mighty Name, Amen

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      • justfactsplz says:

        Amen. Valerie, I do love the pictures and scriptures you post. The always cheer me up.

        Just when I think I can’t handle one more thing the mortgage company on our new home says their is an escrow shortage and they are going up on our house payment $450. a month. No way can we do that. I know God gave us this home and I believe He will help us. This is one of those times in my life that there is only one set of foot prints in the sand. For now the Lord is carrying me.

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        • Oh JFP, with all that you face you still find time to pray for & encourage others–you are a true treasure in the Kingdom. When you eventually come into your heavenly reward there will Still be one set of footprints for your Crown will be too heavy for you to bear solo! God be with you in this latest trial & guide you in all arenas with his Wisdom, Grace, Peace, Strength, Provision, & even Joy (in the midst of sorrows).

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        • angellestaria6674 says:

          Just:

          What’s really great is that you recognized that it is the Lord’s set of footprints. That is spiritual maturity. There are people who go all through life and never come to that recognition and awareness. When ywe can actually recognize it and be aware of it, then we are in the position to give God the glory and praise Him for carrying us!

          My heart will go up for you and yours!

          Shalom and God-speed!

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          • justfactsplz says:

            Thank you for praying for us. This too shall pass. God will help me go through under, over or around my mountain before me.

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            • angellestaria6674 says:

              You are welcome.

              And yes, our God and Lord is pretty successful in His dealings with mountains….I’d say about 100%.

              We don’t always know ahead of time His chosen option and road planned ahead for us…but we know He says, simply believe in My love and faithfulness…and follow Me. He will be with us and not forsake us. Christ promised us that.

              Bless you and may the Lord’s life-giving Light shine upon you and yours. Perfect love casts out all fear.

              Shalom!

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      • angellestaria6674 says:

        Yeah and Amen!

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  32. Joe Blow says:

    My dear Treeper friends, I’d like to ask for prayer for our family friend who is sick with a very serious illness (I am generalizing to respect her privacy). She has been through the gauntlet in terms of treatments, both standard & experimental. For the last month or so it seemed that finally something had worked & she was declared to be free of the disease. Today, however, after seeing her doctors she was told it had returned & spread even further throughout her body.

    This has taken a horrible toll on her not only physically but emotionally. She is at the point where she simply doesn’t feel she can take any more & is ready to give up. Her husband, who is considerably older than she & has his own health problems, is also finding it hard to cope. Please pray for strength for them. Thank you all & God bless.

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  33. Just another treeper says:

    Please send my friend David comfort and peace. His son, Dan, committed suicide a little over a week ago. It happened out of the blue and he is taking the loss very hard. If you could pray for him to get some comfort and peace it would be appreciated. Thanks Treepers.

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  34. ladypenquin says:

    Prayer request for “PatrickHenryCensored” over at the Open Daily Thread. He has spinal cancer and given about 3-5 months.

    patrickhenrycensored says:
    March 2, 2019 at 6:06 pm
    Not in the cards for me.
    Cancer, 3-5 before it wins.
    Hope he sees it, and uses it though.

    patrickhenrycensored says:
    March 2, 2019 at 6:23 pm
    Thnx, Concerned Virginian
    Spinal.
    Inoperable.
    Will go into it on the Open Thread at hospice time.
    I promise not to let it interfere with my sense of humor.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      I was so sad, but then I read his replies in the Open Thread. Prayers for PHC.

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    • WSB says:

      Very sad to hear but patrickhenrycensored has the utmost sense of humor to carry him. May God bless him.

      Prayers for his family and him tonight and always.

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    • Ad rem says:

      Dear Lord….thank you so much for posting this on the Prayer thread Lady P. Such crushing news….

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      • ladypenquin says:

        It’s a sorrowful journey PHC is facing, I knew the prayer warriors here would be a comfort for him. He is such a solid patriot, and his nom de plume has always seemed to fit him.

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    • JoD says:

      “Liberty, the greatest of all earthly blessings. Give us that precious jewel and you may take everything else.”….Patrick Henry
      Prayers for a very dear friend.

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      • patrickhenrycensored says:

        Now THAT, is some jewelry!
        love, phc

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        • ladypenquin says:

          Lifting you up in prayer every day, PHC. ❤

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        • angellestaria6674 says:

          Patrick, it didn’t take me long when I began to post here on CTH to come to appreciate you as a wonderful commenter and treehouse member.

          My eyes welled up in tears as I read the above comment about your state of health. I am visibly moved for you right now as I type these words though I’ve never met you. When one goes through terrible threatening health issues, it causes one to more greatly and tenderly appreciate the pain and suffering of others with health issues that no healthy person can.

          To be honest, I don’t know what God’s perfect will and intent for you is. But this I do know; He will be FAITHFUL & TRUE with, for, by and to you all the way to whatever path He chooses for you. I will pray and ask the Lord to comfort you, to make His great, loving-kind Presence felt and known to you every hour of every day and night. And I will also pray for your family. When one member of a family is sick, it is a family affair. And the family members greatly need God’s strengthening grace also.

          May our Lord’s comforting Holy Spirit give you great peace and a confidence of trust to know that your Lord is right there with you.

          You have me, many Treepers, and the CTH staff right there close in heart and spirit with you. Geographical distance makes no difference in the sharing of love and prayer.

          Shalom…and love you, brother, always and forever.

          Angelle

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          • patrickhenrycensored says:

            That rocked me, Angelle
            Bless you

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            • angellestaria6674 says:

              You are so welcome.

              In heart, spirit, trust and faith in our God and Lord Jesus Christ, I’m with you all the way.

              Afterall, you are my brother in His Body. When one member hurts and suffers, the Body knows it and relates to our Head, Jesus, in behalf of others.

              Bless you Patrick!

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        • A slight correction from your comment quoted above “Cancer, 3-5 before it wins.”

          If you are in Christ death will Not have the victory–You Will–You Win!!! Be inspired, be encouraged, be healed, be reconciled, be prepared, be filled, be released, be comforted, be buoyed, be refreshed, be sustained, be at peace & rest & hope in Him…

          May God’s Word which is Living & Powerful be at work within you to strengthen & sustain you in the coming season…

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  35. patrickhenrycensored says:

    This one is for phoenixRising who is battling dementia
    Stay Stubborn in Carolina, gal.
    Love and prayers from Texas
    phc

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  36. Lumina says:

    It’s March, the season of shamrocks, crocuses & time for another daughter to have an appendectomy…
    Please keep her in your prayers…should be quick & simple….My oldest daughter had one last March…she told her lil sis to stop copying her….
    You all have been in my prayers…even if I haven’t posted…

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Oh my. Prayers that everything went well & daughter has a speedy recovery. God bless, Lumina.

      Liked by 5 people

    • justfactsplz says:

      Prayers for your daughter, Lumina, that her surgery is successful and she has a quick recovery. It’s sometimes strange about dates. My sister died the same month and day and at the same age as my father did.

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    • Lumina says:

      My daughter is bright & perkier this morning after being grouch yesterday.
      I’ve got to remember to not hover…Thanks for your prayers, she’s on the mend…

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  37. Weeper says:

    I’m not sure where to put this, so I’m putting it here…..because I’m asking for prayers. I was diagnosed with bladder cancer a year ago. The tumor was blocking my left kidney, so in order to treat me (Chemo), they had to insert a stent to drain it. That stent remains even though that kidney is only working 15/20%.

    Chemo didn’t work, immunotherapy didn’t work, radiation didn’t work. I now have lesions in my bones, and I found out today that my right kidney is being effected, so I will need a second stent to drain that one. They are very uncomfortable, but I must have good kidney function to receive more Chemo.

    My quality of life is deteriorating. I’m very limited on physical activity, so I enjoy reading and following along here. I’ve lurked for three years, and enjoy the posts and the comments more than I can express. I’m saddened by the news that others are sick, and I’m praying for them. I won’t post much because I’m afraid of saying the wrong thing, or being misunderstood.

    Please add me to your prayer lists 🙏😢
    God Bless, W

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    • patrickhenrycensored says:

      Top of my list, Weeper!

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      • patrickhenrycensored says:

        “I won’t post much because I’m afraid of saying the wrong thing, or being misunderstood.”
        There are no wrong things to be said when they’re right.
        Regardless whether or not, some may be misunderstood.

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        • patrickhenrycensored says:

          Gazing past the planets
          Looking for total view
          I’ve been laying here for hours
          You gotta make the journey out and in

          Wonders of a lifetime
          Right there before your eyes
          Searching with this life of ours
          You gotta make the journey out and in
          Out and in, out and in

          Will you think it’s a joke
          That’s all right
          Do what you want to do
          I’ve said my peace
          And I’ll leave it all up to you

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    • Lumina says:

      Welcome to our warm cozy nest where comforting breezes of prayers lift our requests and thanksgivings up to God. Surround yourself with the blanket of strength and support…

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    • Menotrite says:

      So on this Ash Wednesday, I sat in church. A church I had never been to. As a Catholic you always think about what to “give up” for Lent. This Priest said it a bit differently and asked everyone to just do something different to make yourself better prepared for Easter. Pray more, give more to others, be better in some aspect of your life, etc. And as I sat there my Mother,79 years old, was going through her first immunotherapy session for lung cancer. Her prognosis is not good. But she is willing to fight and we will fight with her in until she cannot fight any longer. So for this season of Lent, I will pray. For my Mother. For all of you here. For all who are in need. I will pray every day. And I will also pray that God Help me become what he wants me to be. That I will bend to his will. Please keep my Mom in your prayers. God Bless you all.

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      • Weeper says:

        Thank you Menotrite. I will pray for your mother. I lost mine suddenly (congestive heart failure) 24 years ago next week. She was 58, a year younger than I am now. I still miss her terribly, but in a way I’m glad she isn’t here, in her. 80s, to watch me through this. My daughter, a single mom to the joy of my life…my 12 year old grandson, is having a tough time. I’m her “rock” and she wants me around forever…but..we’re not going to “doctor shop” in hopes,of finding one that gives us a different answer. It is what it is.

        I plan to read here every day so that I can interact with others who also need comfort. Please let us know how your mother is doing.

        God bless and keep you and your family
        W

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      • Joe Blow says:

        Menotrite, I pray that the Lord will help your mom through this battle & comfort you both. I also pray that you might become what He wants you to be. God bless.

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Weeper prayers for you that God will wrap his comforting healing arms around you. I feel for you. My father had bladder cancer and survived it only to be taken by alzheimers. I lost a kidney to cancer.

      I have not been able to be very active the last couple of years. This refuge is a God send.

      Please don’t hesitate to comment any time you are moved to. There is an old hymn Just AS I AM. We can come
      Jesus just as we are. Here on this prayer thread we welcome others just as they are , sick, sad, etc. We are happy to pray for you and listen to you. I love reading everyone’s posts myself although I hate they have heartbreaking news sometimes.

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      • Weeper says:

        you have no idea how special your words are to me. I need a place to express myself, and the other threads just aren’t appropriate for some of what I need to say. there is always hope that something they try is going to work, but with each passing day, as I get worse (discomfort), reality sinks in. I love to write, and I keep a journal, but speaking to others through the written word has always been a passion of mine.

        I look forward to visiting with you through posts as I continue this battle of mine.

        Thanks again,
        W

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        • justfactsplz says:

          This special prayer thread is made just for what you are needing. I love to write and read also. So many on here have been on their own journey with chronic pain, illness, cancer. It helps to share and lift each other up. Anytime you feel like writing we are here ready to read and pray for you.

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          • Weeper says:

            means a lot. thank you. tomorrow morning I’ll have the procedure to insert the second stent into my right kidney, so I’m spending my evening anticipating that. hard to relax.
            you are so right. this thread is what I need. I’ve tried interacting on the other threads, but my heart just isn’t in it. I think I’ll read over there, and do my writing in here. slower pace and not as crowded. again, thanks for taking the time to engage with me.

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    • Joe Blow says:

      I’m so glad you came here, Weeper. Please don’t ever hesitate to share whatever may be in your heart. I pray that the Lord might shepherd you through this & put His peace in your heart, as well as your daughter & grandson’s. We are here for you, too. God bless.

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      • Weeper says:

        my thanks to Sundance, the admins, and all the posters, including you, for having me. this truly is a beautiful, loving community of people. sometimes you wouldn’t know it on the political threads….but that’s to be expected. the open thread is fun, and it’s quiet and peaceful here. I’m blessed to have found it.

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    • Weeper,
      Praying for relief for you, healing and that these stents become less uncomfortable.

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    • WSB says:

      Prayers for you, Weeper. Stay as strong as you can. Every day is a blessing, in my mind.

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      • angellestaria6674 says:

        Hey W…

        It just seems that the Holy Spirit just thrust this thing in me that I couldn’t resist, to stop what I was doing and get on here for a few minutes. If it weren’t for the Lord’s thrust, I would have never stopped the business of the night, but hey, it’s God! He knows how to move upon us to get us to do what He wants right then and there, even if it’s just for a minute.

        Well, my minute on here turned into a deep, powerful thrust of the love, care and mercy of God for our Treepers who are sick and in pain and are asking for prayer. I am like moved, just MOVED! for these people. My eyes have been kind of welled up for about an hour now. I just can’t help it. Been pacing up and down in my living room praying for people, asking, no actually prevailing, a little begging for the Lord to move in their behalf. I saying, Lord, You gotta do something for these people.

        I know not everybody gets a miracle. But I also know the power of the Holy Spirit, Who the Bible calls the Comforter, to do just that, comfort, give peace of heart, soul, spirit and mind to those in need, to help them not be overcome by great dread and fear of uncertainty, something all of us who have dealt with serious health concerns and other life concerns and threats, quite clearly and painfully understand. That is part of my prayer for our fellow-travelers and Treepers here, for God to strengthen their mind, their thought, their resolve, so that they can trust in Him to work out His perfect will in their lives no matter the outcome.

        So I would say to you and other Treepers who are praying for the sick here, let us be of one heart, spirit, mind and purpose together in our prayers here on this thread. Jesus said where 2 or more are gathered, there He is in the midst of them. Geographical distance makes no difference in our spiritual agreement and closeness of heart here at the CTH.

        So there will be at least 2 or 3, most likely more of us, that can agree in prayer for these in need. And whatever the outcome, I pray that God will honor our prayer for their comfort, peace of heart and mind of trust in His perfect will to be done in their lives here on earth as it is in Heaven…the Our Father Prayer.

        I think this thread is just absolutely awesome.

        Have a great weekend, and btw, say a little prayer for us. We’re going to be under the weather/possible tornado gun about 5-9am later this morning. Been there and done that, don’t want another occasion.

        Shalom

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    • angellestaria6674 says:

      Weeper, you certainly have me and my heart in pray before God in your behalf.

      We hate pain. We hate sickness and disease. And perhaps even more, at times, we hate the fear that pain and sickness and uncertainty causes.

      But, we love God!

      Bottom line. We trust the Lord no matter what we can or cannot see a mile or so down the road. But one we thing we do know…is that God is always waiting to welcome us to His glorious Heart of Jesus Christ and His great peace of Heaven. I rest in that.

      I will pray for the Lord’s comforting peace to abide close to you and deep in your heart as you trust and rely on Him and lean upon His love, wisdom and perfect will for your life and for your family.

      Shalom always and forever,
      Angelle

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    • ladypenquin says:

      Weeper, thank you for sharing. You’re lifted up in prayer, and may you find relief and comfort among your fellow Treepers.

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  38. Weeper says:

    TY, as you are on mine. I don’t have a lot of support. Having friends, no matter where from, helps.

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    • ladypenquin says:

      For some reason I was worried that you might not have a lot of family or friends physically near you… but your ‘net family cares! ❤

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      • Weeper says:

        hi ladypenquin –
        it’s amazing sometimes what we pick up from people. some that are close (physically) don’t care, and some that are far away do. it’s hard to maintain a social life when you can’t get out and about. this “blog” has kept me company many a day. it’s nice to think of it as a “net family”. thanks for having me.

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  39. Ad rem says:

    The following is a prayer request we just received in our email….

    The following is from her parents. The note at the end is mine:

    After nine days at home with slow but steady improvement, Audrey started throwing up last night, and, in spite of being on steroids, lost her appetite completely. We were instructed to bring her into the oncology clinic to have some tests run. The tests showed her kidneys were failing her sending her potassium to dangerously high levels. She was admitted back into the Pediatric Intensive Care floor at Randall where it looks like she will be for the next few days at least.

    An ultrasound of her kidneys indicates that there are lesions in her kidneys obstructing their functions. At the time I’m writing this, they are guessing the lesions are an infection but have not determined anything for certain. For tonight, they have been working with medications to bring down her potassium levels and already have her down significantly from where we were hours ago. Tomorrow the focus is on what is causing renal failure and what is needed to help them recover. While this is not life-threatening, it is a large, unexpected step in this whole process.

    Chemotherapy continues in the midst of all this. Audrey will end the first phase of chemotherapy on Friday. Her bone marrow will be tested for leukemia still left in it, and by Tuesday we should know into which risk category she falls. This will determine how intense the rest of chemotherapy will be for her. We are praying she is an average risk which would be our best option. Phase two of chemotherapy starts next week.

    Please keep praying for us. Sometimes it’s hard to keep asking people to pray for us when we know you have been praying for us so long already. We know we aren’t the only ones going through a difficult time. That being said, we are continually aware of peace, endurance, encouragement and favor that we know are being prayed for us. Thank you for continuing to bring us before Him. As we face each day, we are so glad we aren’t navigating this trial without the love and faithfulness of God.

    If you think of us, pray for a quick resolution to the kidney failure. Pray that her kidneys would begin functioning again with little more needed intervention.

    On the cancer side of things, pray that her bone marrow would come back from testing with less than 0.01% leukemia in it.

    Pray for us as a family that we would continue to know God’s peace and new mercies in spite of the emotions we may feel in a moment.

    Pete and Meredith
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    The Lord’s loving kindnesses indeed never cease,
    For His compassions never fail.
    They are new every morning;
    Great is Your faithfulness.

    Would you please pray for this precious little child a and her parents? ——– Rosalee.

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    • Praying in the Spirit over these & other needs as I read along here at the precious Prayer Thread. Thank you for so gently shepherding this flock, Ad Rem. You are doing a wonderful & Godly thing & blessing Many Lives.

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      • angellestaria6674 says:

        Valerie:

        It’s actually a blessed ministry that Ad Rem is doing here.

        One more precious part of the Body of Jesus Christ reaching out to other members whose pain and suffering we sense and know in spirit. There is no geographical element of distance that makes this ministry here any less than one out in physical real time.

        God is God.
        Jesus Christ is the Healer.
        Anywhere, anytime and in any circumstances…….

        …yes, even online. Our God and Lord knows no boundaries and there is no place foreign to His Holy Spirit.

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    • Weeper says:

      these kidneys…..sigh!!! and a child 😢🙏. thank you for sharing AdRem. I am praying.

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  40. Dear Treeper Prayer Warriors,
    Please pray for my son, Brandon (Josiah’s twin), & a small team of mostly college students from Detroit, MI & Columbus, OH that are going on a missions trip to Guatemala for a week. They leave in the wee hours this Saturday & return late next Saturday. Brandon has never been on a missions trip before so this will be a new adventure. They plan to be helping to build a house, evangelize, worship, pray, & minister at a local college campus.

    Please pray for their safe travels & health, for God’s provision for their needs, for being instant in & out of season with the Gospel, that the Lord would prepare the hearts & minds of those with whom they interface for His Gospel message, for salvation of many, for healings, for the love of God to be shown abroad (no pun intended!) 🙂 , for protection from machinations of the evil one, for God to be glorified in all they say & do, for God’s Will to be done in & through each one of them.

    Thanks for your many prayers on behalf of my family. You bless me mightily in this ministry!

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  41. Ad rem says:

    I just ran into this on today’s Open thread. Please say a prayer for “4sure”…..

    4sure says:
    March 8, 2019 at 12:51 am (Edit)

    Three weeks ago, I was diagnosed with inoperable primary liver cancer. I now find that all of the political shenanigans and swamp creatures are no longer of any interest. The treatment will be to try and shrink the cancer or kill it by injecting Y90 radiation glass beads(Therasphere) directly into the cancer mass. Embolization.

    Please pray for me and that the treatment will be successful.

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    • 4sure says:

      Thank you Ad Rem, and thanks to every treeper who is lifting me in prayer. This diagnosis was totally unexpected. The cancer was a result of my hemochromatosis of a lifetime. I had kept my ferratin levels within normal after years of taking blood from my body(the only treatment available, much like the old days of using leeches).

      When the doctor told me and my wife of 51 years, whom I adore, the bad news, it felt like a ton of bricks had fallen on me. The wife and I are hoping to get into an independent living community ASAP , no matter how the treatment turns out. It is not going to be easy to sell our house and 14 acres in the country. I’m being positive about the future, but I have always been a plan B type guy.

      I will pray daily for all Treepers and know that no matter what, God is in control, and God Loves each of us, so no matter what happens to us, it is how God has planned it, and he has never given up on redeeming his children because he LOVES us. And he answers prayers and uses others to be the answer to someone else’s prayers. He also uses others to be the miracle we pray for, so I know that there will be someone who will be the answer to my prayers and someone who will be the miracle I’m looking for. It may be the Doctors. It may be the Drug Mfg. who make the treatment possible, or it just may be God Himself.

      God has truly blessed me all of my 76 years. I have no reason to believe he will not continue to bless me. Of course, the greatest blessing of all is His Grace and Mercy.

      Thank you Jesus for your blessings on me. And Lord, bless all those at the CTH, and especially those facing serious health issues.

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      • justfactsplz says:

        4sure, I pray that your targeted treatment for your liver cancer will be successful. May God be with you and help you with His plan for your living place. May His Love surround you. May His arms comfort you. May His grace be sufficient for you. God bless you!

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      • Joe Blow says:

        4sure, I pray that the Lord will help you through this in every way, providing peace, comfort, love, & encouragement, & that the treatment may be successful for you. May He bless you & your wife continually.

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  42. angellestaria6674 says:

    Ad rem:

    Very kind of you to do this for 4sure!

    Having fought several life-threatening episodes over the years, nearly to the death, and remembering the awesome power of friends’ prayers that brought about miraculous, instant recovery, (once even pulling me out of an ongoing sudden stroke) it is so good to have this feature for Treepers to take refuge in. In a spiritual way, CTH can also be a “Last Refuge”, not just politically.

    Again, thank you and the whole CTH staff for the care and concern for and about all the different limbs and branches of “our very special house.”

    Shalom and may God grant great grace and help our member treeper, 4sure, and also richly bless you, Sundance and Menagerie.

    AS

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    • Ad rem says:

      Your kind words are really appreciated!

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      • angellestaria6674 says:

        Ad, I am absolutely overwhelmed reading in the prayer request section of CTH right now.

        And just reading about PHC’s condition. Oh gosh.

        I am somewhat of a ole hardened, embattled soldier to a point, but the Lord has preserved a very deep and precious part of His love for people in my heart, especially for hurting people and children.

        I hate to see people suffer, be in pain and fight the fear and dread of uncertainty. So I get very moved, even to tears, even for people I’ve never personally met, like Treepers.

        You know, one could actually have a small set-aside ministry just posting hope and love and prayers for Treepers’ prayer requests. I don’t get to get on regularly these days, but when I do, I’m going to visit this thread more often and give what I can give out of the Lord’s heart to encourage others. A cup of “cold water” if that’s all.

        BigMamaTea said something to me about 2 weeks ago. Kind of caught me by surprise. I had responded to that video that Rynn69 posts early am every Monday. My comment was an emotional response. She said, hey, do I detect a little sensitive soft spot under that hard shell? She was right.

        Just know, I’ll be here for Treepers as much as possible. This is a family I cannot and will not ever forget.

        Love every one of you!

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        • Joe Blow says:

          God bless you, Angelle.

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          • angellestaria6674 says:

            Thank you, Joe, and you too brother.

            I’m shaking my head, with 5-6 hours of intense work ahead of me on a killer schedule.

            Stopped in the CTH for a minute, then got kinda got stuck here, greatly moved and caring for these people who are in pain and suffering, people who are depending on God to help them.

            This totally was not expected in the schedule of events tonight. But I have long known, sometimes the Lord gets right down into our business and “seems” to interrupt the schedule because He’s got things He wants us to think about, people to love, care and pray for. So I know better than to turn that off.

            And you know what, when He does that, we usually end up being greatly blessed, because we have chosen His heart of love over our momentary schedule of life’s other demands and whatever. I’ll go with His way any day, any hour for anybody.

            Again, you also be blessed and have a great weekend. I will be visiting this thread more often when I can get on.

            Appreciate you!
            Shalom

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            • ladypenquin says:

              This thread reminds me of the hymn, “Great is Thy Faithfulness” – everyone’s spirit here is a testament to Him and His standing by us, no matter the challenge.

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              • angellestaria6674 says:

                That is a wonderful thing to say.

                I felt like we were actually having a little bit of real church here on this thread.

                I feel closer to many of you here than I do to many church people in real time life.

                God hears us here. He will answer in a way of His perfect will, love, wisdom, mercy and grace!

                I keep in mind that great Name He comes back with…FAITHFUL AND TRUE.

                I love that hymn.

                Shalom and His blessings for you and yours.

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                • ladypenquin says:

                  I’ve made a list for church tomorrow. Somehow it seems important to make sure the Lord knows the names of our fellow Treepers who need His Comfort and Solace.

                  I agree with you about the spiritual realm we’re sharing here at CTH. 🙂

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Good for you, faithful lover of God and His people here!

                  We must absolutely hold up the names of our fellow-Treepers who, in dire circumstances, are going through the fire. Patrickhenrycensored’s response to me absolutely proves it.

                  You have to know that the Lord already knows all the names…but me thinks He wants us to lift them up before Jesus Christ…that being our part and faithful co-operation with His heavenly process of how the Body of Jesus Christ works.

                  Bless you much!

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                • “I feel closer to many of you here than I do to many church people in real time life.” ditto…”Where 2 or 3 are gathered in my Name there I am in the midst of you”. We Are the Body of Christ within these tangled branches of cyberspace…& God’s work is being done in & through & sometimes even in spite of each one of us!

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        • Thank you for sharing your compassionate heart of love–a bit of a wounded warrior perhaps, not battle-hardened but battle-tested & Spirit-shaped on that perfecting Potter’s wheel–Wheeeeee–just trying to enjoy the ride even if it means being pounded down to primordial principals & remade after His Design yet again.

          God Bless this broken road that brought us each here to Him & to this Last Refuge. “There is a friend that sticks closer than a brother” & “A brother is born for adversity” & “Weeping may endure for a night but Joy comes in the morning” (or is it mourning, as in “Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be Comforted!”) In Christ’s Love

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          • angellestaria6674 says:

            Your first paragraph is actually a good take. Not that getting pounded ever feels good, it doesn’t, but the heavenly wine and fruits of the Holy Spirit that are produced as a result of said pounding….yeah, that’s pretty sweet and it flows out from us to those around us who may never know the life of God without us going through our trials. Job didn’t understand this. But we have his book as a record, so we should understand the principle of our trials. Having said that, I confess, I still cry out to the Lord sometimes and say, Lord, it is enough. He replies, “Not until I say it is.” End of debate and discussion.

            The verse of weeping enduring for a night….oh boy, have held to that one for decades. It’s been a long, hard, cold night, but yet, I must confess it as a God-ordained design and blueprint. Jesus once prayed…nevertheless, not My will but Your will be done. So be it, Yea and Amen! Selah

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            • “Not that getting pounded ever feels good, it doesn’t, but the heavenly wine and fruits of the Holy Spirit that are produced as a result of said pounding….yeah, that’s pretty sweet and it flows out from us to those around us who may never know the life of God without us going through our trials.”

              …it Is worth it All!!! These light afflictions…

              Kind of like He is trampling out the Vineyard–we are crushed so that the wine of the Spirit flows in/out/through us–these trials are His divine winepress & since we’ve done some abiding in that vine we have/are the fruits that He can use/bruise & the overflow of that press, that crush helps us & others both fill & drink of that Cup that He too asked to pass without drinking.

              I’m thinking of the visual in the “Return of the King” movie (Peter Jackson’s one) where the warriors of Gondor are departing the city they are preparing (hopelessly) to defend. The citizens line the streets & toss flowers in their path where shod feet & steeds may crush & bruise them that the fragrance is brought forth–beauty in death & dying to self and all…Weeping may endure But for a night–the Joy Is Coming!

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              • angellestaria6674 says:

                Yes, I was thinking of the Vineyard. So, O Lord…trample away if You must to produce heavenly wine.

                Shalom!

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  I forgot to answer ur ? about if there was an easy way to find past comments.

                  If there is, which I doubt, I don’t know about it.

                  I’ll get the other pieces to you via email. It may be later this week since the immediate schedule ahead is daunting.

                  Blessings.

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                • Please no rush or pressure on any of this. Take care of all your pressing matters. I’m soon to descend into our family tax prep (later than “hoped”, as usual)–ugh–so may have limited computer time for the next month or so…

                  I’ve truly been blessed by all you have shared & honored that you have engaged with me so diligently of late. As you said to Ad Rem in one of your replies, I also hope these conversations may be a blessing to others too…

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  My sis worked for an intense CPA firm a few years ago. Tax season really affected her health so she got another job. They were doing 12 hour days and towards the end, staying all night at the office. She hates tax stuff. Oh well….hope you get all your stuff done without issues.

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                • Thanks. My dad’s long-time hunting buddy has his own tax prep company. It’s been a family affair in various ways. Apparently his own father was an IRS man so his whole purpose in his business is to in a sense stick it to his dad by helping others keep as much of their own money out of the hands of the IRS. Your sister’s experience sounds about like what I’ve heard they go through too…

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  One more quick thing…

                  I am going to email you my “Letter to Rudyard Kipling.” So check your email for it.

                  Save it for a rainy day after you read JOURNEYS…

                  The Kipling piece is mostly in poem form, is rather thick, complex reading, so not for a casual glance.

                  Talk later.

                  Still praying for our Treepers in need. Will be doing so off and on the whole night whole working. I can use my head and my heart at the same time.

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                • Ok, thanks for the heads up & for passing more of your creative works to me. When Brandon gets back from Guatemala & has time & head space I may share some of your poems with him. He is an occasional poet, an energetic culture warrior, & a genuine kind-hearted fun-loving enthusiastic Christian…& he’s one of my kids that will take the time to dig into things a little deeply when the mood strikes…

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Awesome. Feel free to share any and all of it with him. Would be glad to contribute some good thought his way.

                  Peace

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Valerie, Ad rem found my poem about Moscow, and is going to post it, along with comments, in a dedicated spot here on this thread.

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                • Oh, that’s awesome…can’t wait!!! Thanks Ad Rem…Blessings

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Ditto that! Ad rem

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      • angellestaria6674 says:

        Ad rem…

        Would you like a copy of my Letter to Rudyyard Kipling? I just sent it to Valerie.

        It is a difficult, but poignant read, not for casual readers who major in Cotton Candy Fluff 101. LOL

        Anyway, if so, let me know here or by email. I can send it via email.

        Anyway, have a great evening. Going to take a glance for new prayer requests before taking the deep dive into the night schedule.

        Blessings

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        • Ad rem says:

          Thank you angelle….I would love a copy. Also, I believe either you or Valerie asked if there was an easy way to find past comments. Were you referring to this blog? If so, I have a complete posting history for every Treeper, and I’d be happy to research any past comments either of you might need.

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          • angellestaria6674 says:

            Awesome.

            No, not this thread.

            I think, if I remember right, I posted my poem about being in Moscow on the Presidential Thread, or the Our Father thread….or both…right around if not on Christmas Eve of last year, 2018.

            The poem, ANJOU, was posted on the Our Father Prayer thread right around the same time, perhaps a few days or even a week or so after Christmas. They both come with a youTube video of accompanying music.

            If by some chance you can trace those 2 poems in my comments, let me know and I’ll wait before I email them to her because it would be great if she could read them as they were posted and presented here in the CTH threads. Just something a little more special reading stuff here than in email.

            And I will shoot off an email to you with the Kipling piece in a few minutes. I’ll address it to you.

            Thanks so much for caring and being….oh gosh, just so darn helpful all the time. SD couldn’t ask for a better admin!

            Blessings.

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            • Ad rem says:

              OK…..found the poem re Moscow. Will post it (and the comments surround it) in a decidated spot below.

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              • angellestaria6674 says:

                Just fired off my email to you. Btw, I also included my allegory that I first sent to SD in case you didn’t get to read it at the first.

                I’ll send a comment to Valerie here to let her know what your doing. Thx so much!

                Like

              • angellestaria6674 says:

                I never thought about this, but maybe you putting it here in this thread, some of our sick and needy Treepers may be blessed too. That was a good idea and glad you thought about it.

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                • Ad rem says:

                  Sorry….not seeing “ANJOU”, however I’ve found A SONG UPON THE MIDNIGHT SEA (1./2/10) and EPICUREAN GRAPES (1/5/19).

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Okay, I’ll just email her that one and the others.

                  I’ll email you ANJOU too with the backdrop story. Brings tears to my eyes even now just to recount that awesome intervention of God in a critical hour…imagine, East Germany pre-1989. Wasn’t a nice place to be.

                  Thx so much for looking!

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              • angellestaria6674 says:

                Just simply know…

                How much I appreciate you and others as staff, and SD’s position in the whole admin of TCTH.

                Blessings…and continue to strive to keep up the great effort of CTH’s honest, truth presenting effort of truth and justice in the face of the lie, propaganda and hideous, anti-American, anti-God and anti-rule of law.

                I’ve been up against the best of the best of it…but hey, as a survivor, I am still standing…but the Berlin Wall is not!

                People overall have no clue or idea how close we are to a total break-out explosion, division and polarization of our nation.

                In a different kind of way, we are fearfully close to the dynamics that were in place right before Civil War 101.

                Appreciate all if you so much!

                A

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  43. angellestaria6674 says:

    Ad rem:

    Very kind of you to do this for 4sure!

    Having fought several life-threatening episodes over the years, nearly to the death, and remembering the awesome power of friends’ prayers that brought about miraculous, instant recovery, (once even pulling me out of an ongoing sudden stroke) it is so good to have this feature for Treepers to take refuge in. In a spiritual way, CTH can also be a “Last Refuge”, not just politically.

    Again, thank you and the whole CTH staff for the care and concern for and about all the different limbs and branches of “our very special house.”

    Shalom and may God grant great grace and help our member treeper, 4sure, and also richly bless you, Sundance and Menagerie.

    AS

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  44. Dear Treeper Prayer Warriors,
    I just wanted to share with you that we had a really special time of prayer with & for Brandon this evening. It was initiated by one of Brandon’s long-time friends (they were classmates in a small local Christian school K-8) who came here to specifically pray over Brandon. This friend is a strong Christian but rather left-leaning since (at least) his college days, but these differences thankfully don’t impede our shared journeys to the Throne of Grace! There was a beautiful presence of the Lord with us as we each prayed for B & his upcoming trip. In fact, during these times of prayer there is almost no trace of Josiah’s autism–he truly has No Disabilities in God’s Kingdom. What a blessing to pray with one’s family!!!

    I hope this mini-testimonial will encourage you, in Christ. Blessings to All!

    https://tse1.mm.bing.net/th?id=OIP.b4994Ez_L4_wc0XNLjdIOQHaJQ&pid=Api

    Hopefully you’ll see some scriptural encouragements above (sorry for so many pics, Ad Rem, it’s really hard to choose for this pack rat:) )–Blessings in Christ!

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    • angellestaria6674 says:

      Valerie:

      Just an awesome comment.

      In the midst of so many prayer requests for people suffering, we also need to witness, see and hear the upbeat side when people move in the Spirit of Jesus Christ’s love for others. Yes, we do indeed need that balance. It encourages others. So thank you for this above.

      May God richly bless, encourage, strengthen and lift up you, Brandon and all of yours.

      And never forget that great Name that Jesus comes back with on a white horse as written in the Book of the Revelation of Jesus Christ:

      FAITHFUL & TRUE

      He called Himself I AM to Moses.

      Put that together with FAITHFUL & TRUE and you have…

      I AM FAITHFUL & TRUE!

      Shalom always and forever!

      AS

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      • Thank you so much for this encouragement “Angel”. In the end, we win, & on some occasions God even lets us experience a taste of Victory while still trapped in this mortal frame. Someday “soon” (Narnia’s Aslan–a type of Christ–said “I call all times soon”!) we will share in the triumphant victory of our King of Kings & Lord of Lords! Yet even now “death is swallowed up in victory” for those of us who are in Christ Jesus!

        May the Peace, Love, Hope, & Joy of Our Lord be with YOU & continue to strengthen & sustain you during these challenging seasons of change…

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        • angellestaria6674 says:

          Valerie:

          So right.

          Were this not true, that is, the Lord blessing us at times with some victories while in this mortal frame, I would not be here typing these words. Between the effects of vicious hatred, war, health issues, not to mention accidents like being in a small car getting rear-ended by a larger vehicle doing 110mph at night, being in a car driving directly into a tornado at night…so many, so many occasions….but the loving-kindness and merciful grace of God has been with me since a wee child. Things didn’t start out so good at birth.

          I’m not the only one who has gone through a thousand trials in life. Just another fellow-traveler and one of the Lord’s temporary sojourners on that narrow road and holy highway laid out before my feet by God Who has already written His books about all of us like King David penned in the Psalms. In the volume of the Book…….

          If I could insert just a second of humor here…….sometimes I think the Lord made me (and I’m sure others) part cat, cuz He was determined to get the most out of a possible 9 lives since He knew some of the others could get cut short. LOL

          But seriously, we do know and recognize the Lord’s graciousness, His love, His perfectly executed and written will for those who love Him with all their whole heart, mind, soul, spirit and strength…and yes, their neighbors as themselves.

          Yet great fear, terror, dread and unsettling uncertainty and perplexity set in sometimes so that we have to get on our face before Him and let Him calm us down when we can’t calm ourselves down. That is one of the greatest lessons about trusting God that a Christian can ever learn.

          Appreciate you and all here soooo much. Let us agree to be in one mind, heart, spirit of prayer for our fellow-Treepers.

          Shalom always and forever!

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          • Wow, just Wow. I want to read the book or hear your stories directly & my husband wants to see the movie of your life! “The Lord delivers him from them all” must be your life verse…

            “…who love Him with all their whole heart, mind, soul, spirit and strength…and yes, their neighbors as themselves.”

            Not even close to attaining this standard. More like “I press (or plod) toward the mark of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus” & “Lord I believe, help thou my unbelief” & “she has been forgiven much for she loved much” & “by his grace have ye been saved”…you get the idea.

            I’m still keyed up for I just dropped Brandon off at the airport & heard on the radio on the way home one of the school shooting dads describing his daughter Meadow’s death in Broward County how she died being shot 9 times shielding another student…what grief to lose your only daughter. I was moved to tears for this man’s loss, sorrow, & anger.

            I’m so thankful that we don’t control the times we live in or the lives we live, per se, nor necessarily the deaths by which we will hopefully glorify the Lord. Living to redeem the time is a challenge in both the best & the worst of times.

            Sometimes I think an applicable life verse around here is “Enjoy life with the wife of your youth, all the days of this meaningless life.” & “S/He shall be like a tree planted by rivers of Living Water”…& even “taste & see that the Lord is good!”

            I guess I don’t have a Favorite verse for God’s Word is living & alive & His Spirit speaks to us through the ages through His divine inspiration–how profound & miraculous.

            Wishing you Joy on your continued complex & incredible journey. Please keep us apprised of developments. God’s Blessings Abound to You!

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            • angellestaria6674 says:

              Thank you so much for an awesome reply.

              I should be going to bed but have to stay alert as we have some potentially nasty weather stuff rolling in in…we’re pretty much in torndao ally.

              So later this evening, I will reply you back. Don’t want to rush a quickie response to you right now. You said a lot that I appreciate.

              After this weather passes, I have to attempt an hour of sleep, get right back up before too long, get the work schedule going, eat, take an afternoon map, get up and work some more. Did I just make you tired? LOL

              Anyway, in my evening schedule, I will comment back to you.

              And please say a little prayer for the Lord to cover us with His Wing right now. The next 3 months are our hellweather, storm months.

              And yes, I live and function by that great verse of David’s about the Lord delivering him from all his troubles and fears. Can’t tell you how many times over the years I dated that verse. Also PSALM 20…help from the Sanctuary. And the great benediction in Numbers which I say to you…

              May the Lord bless you and keep you….may He shine upon you and yours.

              C u here in the treehouse later this evening.

              Shalom

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              • Praying…& awaiting whatever you wish to share, when you get the chance.

                Where in Tornado Alley?…I spent a decade in Tulsa, OK, where my husband grew up (he’s from Denver originally) & there were lots of twisters, though none “too” close to me personally. Now living in Metro Detroit none of the weather is too brutal (for me), though my husband hates the long, dreary winters…I love a crisp winter’s day with the sunlight sparkling on crystallized snow or the hoar frost turning the humdrum suburbs into a fleetingly spectacular fairy wonderland!

                When our oldest son Nathaniel was quite young he used to talk about “Dorothy caught up in a Tomato” after seeing the Wizard of Oz, a treasured memory that hasn’t slipped away yet. 🙂

                Be safe, get some rest, pace yourself, & enjoy Jesus either sleeping in the boat or walking on water (& calling you on that unique adventure with Him!)–either way He’s not at all bothered by those pesky storms that torment us mere mortals so! Blessings

                This last quote by Ian Simpkins, if he’s the pastor in Chicagoland, then his youngest brother spent most of the past evening with our family to pass the time with Brandon before his travels–hmm, serendipitous hidden timely treasure…

                Hopefully you’ll see some scriptural (& related) encouragements pertaining to God’s loving care for us in the midst of the storms of life above–sorry again Ad Rem, my packratty side is abounding in biblical cyber fury–Blessings to all…

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    • angellestaria6674 says:

      Hey Valerie…haven’t forgot you, just kind of got a slow start with a lot of things to be juggled this evening. And btw, we made it through storms early am this morning just fine. I have this very special storm prayer that I wrote years ago. Used it this morning like I have for years. The subject of the power of that prayer and the storms that have been stilled and moved away from us because of praying that prayer, is a subject all of its own for another day.

      Going to send you this in parts, okay? There may be some typos, but you’ll be able to figure them out if so.

      I am replying from this comment of yours above because our conversation, getting into replies to replies, would place this reply way over to the right side of the page…and if you’re on a phone, well, you know how sometimes there is only one word per line. So am starting back up from here to make it easier for you to read.

      Already busy on the prayer request thread. I cannot stay away from it. So many needs. So many hurting hearts crying out for prayer, love, strength and support. And this is the place for Treepers to come to get it freely and joyfully.

      All this while trying to keep up the impossible schedule and many burdens for a lot of stuff and people who are affected by my particular life and orb.

      Your reply earlier yesterday morning really blessed me. You talk about being not even close to attaining…well, there is that of Paul…we see through a glass darkly, but then face to Face…so there’s whole lot of diligent, loyal, God-loving, God-worshiping Christian brothers and sisters in your boat, me included….uh, pretty much all of us. It’s a really large boat.

      But that is what the grace and mercy of the Lord is for. He knows. Oh! He knows. But as written in the OT, “The Lord knows those who are His.” Yep, our faults, failings, weaknesses, sometimes not-so-nice temperaments, some selfishness here and there, unholy anger, etc, etc, etc…you get the idea. But He knows we are eeply striving and yes, reaching with all our might to press ever onward and upward toward the mark of the prize of the high calling.

      I think it is Ecclesiastes 9: 7 your reference…live joyfully with the wife of your youth all the days of your vain life…vanity…” But verses 7 and 8 are good too.

      Working on Part II

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      • Good News on the storm front! Thanks for all that you’re sharing in this public conversation for it is a blessing to me…& hopefully to others too! What a rich tapestry of faith we believers weave!

        the one above for (y)our warrior’s heart!

        “We fall down, we lay our crowns at the feet of Jesus…”

        In this walk of faith I stumble, I fall, I rise up, I crawl…

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        • angellestaria6674 says:

          Just getting to Part II

          I do have limitations of what I can publicly post and share, but what I can, am glad to do it.

          I absolutely believe that the Holy Spirit moved on me some months ago to start commenting and posting here at CTH for one main reason, that is, to contribute whatever knowledge, information, help and encouragement for CTH members as is possible. And now, the Prayer Request thread has become an integral part of the mission here. It is the thread that actually moves my heart more than any other. I cannot help but get very emotional being over on this thread.

          When you’ve lived and walked through the fire and the flood, wind and storms of death, fear, dread, terror, atrocities, pain and suffering such as I and some of those who have been with me for many years have, it makes your heart soooo open, compassionate and caring for others going through it, even if what they are going through is not as severe as your own trial. So who can complain because of the trials of life if that is what the Lord designs for us that we may become vessels of mercy for others? Even to our own physical detriment, hurt, harm and sometimes death itself. The book of Job comes to mind.

          Paul the apostle would understand my sentiment here. Just a reading of Corinthians is a bold testimony of what he lived and suffered through…and he did it because he loved God first and foremost, and he loved the Church, and he loved people in general. You don’t live that kind of life without having some degree of God’s deeper, intimate love in your heart. Love is compassionate, kind, merciful and generous. Selfishness and extrinsic desires, carnal lusts of the flesh deny all of that and don’t care about people, their pain or their needs. Carnal desire own feeds itself and lets everything else starve.

          I’m not always going to get everything right in what I say. Sometimes I am so worn out and bone tired and can’t hardly think or function. And I don’t know everything. (Thank God! Who would want that horrible burden?) Don’t know anybody who does. LOL Well, there is God. There’s that. But we do our best to contribute, plant seeds and trust the Lord to give the increase. Paul said, some plant, some water, but God gives the increase. I hope and pray He blesses my small input (there’s a lot of great input, thought and opinion offered in TCTH) here while I am able to contribute. Future timing is very uncertain in my orb of life, work, and yes, health issues. From day to day, sometimes hour to hour, I have to change course, get up and go another way. The work issue is the greater driving force of almost all things I live in and as. But I am here as long as the Lord gives me the time, grace and strength to continue.

          CTH is a whole new family. I am very close to only a rare few people in real time life. It has just had to be that way for many years. So adopting new family here in the treehouse has been an awesome joy that I have thanked God for many times this last couple of months. And I find myself praying for all involved in the whole mission of TCTH, for Sundance, Ad rem, Menagerie and every single Treeper who is part of this site.

          One of things I pray the most for all here is for the Lord to infuse and grant even greater wisdom and help all involved in this effort, including all of us Treepers, discover by light and the will of God in Heaven to be done in the Earth, deeper truth(s) and to be able to uncover even larger things hidden in dark shadows, to be able to be part of a great, consequential process that, God willing, will bring about some justice so critically needed. Our Constitution, Declaration of Independence and Bill of Rights are all in ICU. Believe it!

          I am including an email address because I do have a piece, an allegory, that I think you would enjoy reading. Have sent it to Sundance early on, I think shortly after I first emailed CTH. Don’t know if he’s read it yet. Also, my good friend Thomas Lifson who owns and publishes American Thinker has it. Selwyn Duke and Lloyd Marcus, writers for AT and other sites both have it. Lloyd told me he started reading immediately the morning he got it. I love those people and have enjoyed a very warm correspondence and communication with them over the last couple of years or so.

          I am not worried about posting an email address here. After all, this is not exactly the kind of thread trolls and nefarious people would be drawn to. LOL I can pretty much trust about 100% of the people in this thread. Ad rem and Sundance have my email. A few other do to. It is not a critical work-related address so not worried about negative stuff.

          My piece is called: THE JOURNEYS OF EMMAUS & JABEZ: The Great Tree. The Great Tree of course is Christ. I consider it one of the greatest gifts of written works the Lord has ever blessed me with and spiritually infused deep into my heart and mind before Him. The other piece, A CHRISTMAS SONG OF LIGHT, is probably the one single, greatest piece, if I had to choose, I feel like the Holy Spirit inspired me to write. It is a poem. It is like reading a combination of Isaiah and the Psalms. I wrote that piece in great, heart-broken duress in December of 2002 over a 3 day period. I can hardly, to this day, stand to think about the circumstance in which I wrote that piece. I still carry deep wounds from great losses back then. I will also send it to you.

          Email address:

          angellestaria7@gmail.com

          Okay, I may continue tomorrow. We’ll see. Gonna have to catch up on a lot of things, try to get an hour of sleep before too long here before getting up early am and starting it all over again.

          Appreciate you, and all the people here, more than I am able to express.

          Shalom always and forever.

          PS: Feel free to share any of this with your husband.

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          • “So who can complain because of the trials of life if that is what the Lord designs for us that we may become vessels of mercy for others? Even to our own physical detriment, hurt, harm and sometimes death itself. The book of Job comes to mind.”

            This is a profound truth & a welcome periodic course correction for which I need reminding. Job’s “though He slay me, yet will I trust Him” is a standard and target not yet fully acquired here…

            “CTH is a whole new family. I am very close to only a rare few people in real time life. It has just had to be that way for many years. So adopting new family here in the treehouse has been an awesome joy that I have thanked God for many times this last couple of months.”

            This echoes my heart in many ways, though I’m less engaged here than you. Keeping distance & nursing/ignoring/enduring/overcoming? private pain that is difficult to express makes a more isolated life a necessity, comfort, & seemingly interminable season. Didn’t most of Paul’s writing come while he was in prison; his chains our freedom!

            “I am including an email address because I do have a piece, an allegory, that I think you would enjoy reading. Have sent it to Sundance early on, I think shortly after I first emailed CTH. Don’t know if he’s read it yet. Also, my good friend Thomas Lifson who owns and publishes American Thinker has it. Selwyn Duke and Lloyd Marcus, writers for AT and other sites both have it. Lloyd told me he started reading immediately the morning he got it. I love those people and have enjoyed a very warm correspondence and communication with them over the last couple of years or so.”

            You have listed some of my favorite authors at American Thinker! (I’ve missed reading over there much for I cannot often get cyber time apart from CTH!)…Thank you for this honor of being willing to share these writings with me. I will also put my email out here & trust God to use contacts where & how He will…though I must confess that my own personal frailty has caused me to only sporadically check email for the past year or so. Sometimes those traumas of the past make present engagement intermittent at best & nigh unto impossible at times…

            ValerieCurren@sbcglobal.net

            You mentioned Dec 2002–“I wrote that piece in great, heart-broken duress in December of 2002 over a 3 day period. I can hardly, to this day, stand to think about the circumstance in which I wrote that piece. I still carry deep wounds from great losses back then.”

            The timing makes me surmise that you May have been reeling from 9/11 fallout of some kind (I’m not trying to pry here)…I was not personally directly impacted by that attack, per se. We were safe in Metro Detroit (though near Dearbornistan, which is another topic) & didn’t know anyone personally who was directly impacted. However that event was transformative in my own life in that it really caused me to open my eyes & pay much more careful attention to things on the national & international stage, very different from the godly, fun & sports-loving family of origin & training. Though I had 4 young kids at the time & was a stay home mom this shifted focus changed the trajectory of my life in a number of ways & it will never be September 10 again for me…

            Thank you, my brother, for sharing from your heart of compassion, your boundless fount of experience, & your tenacious warrior’s spirit as you continue to do battle in physical, emotional, spiritual, mental, political, & relational spheres. You are an inspiration, a comfort, a guide, a sage, a Godly & honorable man, a champion in the Kingdom! Oh & a regular soldier of Christ with feet of clay…no hero worship just gratitude for you sharing here! Blessings!!!

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            • angellestaria6674 says:

              A quicke before I reply your message.

              I have just sent it to your email. Please let me know if you get it okay.

              Thx

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            • angellestaria6674 says:

              Talking about Job, I have always been fascinated by that particular dynamic of the occasion between God and Job before God blessed and multiplied him with even more than he originally had. Job’s trial was one for the ages.

              God put the “fear of God” in Job when He addressed Him rather harshly. Job failed to ultimately trust in the wisdom of God concerning all the dreadful things that happened to him and his family. Yet, even after that “shake down” of Job’s doubts and questioning of God, it was Job’s 3 friends who God instructed to sacrifice and told them, “you have not spoken right of Me like My servant Job did.”

              Seems to be a dichotomy, yet a closer reading of Job does illustrate, that in all his questioning of God’s ways, Job did say some things in which He was sticking up for God in the face of his friends’ criticisms. Intriguing.

              I have to confess, I have said some terrible, deeply hurtful things to the Lord over the years, and like Job and Jeremiah, cursed the day I was born. Been so angry and in incomprehensible pain, I just wanted to die and go on…so there I have been sitting under that broom tree just like Elijah. What did God do with Elijah when he asked God to let him die? Oh, no pity parties from God to Elijah. He sent angels to feed him, got him up and going, sent him to Mt. Horeb and gave a him a rather simple revelation…mostly that God was not in the great dramatic occurrences God was visibly demonstrating to him…no, but a still small voice…….a voice I have learned can be the most critical voice to discern, listen to and obey when things are trending downward.

              Glad to know those are fav authors of yours. Lloyd can be a hoot. I actually got him to reply me on AT once…he never hardly ever replies…I said something that made him laugh out loud and he said he could see me doing what I had expressed that I wanted to do to some of the clowns in DC. A couple of weeks ago, I sent him an email and he replied back and said he had his wife Mary reading my email out loud! Anyway, just go to love and appreciate these people.

              The December 2002 occasion has nothing to do with 9-11. One day, that may be a story to be told, but can’t do it now. As far as terrorist attacks go, I was more involved with some survivors of the OK City bombing 4.19.1995. That one will tore my heart to pieces. And oh, to answer your query about what part of OK…I’m close to the OK and AR state line, about 2 hours south of Tulsa. And I’ve been in Detroit and that area, long time ago, so Dearborn was not Dearbornistan like it is now. It’s pretty much a goner. So sad.

              Btw, did you get to read my poems that I posted about a month or so ago? One was about some serious Christmas time spent in inhospitable circumstances in Moscow back in the 1970s. I posted it to Mannheim Steamroller’s version of the Auld Lang Syne. The other was a poem about a little girl (Anjou – angel), an amazing child the Lord sent my way to help me get out of East Germany one night in the 1980s. I posted it to the instrumental theme song of the movie, Pans Labyrinth. Both occasions looked like the end of God’s earthly road for me at the time. Still have some lingering nightmares though not so many as in years past. Miracles, actual, bonafide miracles of God got me out of both situations and others. If you were unable to read them, I’ll email you those two pieces also. I have hundreds of pieces few have read. Maybe one day, I’ll put more of it out there, but not until I get past some present complex circumstances and get some other friends into safer situations.

              I am hoping and praying for some miracles presently here in the lives of some of our Treepers. With men it is impossible, but with God all things are possible.

              Thank you for the kind words in your last paragraph. Yes, I consider myself a clay, but faithful foot soldier for Christ, a very flawed one at times, but I live in a constant state of whole worship of the Lord my God above all things. In the worship of God, there is no room for mortal, hero worship. Ready for whatever is next on earth, or ready if He makes that great call to join that heavenly Cloud of Witnesses and become part of that great Army. Read Daniel 4:35 when you get a chance. Words out of King Nebuchadnezzar’s mouth, but so true.

              AD rem:

              If you read this, I’m sorry a couple of these messages were so long tonight. Won’t usually be so long. So much to be said. But ultimately, I hope therein this conversation Valeria and I have had these last 2 days, is embedded words that may bless, strengthen and encourage our Treepers in need on this thread. Perhaps, just something….that would be a higher glimpse of the Lord as our Light of Life and give them renewed hope and cause them to lift up their hearts and faces to God to know that His great Grace is sufficient and ultimate and certainly will be there for them no matter what. That is the only reason I share just a little of my personals, because God has been so faithful to deliver so many times. It is the base reason I am on CTH.

              Shalom and blessings to all,
              A

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              • Thank you, Angelle, much food for thought here. One of the aspects of Job’s tale that has always intrigued me is that that the Lord pointed Job out to the Enemy, in effect putting that target on his back. There is Nothing outside of God’s purview or permission…

                When OKC happened we’d already left OK & were living in Northern Michigan & expecting our twins, Brandon & Josiah. I read Jayna Davis’ book about the Third Terrorist, I believe, which was a real eye opener & preview of alarming things to come. OKC pretty much put to rest any interest my husband then had had in the MI Militia, something we’d heard a bit about living in the boonies before that horrific attack…I grew up in Dearborn, my parents still live there, our sometime church is there, & our non-disabled kids attended a Christian school there…so the sad decline & Muslimization is something to which we’ve had a nearly front row seat viewing…

                I don’t believe that I’ve seen those poems which you referenced but would love to. I don’t get to read the Open Thread consistently (I need to develop better online habits). I would love to receive any of them you wish to share, or if you want to provide links to where they’re posted that would be great…Is it possible to “easily” locate someone’s comments within another’s blog? I’ve never learned how to do so…

                Praying for miracles…I was thinking of PHC & the looming situation. My dad’s elderly cousin has been told he’s dying a number of times & even went in & out of hospice! He’s a cantankerous Korean War era veteran that just keeps on fighting the good fight despite various life threatening health scenarios…

                I’m a bit of a fighter by nature. When we were told years ago that Josiah would likely never walk nor talk, never read nor write…well that just meant it was time to battle even more diligently. Those “experts” won’t ever have the last say on Anything. God is the Only One who truly knows the beginning from the end for any of us & he’s defining the boundaries within which we must live…

                I once met a young mother who’d been pressured to abort her anencephalic child–she refused. This child was born with limited amounts of brain matter but was then elementary school age & only slightly behind peers in skills. This mom saved her child’s life & didn’t yield to those who proclaimed her child’s life would have no meaning or value or length because of that brain condition. This family truly glorified the Lord, defied the odds, & refused to comply with “expert” naysayers…miracles abound & God is at work among us whether He chooses to deliver us out of the storm, carry us through the storm, or take us home to Himself through the violence & devastation of the storm…

                There are so many deep needs expressed here at the Treehouse…so thankful to have our fellow soldiers, our brothers & sisters in Christ, to help carry some of these burdens for one another. Whether we live or die let’s continue to do all for the Glory of the Lord Jesus Christ!

                Daniel 4:35 King James Version (KJV)
                35 “And all the inhabitants of the earth are reputed as nothing: and he doeth according to his will in the army of heaven, and among the inhabitants of the earth: and none can stay his hand, or say unto him, What doest thou?”

                “Ready for whatever is next on earth, or ready if He makes that great call to join that heavenly Cloud of Witnesses and become part of that great Army.”

                …pressing toward the mark, the prize, the high calling; conforming to the image; laying down your life for your friends; He must increase, we must decrease–Be blessed in the battle! God’s Grace & Peace

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Thank you for the good thoughts.

                  PHC’d’s situation really got to me. I was so glad he replied and said my comment “rocked” him. It blessed me for him to be blessed.

                  Here in the news of late, there’s been a story about a baby born with very little brain matter, but seems to be defying odds. I prayed for that baby. NY & VA would have supported killing it. I can’t hardly talk about abortion wo going full battle mode. (I am not a nice person to be around when in that mode.)

                  I prolly won’t be on much tonight. Kinda under the gun and facing pressing deadlines…and am not feeling well right now. I’ll check for new prayer requests before getting off.

                  Be blessed, safe and close to our Lord’s Heart.

                  Peace and blessings.

                  Especially 🙏🙏🙏ing for our family-treepers for the Lord be very close to them on their hour of distress and need.

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                • Years back when my twins were very young I heard on Christian radio of a family expecting a baby that was likely to be born dead. They were heavily pressured to abort but refused. They bathed that pregnancy in prayer & specifically asked God for “the breath of life”. When the baby was born it gasped one breath in this world & then passed into the Lord’s presence. That family Rejoiced that the Lord had given them that brief moment with a live child & the Breath of Life prayer had been answered.

                  I, to my shame previously, while my twins were both in the NICU & I was still in the hospital went there to nurse Brandon, Josiah was too weak to breastfeed, in the middle of the night. While rocking & feeding my baby I observed the nursing staff bring in another baby to the unit. This child was left naked & placed on a metal tray under a warming light & then ignored by the staff. She was turning purple & gasping for breath so I called out for the staff to assist her & was told they already doing all they could for her. She was the Only baby in that room not in a diaper nor isolette nor having any leads nor having any staff watch over her or anything…she had a small hole between her nose & mouth, cleft pallette? I inquired about her family but was given no info (standard protecting privacy). At some point this apparently discarded child slipped into death & staff eventually checked her still form with a stethoscope, wrapped her in a receiving blanket & carried her away (to the morgue or the trash, who can say)…She seemed to receive more tenderness from NICU staff in death than in life. My shame is that I didn’t go over & hold & rock that child & sing & pray over her before she departed this world.

                  This experience deeply impacted & troubled me & years later when I heard about “post-birth abortion” I came to believe that may have been what I witnessed that dark night.

                  What a huge contrast between that unloved, discarded, & left to die baby (whose life perhaps could have been saved?) & the one doomed to die early, or be born dead, who was loved & cherished & prayed for & longed over & remembered & testified & strengthened the faith & hope of many who heard the tale…Oh that America would treat them as the Breath of Life family did…not ignore & discard them & defile the precious image of God…

                  God have mercy on our nation’s soul…

                  Praying for you to feel better. God Bless, Keep, Heal, & Equip You

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            • angellestaria6674 says:

              Hey Valerie:

              Replying here to your comment about the story of the 2 babies because there was no reply button at the end of your comment…don’t know why since it is a relatively new comment.

              Anyway, your comment managed to stick a coupe of daggers in my heart….oh no, don’t take that in a negative way….it’s because the issue of the unborn, the newly born, the neglected, unloved treatment of so many, digs deeper into my heart before God than any other issue on the face of the Earth.

              I’ve been involved in a lot of stuff in a lot of places that concern children. So they too, are forefront on my radar. I am single living in a small town. No children or marriage. The Lord’ choice of life and work for me would have too much of a killer burden for a wife and children. So that had to be sacrificed. Having said that, my relationship to little tykes, (like our police chief’s 3 year old daughter, Ava, who calls me out and gives me both high 5s and a fist bump), older children,etc…yeah one of them told me recently that even though I don’t have my own children, I have children. Lots of adoptees! Black and white. Color doesn’t matter around here. Love it! They keep me young in mind, heart, spirit and life.

              I’m a man, but I do have a heart for the babies and children, especially the helpless. I could feel your pain and distress, (made my eyes water to read that!) to see that helpless baby being basically neglected, nobody to love it, hold and cherish it…alone, alone, alone. That hurts me so deeply I cannot express it here. I have no doubt that this deep well of love, care and concern for the helpless that the Lord implanted and embedded in my heart decades ago is the thing that kept me from becoming a stone-cold hard heart and hating most of humanity. I could have easily ended up being a Jehu.

              Consider buying and reading the book, SCENES BEYOND THE GRAVE. You can order it online. The setting of it is in the 1800s. It is about a 9 day period a young woman spent in Heaven (she was very sick on earth). Part of the great things she saw is what happens to the babies and innocents when they die and are carried to Heaven by angels. It is a very comforting thing to remember when being pained in heart to see what is happening to so many down here. You will never, ever forget that story after reading it.

              Thanks for sharing that.

              I can see now that the prayer request thread IS the place to come for deep heart stuff.

              Shalom!

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              • You sound like an Isaiah 54 man–still enlarging the cords of your tent…& your heart for a Kingdom harvest…

                My daughter has written a song based on my NICU experience so I’ll attempt to share it here. She gave me her raw notes so anything that’s off is my inability to pull together her art accurately (she’s got to sleep since there are early college classes tomorrow/day)…

                Nameless
                It’s 4am my baby boys
                are my only thoughts
                in this hospital bed
                I am holding them not

                A nurse comes in
                carrying a babe on a tray
                She sets her down
                beneath a bright light to lay

                I lay alone
                in the dark room with the babe
                she can’t see me
                but I still gazed in her face

                She’s crying now
                but no nurse will come to her aid
                I should hold her
                but my lead-like arms make me stay

                Chorus
                What kind of place is this broken world?
                Where trash is made of
                this beautiful girl
                A child, a daughter
                –Where’s mother or father?
                No one can say
                ’cause they threw her away

                I don’t realize
                as I begin to drift off
                when I awake
                the baby girl is gone

                I don’t really know
                what became of the girl
                if she’s in heaven
                Lord will you please tell her

                A nameless girl
                she’s not the first or the last
                God loves them all
                each child that has been outcast

                There’s no excuse for this broken world
                but nothing is higher
                than you precious girl

                A child, a daughter
                with God as your Father
                you can say
                He’s given you a name

                I am so sorry
                I didn’t do right
                but understand that
                you’re God’s delight

                Even though your parents
                threw you away
                God picked you up
                with Him to stay
                for His you remain

                What kind of place is this broken world?
                where trash is made
                of this beautiful girl
                a child, a daughter
                –where’s mother or father?
                no one can say
                ’cause they threw her away

                There’s no excuse for this broken world
                but nothing is higher
                than you precious girl
                A child, a daughter
                –with God as your Father
                you can say
                He’s given you His name

                She wrote a beautiful, haunting melody to go with these moving lyrics. Whenever I’ve heard her sing it I’m moved to tears…

                Thank you for what you’ve shared here. I am being mightily blessed by you–Peace!

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Oh gosh., Valerie, you’re just tearing me up bad here. But I need to keep things like this in my spiritual foresight because…

                  Recently the Holy Spirit has been putting a little more of His furious indignation and anger before my heart, godly anger against the atrocities of cold, cruel hearts who throw away precious little, innocent hearts. NY & VA are helping pushing God over the edge. I cannot relate it to you on here about that because, well, it’s too furious and would be a bit rough to post here. Perhaps an email later.

                  I read this. It breaks my heart. But I hear the Holy Spirit saying…see, this is why I AM is going to finally erupt against this evil and callous hardness and cruelty of heart and make My displeasure known.

                  And as a furious, angry soldier against all fronts of evil, I can’t wait for Him to begin a work in our day such as very few could even begin to perceive, believe or think possible.

                  You tell your daughter her words profoundly moved me. Good for her for capturing the essence and spirit of your experience.

                  And yes, I am an Isaiah 54 man, despite a thousand negative forces that have been and still are working 24/7 to tear me down and destroy everything.

                  Glad I have blessed you, Valerie, you and others.

                  May God have mercy on us all.

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                • I just shared this part of our conversation with Clarissa too. If we ever get that song in an audio file I told her I’d post it on my blog & share a link here &/or with you.

                  Thank you so much for continuing to fight that good fight! May the Lord’s righteous anger fuel your resolve as His peace that passes understanding calms, heals, & refreshes your soul…

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Thank you for this response.

                  Most don’t know about my music ability as a young prodigy…wrote my first sonatas, preludes and other before 6 years of age…a truly God given gift.

                  But I lost that ability in the long war against a lot of evil and tryannical government. A lot if bad things kinda interrupted that ability.

                  Going from a position many years ago of sitting at the pipe organ in St.Thomaskirch in Leipzig, (that church where Bach was the chorus master for 17 years) E. Germany playing it…to today where my fingers cannot do it anymore due to spine and CNS damage…I’ve not picked up a guitar or put my fingers to a piano for years…is very painful. I was born with a soul of music, and to be denied of that ability now…distresses me greatly.

                  I can write the symphony and other in my mind, but can no longer get it out to my fingers. I pray for God to restore the gift He gave me as a child…so that if nothing else, I can go out with a blaze of music glory.

                  Losing physical music was almost like losing a main part of one’s soul.

                  But still, I hold a sword of battle fire in my hand for the great Witness & Testimony of our Lord and God. And if I can stand up for Him just one more time…

                  I will be in peace.

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                • My husband, who is sitting by me practicing his bass for Sunday worship, was privy to me sharing snippets of this personal & sorrowful post of yours. He’s been a musician for most of his life & resonates with your pain with the loss of music.

                  He wants me to ask if you might have ever hiked in the Ouachita (spelling?) “mountains” for that’s something he’s done a bit of back in his scouting days. He & his best friend, the best man at our wedding backpacked in them a bit as young adults, before we met.

                  Sorry if what I shared caused you additional pain. My daughter’s musical endeavors are still breaking forth. She’s always had a lovely singing voice & is now showing interest in guitar, ukulele, & piano, as well as furthering her dance repertoire. My own mother has significant musical gifts including keyboarding & perfect pitch. I don’t believe she’s ever written her own music though.

                  Mom does very much appreciate musical gifts in her offspring. My youngest brother’s second daughter is a very gifted musician with a small, loyal local coffee house following. I have musical skills but no motivation or ambition here. When young marrieds my husband & I served on our then church’s worship team. He played (self-taught) drums & I was a vocalist….Josiah has a lovely singing voice, as does Brandon (who landed the Danny Zucco “Grease” lead in his senior year high school musical), & has a tremendous sense of rhythm. Even Nathaniel is musically skilled, but like me has little ambition to pursue this arena.

                  Some of our best extended family memories revolve around worshiping at the fire pit in the North Woods of my parents’ Northern Michigan Cottage…

                  Anyway, thank you for sharing these experiences. May the Lord restore that which has been lost, so, like Samson, one more time (at least) you can Glorify the Lord with these surpassing gifts! Blessings

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  TY so much for that. The music thing haunts me to no end, but hey, there is Bach playing his Passacaglia & Fugue in C Minor on his Organ on High.

                  I have much music never released. One day maybe, it’s up to the Lord’s timing. For now, it’s put away in archives secured in one of our entity’s estates. I could never have a famous face or widely recognized name most of my life because of the type of work I was involved in, still am somewhat, but things are about to change into whole new parameters

                  Chess was another area of prodigy skills. With music and chess ability, one could get into any country, including communist countries, especially the old USSR.

                  I wrote a piece called A SABBATH NIGHT PASSAGE back in 2008 to that music. It was ethereal, both my piece and Bach’s composition. It was like a conversation in Heaven. Goes deep to whatever I am to the Lord. I’ll try to get it to you later. Haunts me to this day. It’s stuff like that, that kept (and keeps) my heart from turning into a stone….thank God!

                  Yes to your husbands query about the Quachita Mountains. Have spent considerable time there. One of my absolute fav places is the Panorama Vista up on Talimena Drive. I’ve spent nights up there. Have seen some beautiful creatures up there. A great owl, a large grey wolf. Have looked down on clouds over the valley below, even saw an eagle gliding lower than where I was standing on the vista.

                  There was a period of time, decades ago, when I would go up there every evening, walk around and around the paved loop and commune with the Lord. O! How I miss that. I think part of my heart and spirit is still up there. Must get back there again one day.

                  I bet your husband has been up to and around Magazine Mtn in western Arkansas. Talk about an awesome lookout and view!

                  3 places I must get back to…Panarama Vista, St.Petersburg, and above all, my most beloved city on the earth, Jerusalem, an integral part of past life and the place of one of the most killing, painful losses of my entire life…occuring in the general time frame of the Moscow thing. I published a short poem about that occasion in small circles a few years ago. Another story for another day.

                  Music is the song of God’s heart.

                  I want it back in my hands one more great time before joining Bach on those heavenly pipe organs on High.

                  Shalom

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                • Michael just went to bed so I’ll have to get him to read what you shared & either reply under my handle or Maybe get him to post something at WordPress himself–a Very Rare Treat indeed.

                  Thank you for the beautiful word & heart pictures from your extraordinary unexpected unfinished Life!

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  That’ll work.

                  And you’re welcome with a thank you right back atcha!

                  Shalom

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  One more little thing.

                  I’ve got this “knife” stabbing down on top of my left shoulder. Started up again last night and is still there. I know what it is. It’s a heart issue. My heart issues can go from mild to life-threatening in one NY second…being one more burden to carry while getting on to other issues, some of which are more important than even my own health.

                  But I have to keep going. I have a whole lot of people hanging onto my coat-tails hoping I get it right and get certain things done before too long.

                  So some prayer, from you, Ad rem and any other Treepers who may read this, will be critically appreciated. I will be continuing to pray as such for all of you with issues.

                  Blessing to all!

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                • Praying, Angelle…please take care of yourself & set a “reasonable” pace. Even Elijah needed some cave (man!) time to rejuvenate, with God ministering to him & his physical, emotional, & spiritual needs.

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  I’ve actually prayed to God for some cave time, but yet, an angel fed him and he went 40 days without eating or drinking on that journey to Mt. Horeb to even get to that cave.

                  But the thing to note is that God would not let him remain sitting under the broom tree hoping to die. Been there, done that too.

                  Maybe I need some angel food. It would be welcome. I do need the rest. But God appoints those time in His way, time and will.

                  When He wants you to keep going, when you want to stop the earth and get off, He gives the grace and strength to continue on until you get to the next road stop.

                  Look at Paul. Stoned, left for day…then up and at ’em the next day preaching.

                  I have had some times of rest with some rather biblical, supernatural occurrences, that have been great strength to go on for decades. But the last great time was 1985. Time for another milestone of communication with the Lord. I’m ready more than ever for it.

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                • Well, God & you know best. But it’s OK to lessen the pace a bit as we age. Those still(er) waters remain increasingly Deep. Praying for God’s guidance & will for you & rest as He ordains…Blessings

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Thank you.

                  I get reminded at times when I just want to quit, at least for awhile…

                  …of Paul being out in the deep for weeks at a time, and you know, there was no napping or catching some winks…but apparently God gave him the strength to endure.

                  I have actually been without sleep for a week or more on some of our excursions. It was keep going or lose all. Adrenaline and second breath are amazing physical properties. And yeah, I was younger and would struggle to do that now, although I still get rare little sleep. Even if I spend time in chair and bed for hours. sleep just does not come for me. Yet I get up feeling refreshed enough to continue. I count that an awesome physical blessing from God.

                  So I do have confidence that when the Lord sees it’s critical to get rest, the time will be there for that and so will the circumstances.

                  But, I do see the possibility of an “island of rest” in the not too distant future. It will be the vacation of my lifetime. Can’t wait.

                  Thank you kindly for care and concern. That’s part of what the body of Christ does for each other.

                  Btw…and I’m chuckling as I type this…

                  I have not had what people call a normal vacation…since fall of 1979. That’s a biblical generation of years. 40. Not complaining. It is what it’s been and if someone were to ask me if I would do it all over again, pain and all. I would say absolutely yes. I wouldn’t want to change anything of the Lord’s past perfect will, even during times of my own imperfections.

                  Shalom

                  PS: Would you do me a favor over the next week or so?

                  If there are new prayer requests from Treepers, and you reply them, would you tell them I will be praying for them with you and others?

                  As far as the still waters…I love the thought of this phrase, the Sabbath of the Deeper Sea.

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                • “If there are new prayer requests from Treepers, and you reply them, would you tell them I will be praying for them with you and others?”

                  I’ll do my best but sometimes I’m just replying to the “bell” & I sometimes just check in At the Prayer Request page roughly weekly. I’ve been a bit more diligent lately because of sharing needs related to my twins…

                  Love the Sabbath of the Deeper Sea concept! God Bless YOU Richly in all you are endeavoring to do for Him!

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  OK…but you still earn another set of:

                  🙏👍👍👍👍👍👍👍🙏🙋‍♂️🎶

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                • Now if I could find Ad Rem’s blushing smiley…I think I feel like JFP & don’t deserve all that. Don’t want cranial critters coming forth (my head to explode!). 🙂

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Don’t think I’ve ever see that smiley here.

                  But anyway, yeah you do, so does Ad rem and a number of great Treepers!

                  Okay, where’s that blushing smiley?

                  Phone call to Ad rem requesting…🤗🤗🤗

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                • You’ve got the Bat phone, er the CAT phone!

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Maybe both, but heavy on CAT features, and not Caterpillar either.

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                • 9 lives & counting…always landing on one’s feet…ability to nestle on the bull dog’s back &/or ride on the underside of a plane’s wing (think Looney Tunes)…& let’s not forget rocking a catsuit & the fog coming in on little cat’s feet… 🙂

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Remember my comment the other day saying I think the Lord made me half cat and gave me 9 lives because He figured I’d go through a bunch of them…He was right. So I need the CAT phone to match. LOL

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                • & you’ve got Ad Rem & Jesus on speed dial! & not in that order

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                • !!! 🙂 !!! Big teeth smiley at least in my mind…

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                • angellestaria6674 says:

                  Please check ur email when you get a chance.

                  Shalom@

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                • Will do. I did tell Weeper you’d be praying & here’s her response “please tell Angelle that I said hello, and thank him for me.” Still praying for you too–God Bless!

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        • angellestaria6674 says:

          Valerie…

          Have to be up and going again.

          All kinds of things going on now, so have to put whole head and gear into it.

          Could be a week, maybe longer. I never know.

          Prayers appreciated as things are very intense. I need to make good, critical decisions and follow the Lord’s perfect will.

          Think I’ll miss the prayer request thread the most as it and the Treepers here are closest to my heart. I will post my salute to Rynn69’s video early am next Monday. Will try to throw a hi your way.

          Did get your email. Thx.

          Shalom and let us all go with God.
          A

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  45. Weeper says:

    Good Morning –
    I’m up rather early because I am in the hospital. Yesterday, the procedure to insert the stent into my right kidney didn’t go as planned. The urologist spent an hour, with me under general anesthesia, trying to insert the stent. There was too much swelling. When I woke up in recovery I was told the news that I was staying, and that Radiology was going to access my kidney, through my back (nephrostomy???). This is the same process I had to have last year when I was first diagnosised, that was done to my blocked left kidney.

    I must have good kidney function in order to receive more Chemo. So now, both of my kidneys are being drained through a tube out of my back 😢 This presents other challenges, like potential for infection. We just have to pray that we caught this in time, and my right kidney continues to function normally. I see my oncologist a week from Monday when I’ll find out when/if we’ll start more treatments.

    Thank you all again for your thoughts and prayers. It helps me to talk (write) about it, and know that others are lifting me up. It’s Caturday, so I think I’ll head over to the open thread for some kitty giggles this morning. Great therapy 😻

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    • Dear Weeper, thank you for trusting us with some of your difficult journey here. I have spent Many Hours & some pretty sleepless nights in the hospital with my kids over the years so I Know what a blessing these Prayer Pages can be when confined & in the midst of medical upheaval.

      May the Lord bless You & keep you in His perfect peace. May He overshadow you with His healing, comforting, & restoring Presence. May you be blessed as you reach out in prayer & compassion for those in need about you as He opens your eyes to see. Perhaps the Lord has brought you to this place “for such a time as this” & is going to use you for Kingdom business, being a secret, sleeper agent & ambassador for Christ; a wounded healer, a prayer warrior, a vessel fit for whatever adventures He has planned for you. God’s Grace, Hope, & Joy be Yours!

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      • Weeper says:

        Thank you Valerie –
        As I’ve said, it is wonderful to have a place to write and vent. They released me, so I am at home now, where I will be a bit more comfortable. We’ll keep praying for some good news for a change.

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        • It’s always good to be home. Rest up & may the Lord restore you in all arenas. Blessings!

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        • bjosz says:

          Oh wow! I just read all the posts on this page to refresh my mind and catch up with all you Treepers. So many serious needs, i breaks my heart! But what a FANTASTIC bunch of Prayer Warriors there are here! So wonderfully over whelming. I pray that God will bless each and every one of you in need of peace, comfort, and healing . And I add financial blessings to that . Many thanks to all of you Prayer Warriors. God bless and protect you.

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        • 4sure says:

          Weeper. Praying for you and that you will be healed. You are hanging tough. Bless you.

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          • Weeper says:

            thank you 4sure. I am praying for you as well. just like yours, my diagnosis a year ago was completely unexpected. everything that was “supposed” to happen (for the good), hasn’t. I’m trying my best to stay positive and am sending positive thoughts your way for both you and Mrs 4sure of 51 years. God bless you both!!!

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            • Hey Weeper, just had a chance to check in and was glad to see that you gave us an update, even though it was not as planned or hoped.
              Praying that God will bring faster and better healing from this different access to your kidney. It must be kind of challenging to navigate/be in bed, etc. with these things in your back. Will pray that you can get rest nevertheless.

              For all with prayer requests here, I pray for you to have the “peace that passes all understanding”.

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          • angellestaria6674 says:

            4Sure…

            Stopping in for a few minutes to say hi and that I continue to pray for your needs every day.

            The Lord hears. The Lord answers. His will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

            Shalom and blessings always,

            A

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    • justfactsplz says:

      Weeper, I pray that you are not in much pain after your procedure. I also pray that you wil be able to get more treatment. I lost a kidney to cancer in 2005. I was very fortunate. It was stage two. So far so good with my remaining kidney. Keep us posted so we now how to target our prayers for you. Hugs!

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    • Joe Blow says:

      Prayers that your right kidney continues to be OK, Weeper, & that you can continue chemo. God bless.

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    • Hangin’ in there with prayer for you, Weeper.

      You have Somebody very Special in your heart and right there by your side. The Lord sees and takes note of your present situation. In Deuteronomy 32:10 it is written…

      “He found him in a desert land and in the waste howling wilderness; He led him about, He kept him as the apple of His eye.”

      Weeper, we are on this side of the sacrifice and resurrection of Jesus Christ, that is, in the better Testament of mercy and grace. So if that was the Lord’s heart for His people in the OT, how much greater is it for the Body of Jesus Christ, the church, today….and you are part of that. We are no less cared for and loved than those of the OT.

      Blessings and great grace for you today.

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  46. Please pray for my son Josiah to not have Any Liver Rejection complications. I was refilling his pillbox last night, something I do every two weeks, when I discovered that I’d given him the wrong dosage of his anti-rejection med, Prograf/Tacrolimis, during the last refill. He’s supposed to get 1.5mg in the AM & 1.0mg in the PM, but I had inadvertently given him 0.5mg in the PM for these past two weeks…He currently takes 13 pills a day–yikes!

    He was supposed to get a blood draw in February, they still want these blood draws every 2 months, & I planned to do it at last month’s scheduled hospital/clinic appointment (I prefer U of M’s labs to the local ones so use them whenever feasible/coinciding with scheduled clinic visits). Well we ended up rescheduling that appointment, due to bad road conditions, to this coming Tuesday so that’s when we’ll get his blood checked.

    Please pray that if there are Any rejection issues that they will be revealed in Tuesday’s blood draw. It has been 5 1/2 years since his Liver Transplant & he has thus far has Zero rejection incidents–Praise the Lord! He has been fighting a bit of a cold, something he faces seasonally, especially since the transplant, but overall his health seems “fine”/”typical” (for him!)

    We are scheduled into the Nephrology Clinic (he has Chronic Kidney Disease & Chronic High Blood Pressure for which he takes several meds) so please pray that this is a successful & productive visit & if there are any issues we need to address that they will be revealed in our discussions. Since Josiah is autistic his willingness (& effectiveness) to communicate can be quite challenging. This can be a bit more of an issue now that he is being seen mostly in adult care clinics, for pediatrics were a bit more skilled/familiar with these types of issues–& my stamina for some of these battles is much diminished via numerous “pointless” head-against-the-wall contests for him over the years, so I’m a much less “effective” advocate than I ever was (if I ever was even that)–sigh….

    Thanks again for praying for my family. You guys Rock!

    PS Josiah is definitely proclaiming Jesus boldly on Twitter–something he joined pretty recently. You can find him here:

    Also, there is a post at one of my blogs that has A Lot of healing scriptures with beautiful images that may be a blessing & encouragement to you if you might be interested. Blessings to All!

    specialconnections.wordpress.com/2018/08/18/complex-ptsd-personal-touchpoints/

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  47. Found at Stella’s Place here:
    https://stellasplace1.com/2019/03/09/general-discussion-saturday-march-9-2019/

    lovely says:
    March 9, 2019 at 8:20 am
    Thank you every one for your prayers, thoughts and beautiful words.

    I am headed back down to my mom’s house this morning.

    Everything happened so quickly that it is a blur.

    My dad had an undiagnosed urinary tract infection, undiagnosed because he refused to go to the doctor. My mom finally convinced him to go on Wednesday. After the urgent care visit they stopped to pick up an antibiotic prescription but it couldn’t be filled. My mom took him home did a few thing and then left to run an errand and pick up the prescription. My dad was up and watching television when my mom left.

    When my mom returned my dad was on the floor semi-conscious.

    He was transported by ambulance to the ER. He never regained consciousness. He was on a ventilator, IV blood pressure medication, 24 hour dialysis as his kidneys had completely shut down, after 12 hours on the antibiotics and dialysis his septic numbers were still moving in the wrong direction.

    His vitals continued to fluctuate, his fever (103) was masked by the dialysis.

    His body simply shut down.

    Through all of this we had the best doctors and nurses that I have ever interacted with.

    Thank you again and again for you prayers and kindness.

    ❤️🙏🏼

    Please pray for this precious lady & her mother as they cope with this sudden heartbreak…

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  48. Just a quick report that my husband heard from Brandon via Facebook Messenger (I’m not on FB) & he & his team arrived safely in Guatemala. He is getting acclimated to 80ish weather, a welcome reprieve from Michigan’s seemingly ceaseless winter blues. They have good accommodations & wi-fi access in the hotel so we may get periodic updates from him.

    He might be the only one on the team on a first-time missions trip. They are enjoying fellowship & worship today & tomorrow. The dirty work (house-building, evangelism, etc) is planned for M-F. Thanks for your prayers for this cross-cultural outreach. Blessings

    If there is further news from him to share I plan to post it in reply to This message, fyi…

    Here’s the photo caption (I hope you can see it) “LA MERCED CHURCH, ANTIGUA, GUATEMALA – APRIL 1, 2012: Making a Mayan design Holy Week carpet (or alfombra) in the path of a religious procession using wooden stencils and dyed sawdust
    Photo Taken On: April 01st, 2012”

    https://www.dreamstime.com/editorial-image-spraying-water-holy-week-carpet-antigua-guatemala-april-local-woman-dampens-dyed-sawdust-procession-arrives-to-image67225825

    Hopefully above some images from Guatemala Christian activities show…

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    • Ad rem says:

      Hoo-ray! Your eaglet has landed…. 😀 Keep us informed as his trip progresses.

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    • Here’s an email from one of the leaders:

      “Buenas noches (good evening) everyone! We arrived safely today to Guatemala City and have been welcomed by some new and old friends! The team is doing well despite many of us not getting a lot of sleep the night before. The average seems to be less than 3 hours. Crazy kids.

      Today after arriving, Raul, the pastor of Gran Commission church, and some friends showed us around the historic town of Antigua, which was absolutely gorgeous and located next to an innactive. Volcano. We ate helado exotico (exotic ice cream which included flavors like habenero banana and strawberry basil black pepper), got to haggle with streetside vendors, learn more about Guatemala from new friends we’re making from the church, and brush up on our Spanish skills (or learn new ones :)).

      God is good and it’s been fun today to see more of his creation and meet more of his people. We’re looking forward to attending a church service tomorrow and preparing for our week ahead.

      Excited to keep you updated on our blog throughly the week but wanted to send a first email out to let you know we arrived safe and are settled in.”

      Here’s their blog in case anyone wants to dig in more:

      https://h2oinguate.weebly.com/

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    • Brandon checked in briefly last night. He spent much of the day in back-breaking labor moving wheelbarrows of sand & leveling it to create a (shaky?) foundation for the house they are to help in building. He thought he might have been more equipped for this task than what many of his teammates did, which was sharing the Gospel in Spanish (which B doesn’t speak, though he did take a pocket dictionary with him at my suggestion) at a local college campus…thanks for praying for them all. Blessings to all!

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    • I did post an update from one of the team leaders but on the next page now; click “newer comments” on the lower right of this page & scroll down a bit. There is a pretty floral scripture meme with a purple butterfly near the end of that update comment. Thanks for your prayers for Brandon & his Guatemalan Missions Team. Blessings!

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  49. 4sure says:

    Prayer for Physicians and Nurses
    “Lord Jesus Christ, we call upon your blessed name and we pray for your merciful heart to surround these with love, strength, and courage and we ask Your hands to touch them with the power of healing. May they be directed to the right treatment in Your blessed name as we ask You Lord to represent the physicians, nurses, and medical care aids and administer them in Your spirits. May every cancerous cell be cast out and replaced with good ones. May every spot of this deadly cell be wiped out by Your powerful hands.”

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  50. Ad rem says:

    Reposted for “angelle”….

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    In reply to Little Bessie.

    HAPPY NEW YEAR to all here! Love very one of you!!!

    This is a little different, but I hope it blesses all of you. Some of who are alive this day, know that we have been blessed to start another new year.

    The other night, one of the commenters posted a Celtic Women version of the Auld Lang Syne. That stirred up some deep, old rumbling memories of a time working in what was then known as the Soviet Union/USSR/Eastern Bloc. I replied to that comment about a poem I wrote and decades later shared with a few very close, trusted online friends to the song of Mannheim Steamroller’s version of the Auld Lang Syne. For the benefit of those who read my comments the other night, I post this poem here in the open thread for the beginning of a New Year.

    Remembering that dreadful Christmas and New Year season back in the 1970s in Moscow so long ago, I am much to emotional right now to say much more. I will let my poem say my heart. But it speaks power to the truth, that love and sacrifice of one’s own life is worth whatever it costs. Jesus said, Greater love has no man than this, that he lay down his life for his friend. (For me, that includes those anywhere, anytime, whether I knew them or not…2nd Commandment…your neighbor can be anyone, anywhere.) Some pain never goes away until we rest our souls with God in that final day of our earthen journey.

    My heart to all you here at CTH for the New Year would be this:

    I encourage you to expend yourselves, your lives, resources in any and all ways of sacrifice for your fellow citizens, your nation, your neighbor, and children, if you are put in the place to do so, remembering Jesus’s words: Greater love has no man than this, that he lay own his life for his friend. 2nd Commandment. Our neighbor can be anyone, anywhere, anytime. Fight for the value of life, because when you do so, you do it as doing it unto the Lord Who sacrificed and suffered magnanimously more than all of us put together ever could.

    ————————————————————

    The Aleksandre in the Prologue is Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn…but that’s a whole other story for another day.

    …for Sasha-11, Tasha-10 and Ekaterina Alexseev-7…in memory of your new lives/1974

    PROLOGUE:

    Aleksandr, I love your land, its soul
    The beauty of the motherland and whole
    Heart of the Russian spirit and kind
    Generosity of comrades not so blind
    To the evil of the day and tyrant lies
    Whose heart is in the devil’s eyes

    UNTITLED:

    I sit alone in coldest isolation
    Wounded deep, and bloody execration
    Is the beast I fiercely fight
    Struggling to live through this evil night
    Of incessant torture, boundless pain
    Hatred of a tyranny inhumane

    Today is dark, too dreadful to know
    Whether I live or die in this Russian snow
    Christmas Joy evades me this longest year
    Instead, I gasp as the living dead in fear
    Wondering each moment of the pressing day
    Who is the worst enemy for whom I pray

    What terrible pain, agony, blood for others
    Children, orphans, sisters, brothers
    Whose lives together exceeded my own
    For sins of mighty tyrants to atone
    Beyond the wisdom of the many and the free
    Who never walked in the woods of the refugee…….

    Three precious little girls left alone in despair
    Was it worth it, to come to this final affair?
    O! how finite, the flesh, to die as such
    So far away from home without the touch
    Of all the loving hands and hearts I knew
    To Sun, Moon and Stars……I bid you adieu

    I called to the West who could not hear
    Cavalier in decadence and drunken cheer
    Selfish in its gain and pompous pride
    Lost to vision in a world applied
    To its blinded soul’s self-satisfaction
    Who gives a damn for an orphan’s extraction?!

    So it is, by God and by grace
    I will die or live to leave this place:

    My dearest compatriot I know not where
    You are this day and what despair
    You also suffer apart from me
    Perhaps in Heaven’s Eternity
    I will find you and pass the Holy Kiss
    Of God our Father’s Peace and Eternal Bliss

    November mid-1970s – Moscow

    Later added as an addendum to a book we wrote but never published and never will: DARK DAYS OF A WILDERNESS JOURNEY: THE KREMLIN MASTERS

    As a footnote, the “compatriot” in the last stanza did not survive that occasion. I didn’t learn about what happened to him until Christmas of 2005. I have often questioned God why He helped me survive but didn’t help him. You just don’t get answers to some things in this life.

    —————————————————————

    I also have a great affinity for the city of Saint Petersburg which was called Leningrad in those days. Hopefully, with better health, I’d like to go back and reconnect there. It is a most beautiful city, probably my 2nd favorite city on Earth behind Jerusalem, Israel.

    So I am posting this awesome video: A NATIONALIST CHRISTMAS: THE SPLENDOR OF SAINT PETERSBURG. It will be well worth your time to watch and listen to the music. If any of you ever get the chance to go to St. Petersburg, don’t pass it up. It is an awesome place. And make sure to see Catherine the Great’s palace.

    Happy New Year to the whole wonderful, intelligent, loving-caring Conservative Tree House family here. I pray God richly bless all of you with health, strength, hope, faith, joy and peace…we are going to need that from Him in coming days and years.

    Angelle

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